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OMNIPRESENCE Satan’s communion: the 66 of the 666. The manual of the soul’s dillemma. © 2009 by Joseph Edward Bonnette 

Psalms 104:30   Thou sendest forth thy spirit, they are created: and thou  renewest the face of the earth.-----

----------- Light travels slow now compared to being instantaneous, but just behind our “curtain” of waiting for light to come, God is making another universe John calls the “THE NEW HEAVEN AND NEW EARTH.” All that we think PROVES it is not just a “photogenic image” are really demons pulling strings behind the curtain, moving the “celestial puppets” so we will think they are really still there, and sending visiting devils disguised as aliens to make us think they came from “out there.” When the light from that old universe we see finally reaches it’s end during the end times, it will look like the “STARS FELL TO THE EARTH EVEN AS A FIG TREE CASTS HER UNTIMELY FIGS SHAKEN OF A MIGHTY WIND.” This will cause panic and chaos world wide, and Jesus said, “for then shall be great tribulation, such as has not been from the foundation of the world, no nor ever shall be again.” But God "CALLS THOSE THINGS WHICH BE NOT AS THOUGH THEY ARE" to confound the "wise." Satan did not have the wisdom of God or Paul says "the prince/s of this world would not have crucified the Lord of glory." And it was “TOUCHING THE ANOINTED” while he hung helplessly upon the cross, under the WILL OF GOD, which condemned satan to the lake of fire. If Jesus had scrapped the whole thing and called ten legions of angels, THEN SATAN WOULD HAVE TAKEN OVER THE WHOLE UNIVERSE AND COULD HAVE NEVER BEEN CONDEMNED AGAIN. THE EVIL HEIGHTS SATAN WOULD HAVE RISEN TO, WOULD HAVE TOWERED OVER HIS FIRST SINS OF CASTING A THIRD OF THE ANGELS OUT OF HEAVEN WITH HIM, AS HIS ETERNAL HOSTAGES TO DO HIS DEMONIC BIDDING. The lake of fire prepared for satan would have remained empty forever and hell would have remained a place where souls waited eternally in neither “heaven or hell.” Satan would have KNOWN who Jesus was, and HE WOULD NOT LAY A FINGER ON HIM! Jesus had to obey the will of God to please God, for he said, “the father loves me for I do always those things which please him.” And Jesus always spoke in parables, since he said, “or they will see with their eyes and understand with their hearts and be converted.” This was not just to make us seek God for understanding, but MAINLY TO CONFOUND SATAN who could not understand prophecy having lost the testimony of Jesus the spirit of prophecy. 

---Jesus was in God's mind and with God from before the foundation of the world, but was not made flesh until the fulness of time had come. That means he did not have any experiential knowledge of existing before, EXCEPT WHAT THE FATHER TAUGHT HIM AS GOD’S MAIN PROPHET. The true spirit of Christmas is the spirit of the newly born infant who though appeared to be like us, “coming in the likeness of sinful flesh,” was nevertheless the ULTIMATE SON OF GOD, OUT OF WHOM ALL OTHER THINGS COME. God exists by pure science, calling the word, “logos” LOGIC, and God had to have a sole companion that could stand in his presence without a mediator, and only Jesus was great enough to be able to do this. God could not create anything but by the word, since he could not create anything but what came out of a WHOLE. But why could not God consider himself that whole then? Because whatever he created had to have a hierarchy, and rank of importance, and one of those things had to be able to stand in his presence ALONE WITHOUT ANY OTHER REPRESENTATION. Only the son Jesus was sufficient to please God alone and without any barrier between him and God. Also God’s mind is OMNISCIENT, and sees the end from the beginning, and so does not learn like we do, but creates his best work first, and then makes all other creatures their offspring. Jesus said that “before Abraham existed, he existed.” But he was not speaking of Abraham’s flesh or his own flesh, or substance, BUT WHAT ORDER THEY EXISTED IN RANK IN GOD’S MIND. When we pray for salvation, we are not praying for God to “fix up our pathetic lives as they exist now,” but that we would BE WHAT GOD IMAGINED US TO BE “FROM BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD,” --- AND HAVE THAT “GLORY WE HAD WITH GOD FROM BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD.” Psalm 51, the greatest salvation prayer of all time, written by a man who ran whole cities full of people through brick-kilns and cut them up with saws and axes, prays “RESTORE UNTO ME THE JOY OF YOUR SALVATION.” What good, I ASK, would Psalm 51 be to a man who has NEVER BEEN SAVED, OR MAYBE NEVER HAD JOY? Where will that joy come from? AND WHEN DID IT EVER EXIST?? If we cannot pray with Jesus, “give me that joy I had with you from before the foundation of the world,” THEN WHERE AND HOW WILL OUR VICTORY OVER DEPRESSION, OPPRESSION, INJUSTICE, ETC. COME? The word was called "God" for it is the word of God, AND NOTHING BUT GOD, AS ALL CREATION IS BEFORE IT IS MADE FLESH. The whole first chapter of Genesis up to verse 4 of chapter 2 IS ALL "WORD ONLY." That is why it says, "and God saw all he created and made and behold it was very good," or that is, "VERY GOD." Jesus said "why call me good? there is none good but one, that is God." And Paul says, "every creature of God is good and nothing to be refused, FOR IT IS SANCTIFIED BY THE WORD OF GOD AND PRAYER." We are called "Gods" (with a large G if we are not fallen,) UNTO WHOM THE WORD OF GOD COMES. The word is our God head, or "likeness of God." We were chosen in Christ from before the foundation of the world, BUT WE DID NOT EXIST THEN, BUT IN WORD FORM, AND THEREFORE WERE CALLED "GOOD," OR THAT IS, "GOD." In chapter 2 of Genesis verse 5 God says, "THERE WAS NOT A MAN TO TILL THE GROUND." Did not God just make Adam? He also says there was not an herb on the earth either. So neither did Jesus exist before his conception in Mary's womb, and that is why satan thought Jesus could not be above him in rank, simply because WHERE DID HE COME FROM? God says Jesus was crucified from before the foundation of the world. That is all word too. It does not say "God determined to crucify Jesus," though it is true, but that he was already crucified. This is the all written PARABOLICALLY in the first two verses of Genesis, which COINCIDE WITH JOHN 1; 1. First he created the heavens and the earth. This means God began speaking the word into existence, and called the word the earth, and the heavens the blood line to the father, which is the spirit of the gospel, who is the image of God. 2 Cor. 4; 4. Then in verse 2 the earth, Jesus, is crucified, coinciding with ISAIAH 52; 14, "HE WAS MORE MARRED MORE THAN ANY MAN/WITHOUT FORM AND VOID AND DARKNESS WAS UPON THE FACE OF THE DEEP. This is where Jesus cried out, "my God my God why have you forsaken me."

Also to deny the true nature and identity of Jesus is why the world is rejecting him, since WE CANNOT JUST LIVE BY SHEAR TRADITIONAL NONSENSE FOREVER. SOONER OR LATER PEOPLE WILL WANT TO KNOW WHY WE NEED TO ACCEPT JESUS AS OUT SAVIOR, AND NOT JUST BE COERCED BY SOME STRANGE FEELING THEY SHOULD,. God says "with all your getting get understanding." -- for they are a people without understanding, THEREFORE THE LORD THAT MADE THEM WILL SHOW THEM NO MERCY OR FAVOR.

You will notice what a wimp President Bush has been in his so called Christian convictions. Where is he telling the enemy they better receive Jesus or be DAMNED ? He more or less just says "who am I to judge if you are saved or not for not accepting Jesus?" No wonder so many people in the world are HAPPY TO BLOW THEMSELVES UP AND IMAGINE THEY WILL GO TO HEAVENLY PARADISE FULL OF WHATEVER THEY WANTED IN THIS LIFE BUT THEIR SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS WOULD NOT LET THEM HAVE!!! President Bush CLAIMS he got saved at a CERTAIN POINT AND TIME, “and was never the same since,” YET HE CLAIMS HE WILL NOT SPEAK TO THE ENEMY SINCE HE SAYS “what ingenious message is there that will convince them they are wrong?” (as if the Bible is not an ingenious enough message; and God promises to back it up with his spirit to convince all gainsayers, for the word is quick and powerful and sharper than ANY two-edged sword, ‘even those of our military,’) SO IS HE SAYING HE DID NOT HAVE TO BE CONVINCED HE WAS WRONG ABOUT ANYTHING TO GET SAVED??? IF NOT, HE IS NOT SAVED, BUT IF SO, WHY DOES HE NOT THINK THAT SAME ARGUMENT HE USED ON HIMSELF WILL NOT WORK ON THEM?? Or maybe he is just “HOLIER THAN THEM,” SAYING “stand back for I am holier than thou; THE MEANS I GOT SAVED BY COULD NEVER WORK ON THE LIKES OF YOU!!!” God says “these are a smoke in my nose, a fire that burns all the day.” And there sure is a fire burning all the day in Iraq. Why aren’t we getting the same thing happening here as in Iraq? And if we did, ARE GOING TO FINALLY FIND A REASON TO SEND OUR TROOPS HOME, SO THEY CAN HURRY UP AND DO HERE WHAT THEY ARE DOING THERE?? The government will not even let our troops hand out coins with Christian messages on them to children or anyone in Iraq. SHOULD NOT THOSE WHO FIGHT FOR OUR FREEDOM OF SPEACH AND LIBERTY HAVE ALL THE MORE FOR THEMSELVES????  If we are keeping ourselves safe, then maybe we should do the SAME THING OVER THERE WE ARE DOING HERE!! It sure isn’t because we JUST GUARD OUR BORDERS SO TIGHTLY AND KNOW FOR SURE WE ARE NOT HARBORING ANY TERRORISTS. When will we give God all the credit and glory, and know that if THERE IS EVIL IN ANY CITY, HE DID IT!! AMOS 3; 6!!! HE WILL NOT GIVE HIS GLORY OF PERFECT CONTROL TO ANOTHER!!! Where does it say in Job that satan just decided one day to go torment poor Job?? NO!! SATAN HAD TO GO TO GOD FOR PERMISSION, AND THEN GOD LAID DOWN THE GUIDELINES:: “JUST DON’T TAKE HIS LIFE.” you would think satan could have given Job all those boils and sores and thrown him in a pit where NO FRIEND WOULD EVER FIND HIM. But THEN JOB WOULD HAVE DIED!! We need friends, or we die. If we are mortally injured as Job was, we will die without friendship, and SATAN KNEW THIS. Satan could have done what he did with me, and just make Job the loneliest man on the planet, and let him have enough health so that too would not kill him, but satan was bloodthirsty. Satan had to sink his fangs in Job and taste his blood like a Vampire, or he could not have any satisfaction. Since the crucifixion, satan has learned many more ways to satisfy his need to damn souls, like deceive the church with “well sounding” doctrines of devils, as Jude says, “they crept in among us unawares.” Before the crucifixion, the verse, “whoso sheds man’s blood by man shall his blood be shed” was not in effect, since this was a parabolic prophecy of satan shedding the blood of the “MAN” Christ Jesus, so that satan would be defeated by his blood, or “ANOINTING” being shed. Satan was called, especially BEFORE his fall, the anointed Cherub. Anointed means “Christian.” So before the crucifixion satan was called the death angel, since he was not yet defeated, and therefore preached the gospel with the edge of the sword TO ALL THE WORLD. Now the death angel is swallowed up in the victorious resurrection, as Jesus said as prophesied in Isaiah, “your dead men shall live, together with my dead body shall they arise.” Just read the testimony of Moses, and others, who say over and over, (DEUT 3; 6 IS JUST ONE OF MANY PLACES) how they went into all the world and slew city after city full of men, women and children and LEFT NOTHING ALIVE THAT BREATHED. They all NEEDED FIRST TO BE endued with superhuman strength, and so none of them attempted this without making sure that GOD WAS WITH THEM. One place it even says that he killed so many people for so long, the sword clave to his hand, and they had to pry it loose. Now we may claim the promise of God’s protection on us, and plead the blood of the Lamb, the stripes in the US flag, as having fulfilled God’s promise. The children of Israel, the church at that time, needed to invoke the PROMISE OF THE LORD’S COMING, by sprinkling his blood, the BLOOD OF THE LAMB over their doorposts. THE DOOR POSTS SIGNIFY THE ENTRANCE OF OUR HEARTS. We need the sprinkling of the blood of Jesus to cleanse us from an evil conscience. Notice it does not say “LACK OF CONSCIENCE.” WHY?? Because before we are converted we all think what we are doing is right. We need our “Senses” exercised to KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOOD AND EVIL. We need to eat the “butter and honey” in the word, so we may grow thereby. These senses are all the faculties of our souls, and can only be exercised by the MINISTRY OF ANGELS WHO ARE SENT TO MINISTER TO ALL WHO SHALL BE INHERITORS OF SALVATION. ---- The church needs to get a handle on who Jesus is, and stop letting the world go to hell, or God says "THEIR BLOOD IS ON YOUR HEAD!!!" The blood of sinners is a TERRIBLE STAIN ON THE SOUL, AND NOTHING BUT WARNING THE WICKED CAN CLEANSE IT AWAY.

I could go on and on, but you get the idea. to read more go to www.freewebs.com/areapsalm51/  

 a real child of God who writes real messages from God, is very hard to find, though Jesus said from the time he was resurrected, "preach the gospel to every creature." The kingdom is the heart of God, and sin means “missing the mark,” which mark is the heart of God. Anything which does not let us enter that most holy place, where no unclean thing shall enter, nor he who loveth and maketh a lie, etc., is a sin. Faith is what makes it clear if we are in the kingdom or not, and Psalm 51 is the key which opens the door of that kingdom for us. And Jesus promises it is impossible to deceive an elect person, but that you must be like him, ----- “Luke 2:52   And Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favour with God and man. And if Jesus prayed LIKE HIS SOUL DEPENDED ON IT, HOW MUCH MORE OUGHT WE TO???? ======= Hebrews 5:7   Who in the days of his flesh, when he had offered up prayers and  supplications with strong crying and tears unto him that was able to save him  from death, and was heard in that he feared; 

Hebrews 5:8   Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things  which he suffered; 

Hebrews 5:9   And being made perfect, he became the author of eternal  salvation unto all them that obey him; 

----------- People do not know it, but there are MANY OTHER IMAGES on his burial cloth they call the shroud of Turin, (look that up if you have not seen it.) Like there is a picture of God's image over the crown of thorns, with his profile of the right side of his head. It is like in 2 pictures he made of himself, the full frontal image is as tall as the profile of his head, so it is far less detailed, but the profile is very detailed. Also there is a picture of Michael the angel on his neck, he has a square face, which is where the "priest collar" comes from, and there is a picture of Christ's glorified image on his chest. His right wing from a distance seems shaped like a banana, so maybe you can see it. On the back, on the very end of the pig tail shaped hair cut of Jesus, which was the style for Jews back then, is the face of satan headed down toward the lake of fire, and so right on the small of Jesus back is the lake of fire with Satan's face in it with smoke and fire billowing out of his eyes. These are all things people do not know or really care about. The shroud I heard was boiled in oil over the centuries, and yet not one part of the image was ever destroyed, except one time it was in a silver box which melted in a fire, but only one drop of molten metal burned the cloth, when it was all folded up, so it looks like big "teeth" tried to eat it. The image is so delicately made by God at the moment of the resurrection, the image does not penetrate one fiber of the cloth, or hardly a small percentage down into it, and it is the actual blood of Jesus.

These are just some things that interest me, how about you? The gospel is to be preached to every "CREATURE" meaning animals too, (BUT HOW MUCH MORE HUMANS?!!) because we are MADE IN THE IMAGE OF THE GOSPEL, FOR IT IS THE IMAGE OF GOD. We preach to animals by God speaking to them through us, for Paul says “the gospel has gone out into all the world.” This is not by word of mouth, but spirit, since the risen Lord has preached to the spirits in prison, and his voice of many waters covers the whole earth, but he needs us for his vessels to do this through. Animals have only a distant likeness to the image of God, and so not made “directly” in his image AS IT IS WITH HUMANS, but their image is still derived from God's image. READ 2 COR 4; 4, as to how satan would "blind the minds" of the people, or the light of the glorious gospel of Christ should be preached to them WHO IS THE IMAGE OF GOD!

The old testament was called the ministry of death, because satan was not defeated and the truth of who God is was not revealed, and so the gospel was preached to all the world by edge of the sword of steel, and the children of Israel were all ordained by none other than God to be terrorists. Just read Deuteronomy 3; 6, how Moses testified, "we went through every city, and left nothing alive that breathed utterly destroying men women and children by the edge of the sword." BUT JESUS SAID, "I DO ONLY WHAT I SEE MY FATHER DO," and he did not murder one person but the opposite, actually raising them from the dead, both spiritually and physically. Isaiah prophecies, "YOUR DEAD MEN SHALL LIVE, TOGETHER WITH MY DEAD BODY SHALL THEY ARISE." Isaiah 26:19   Thy dead men shall live, together with my dead body shall they  arise. Awake and sing, ye that dwell in dust: for thy dew is as the dew of  herbs, and the earth shall cast out the dead. -----===== This was a prophecy that in the resurrection of Jesus, we too shall live with him.

The statement of God, "whoso sheds man's blood by man shall his blood be shed" WAS NOT IN EFFECT IN THE OLD TESTAMENT. David ran whole cities through brick kilns and cut them up with saws and axes and was know for being a BLOODY MAN, and God would not let him build a temple for God because of it. YET HE WROTE THE GREATEST REPENTANCE PRAYER OF ALL TIME, after Nathan came to him, pretending to speak of another man, who stole a man's Lamb, and when David said, "the man who did this shall surely die, but first pay back 4 fold what he stole," Nathan told him "YOU ARE THE MAN!!!" When David saw he just condemned himself to death, he began to repent, and that is what made him write PSALM 51, CALLED THE KEY OF DAVID BY JESUS IN REVELATION;None of the sins David committed in his dealing with other nations, were held against him, since satan was not yet defeated, and so his murdering of countless scores in ways which would make the worst dictator jealous was just at best punished by God not letting him build a temple for him. But once God brought him to CONDEMN HIMSELF, who was a member of God’s chosen people, THEN DAVID KNEW HE HAD JUST CROSSED WIRES. When we finally do something that we know we could not do if we were saved, and it COMPLETELY CROSSES ALL EXCUSES WE MAY MAKE FOR OURSELVES, then we think we were pure and innocent before we did that dirty deed. But the truth is, Jesus said, “a good tree cannot bring forth corrupt fruit.” So if ever you did any sin, NO MATTER HOW TINY, it is just a small symptom of being a corrupt tree. We need a continual growth process and that is what the church is for: it is not a place where the perfect all come together like the spiritual version of the “genius club,” but it is a place where all the wounded in battle against satan come for retreat and refreshment in the presence of God. If the church is not a hospital for sinners, there is NO HOSPITALITY THERE. 

AND HIS COUNTENANCE WAS AS THE SUN SHINES IN HIS STRENGTH. ----- Stars are basically giant balls of water, whose elements are “twoedged,” and so exist separate from one another. When Jesus was on the cross, he was separate from his other element, his blood, and so was in hell, “burning” in a despair which gave him no answers, though he knew why God would forsake him up until the moment God began to forsake him. Then he cried my God my God WHY have you forsaken me. But when God is added to creation, elements, like our righteousness need no longer follow their “chosen” paths, but all being reconciled to God becomes “good.” When we are reconciled to God, we no longer need to follow paths of righteousness which “trick” our evil concious into believing we are saved, but must hold all things common and hold to only one rule: “moderation.” There is no right or wrong in our lives, though there is, it is all regulated by the spirit of God if we are in him. While taking drugs is wrong, for example, using choice and specific ones as medicine under certain circumstances is right, and only if we do so in moderation. While murdering is wrong, executing known murderers is right, and while killing for defence and punishment and vengance for God’s sake is not tectically murder, it is still “killing” but with “moderation.” God will still leave the door open, for the sake of being sure we do not execute wrongly someone who is innocent, (but who in fact is,) the chance he might be saved if we but preach to him. So in all things we use moderation, and do not strain at a mosquito by counting certain things taboo, while we live stinking in an overinflated opinion of ourselves in a self devized form of righteousness. There is nothing taboo of itself, but it must always have a higher reason than just counting something unclean, or deciding that no one can be saved while they do a certain thing, like smoke for example. Tobacco is not evil of itself, and if done in moderation as a medicine under the circumstance of a very unfortunate and stressful situation, which requires level headedness and most basic reasoning, it can be a good thing, and cause us to make decisions that would make us avoid very dangerous mistakes in life. But if a person is healthy mentally and spiritually, and has not fallen under severe hardships of unbearable weight, smoking is foolish and can even be self engrandizing, thinking it to somehow enhance your supposed irresistable charms. But no matter what, it must be done in moderation, and only as a medicine for helping you get through unthinkable tragedies. If you think it is a damning thing just because you are doing it, then you are denying that there are many worse sins such as pride and failure to help the needy, and such like things which are far more destructful, and that the Bible teaches us that nothing is good or evil of itself, but to him that counts a thing as unclean, TO HIM it is unclean. A weaker brother may judge you for it, thinking you are fallen from God, and for his sake you should not do it, but you cannot live to always please the weak minded brethren, if you yourself are so weak and troubled. The puritans of England were a very rule based and self made people in righteousness, and so lived as if they could detect every sin, and were able to rid themselves of sin by doing outward works. But had they fine tuned their doctrines ACCORDING TO THE SCRIPTURES MORE PERFECTLY, and less vaugley, they would have found the error of their ways, and realized that you cannot so maintain and come to any forms of true righteousness by maintaining a chosen life style. The puritans who traveled overseas to America, who testify how they found whole tribes whose women wore nothing but trible jewlry, and whose husbands were not jealous of others intercoursing them, therefore found themselves under the feigned and decietful obligation to FORCE their way of life on them, instead of making the image of God, in whose image their bodies are made, the deciding factor in the case, and were so vehement in their DEMANDS, that if the poor Indians did not obey and submit to the puritanical way of life, some were burned at the stake! If you can look at a nude person, whether you are sexually attracted or not, and find your attention to God deverted and sucked into their beauty like they are a black hole, you did not have your attention to God in the first place. And if you are that way in the presence of a nude person, you are that way in the presence of a clothed person. God does follow the lines on our bodies where our clothing begins or ends, but sees the whole person all at one time, and all sin being against God and God only, we should make the defintion of adultery and fornication, etc., according to what it is to us, but what it is to God. When ever we give our wives or family more attention than the general church who we will be with FOREVER if we are saved, we are committing fornication, even more surely than if we just had a weakness of flesh and commited unlawful sex, and anytime we look at a person and cannot or will not see God’s image in that person, we are in some manner “lusting” after that person, and commiting adultery against God. Lust is the generic force in our souls which force is eternal combustion of a most perpetual nature, and is present in our flesh, and when we separate from our flesh in death, which is the “worm that dies not and the fire that shall not be quenched.” It is designed by God to lust only after him IN AND THROUGH ALL HE CREATES, WHICH ARE BUT “WINDOWS OF HEAVEN.” Lust is often confused merely with sexuality, but it is the same driving force which propells a hypocrte to great acts of righteousness or a whore to great acts of immorality. So unless our lusts are converted to God, and channeled through our souls and bodies in a way which does not sin, but enters the heart of God, the “bullseye” of heaven, and mixes with the faith of God, the substance of all things hoped for and evidence of all things not seen, full of the marrow of his blood, all our works will be counted as merely menstrous rages, wasting the reason why God’s gracious blood is being shed upon us. It is the word of God which separates the sheep from the goats, and gives us a solid foundation and authorization to enter the kingdom of God, which is the inner heart of God. The light from the face of Jesus is the blood he shed for us, which he alone had access to, but could not dispese it to us until he had destroyed the evil one, and swollowed us all up in his death. For we had to die, not in our sins, but as sinners, and only in the death of Jesus, being made sin for us, could such a death occur. And only when we are made new creatures in him, can his life blood change us and exalt us unto God as servants fit to do his bidding. This is why he said, “new wine must be put into new bottles, or the rent is made worse.” Sinners who profess to be Christians, but have never sincerely sought God or repented, are made worse by partaking in the promises of God, since it does not only seal them in a strong delsuion, but actually makes them commit sins of severe forms of self righteousness, which seek to punish those who do not follow their manual of “how to live as a Christian.” But the doctrines of the true apostles, who were ordained by God to be the founders of the church, never taught us to burn sinners at the stake or shun them for their rejection of us, but Paul said, “overcome evil with good, and this will heap coals of fire on their head.” When we do good unto sinners, instead of having self righteous indignation against them for defying our persuasions, we convict them and melt their hard and cold hearts, which have been callased in a world which could so easilly forget them if they ever perished. And how can so called Christians clain to try and save anyone, which would mean they would live ETERNALY WITH THEM, yet they cannot do so here upon earth, when Jesus taught to pray, “your kingdom come in earth as it is in heaven?” The church’s past manner of such sins as hunting down the Indians to slaughter them like the Buffalo, and hold witch burning trials, often just for things so petty as because they could not understand a certain person’s way of life, or mental illness, or depression, etc., PROVES their denial of Jesus through their lack of understanding and accepting him for who he is. The idea that he is God, not because he is one with God, but ACTUAL GOD OF TRUE GOD, has made them miss that GREATEST MARK OF ALL, which was the doing away with the violence of the old testament, which preached the gospel by the sword of steel. Now the word is mightier thsn the sword, and is the very sword of the spirit, and we should ALONE arm ourselves with that when it comes to defending our spirituality and promoting the messages of the gospel. The whole reason the sword of steel was put away never to be used again in any form of God ordained “righteousness” in indignation against sinners JUST FOR BEING SINNERS, is because Jesus is that sacrificial “Lamb” who alone could condemn satan. Satan was never condemned, nor could have been condemned, for him being used by God to slaughter countless scores of sinners in the worst of all cold blooded atrocities, because he was over them in rank. But when he sunk his teeth into Jesus, as the “strong Bull of Bashan,” Jesus mentions in PSALM 22, “ALL HIS SINS WERE LAID IN ORDER BEFORE HIM.” This ended the “authorization” of God ever again to satan to “get his fix” devouring sinners in trecherous and merciless slaughtering of them. The great persecution of the church which soon followed the resurrection, was satan suffering “cold Turkey withdrawal symstoms” from God taking his drug of choice from him. But satan has never stopped trying to get it back by starting wars, causing accidents, and starting religions which claim such violence pleases and is commanded by God, though he is most merciful. Satan cannot deny God is merciful, so he must add that, but he being our natural father as sinners, as we therefore can relate to, would rather get his “fix” with God’s sanction, not for conscience sake, for he does not care about that, anymore than we care where we get our money and goods from just so it is legal, (so we do not have to worry about retribution of any kind,) but satan liked the “force” that was with him when God did not oppose or hinder him in any way. Now satan has to always wonder if he is going to have suffer some kind of severe withdrawal of his medication which makes him forget his eternal destiny, or feel the pain of his falling from heaven. When Lucifer fell, it is said, “the maggots were under him and covered him.” This shows he is a corpse, and is rotting, and like the living zombies we imagine whose only form of ease is to eat brains, he must go around “seeking whom he may devour,” like drug addicts do when their addiction is so terrible, PLUS being selfish and godless people they have no concern for others welfair. So it is not just that satan is in pain, and needs to eat the life of others, whose life is the goodness of God who intends their repentance, (stealing our chance of salvation from us,) but he is also evil and callus, or he would not have fallen to begin with. This is the main reason satan hates the human body, and has made us think our righteousness is tied up in our supposed “need” to cover it, and restrain it, when all it’s covering is in the light of God’s word, and all it’s restraint is in it’s intercourse with God’s spirit as his “Eunich.” God has put great pleasures in our flesh, all for his sake, and satan wants us to think this is against the true nature of holiness and is displeasing to God, and there only as a “favor” to sinful man, who should get over it as soon as possible. Jesus was made so much better than all the innumerable company of angels combined, and fills the “shoes” of the second person of the trinity SINGLEHANDEDLY, and so his lusts were never channeled through his flesh is ways which made him “uncontainable or lacking self controle.” But the self righteous, pharaseeical Christain church wants us to think he was just like we are as a man, and so we should follow his example in this and think it more holy not to marry too. Paul mentioned this, and said he thought it better if a man be even as he is, without a wife, but it was spoken as a spiritual principle of “weeping as though you did not weep, and marrying as though you did not marry, for the fashion of this world passes away.” And he did not place anyone on a lower level who married, but addmited he himself had the power to “lead about a sister” if he wanted to. And if you carry over our allowance of “eating meat” to also having an allowance have a romanitic union with one of the oposite sex, it is just as he said, that it is a DOCTRINE OF DEVILS TO FORBID TO MARRY. And if you allow marriage, but forbid those who enter the ministry to do so, it is all the worse to forbid marriage, for who can benefit the most from marriage than those who use their marriage to couple their prayers together in perpetual agreement with one another SO THEY BE NOT HINDERED IN THEIR WALK WITH GOD? And to have their belief in Jesus in an equal yoke leading them up to God’s face in heaven to be as the angels who always behold his face? To fellowship is described as “eating one another,” which is why Jesus chose the symbol of the bread as the portal to fellowshipping with him, but for which we had to be worthy, for it is TRULY HIS BODY AND TRULY HIS BLOOD!! ---- Jesus said a parable which the desciples thought was literal, when he spoke of those who made themselves Unichs for the kingdom of God, because his desciples said if you cannot just decide to get a divorse when you no longer like your wife, it is better not to ever marry. But Jesus was saying, unless you become God’s wives, essentially being demasculated in a spiritual manner, and made to intercourse God only as your source of all sexual pleasure and fulfillment, (as much as, and in the same way, a fasting person can derive satisfaction from making God his food and drink,) you are not truly fit for the kingdom of God. Wives and husbands are included as part of our “daily bread,” but just as if God does not give us our daily bread in food, we still have our daily bread in the word and prayer, and so God must become our all in all, even in things sexual, or we are not making ourselves useful to him, which is what being unkind to God is. God did not make us because he loathed our design or functions, or he would not be any of the attributes he claims to have, such as love, goodness, mercy, and kindness. And so not give God full access to our bodies, to fill them with the pleasure and qualities and attributes he wishes to, is stealing from God, and EVEN CONDEMNING HIS IMAGE, THE GOSPEL, as being unholy and unclean. And we should always remember it is to SATISFY GOD, and not ourselves. If giving us pleasure pleases God we should not see it as unholy or groan that it defies our idea of righteousness, but thank him that it did not please us to damn us instead or to torture us bodilly or in any other way. And God being as much bigger than us than the heavens are above the earth, we should NOT expect any limit to our sexual pleasure if God intends to do so unto us, which is not unthinkable seeing he made us fit and desgned for this kind of treatment and intercourse, and did not just make us this way by accident or mistakingly or just because we are sinners. We should define sin as David does which “AGAINST GOD AND GOD ONLY,” and beware of defining sin as “what is against our own idealoogies and dogmas.” If God saw any evil or sin in the display of the hhuman body in any public or private manner, APART FROM SIN POLLUTING AND DISTORTING AND DISPLACING IT AWAY FROM HIM, this would mean his image was sinful and unclean and unfit for any in heaven to ever view, and then to see his face would make him in his ways “uneven and hypocritical,” since just below his neckline would be a body which is vulgar and nasty and profane as we tend as sinners to judge our bodies, unless we are sinners who glory in shame and so proudly vaunt our wretched flesh to the world in all manner of pornography. But the light that shines from the face of Jesus is even, and branches out like a tree of life to his whole body, and beyond into the whole universe, for he is the light of the world. 

Revelation 1:17   And when I saw him, I fell at his feet as dead. And he laid  his right hand upon me, saying unto me, Fear not; I am the first and the last: 

----------------- When we as sinners see the perfect glory of Jesus up close and personal, the contrast is too much for our senses, and powers, and though we are just as strong and the same in every way, it is like standing on the ledge of a tall building, which gives some people “vertigo.” You are really in no more danger of falling than you are falling down standing in your yard, or living room, but the “CONTRAST” creates the optical illusion that you are almost getting sucked down wards. This is like it was for John when he saw the glorified Christ. The vision of such unearthly glory was so severely shocking and overwhelming and powerful, like Daniel in chapter 10, he felt as if all his strength was sapped, and his whole feeling of well being and sense of self worth was completely non existent. Jesus is not like a UFO that when it flies overhead, sapped the street lights, and makes all the power go off, for some strange reason. If anything Jesus would be giving those who see him greater strength and sense of self worth, but our perseption of reality and our need to feel superior will not let us feel it. And also, the sight of his form is far too alien in nature than can ever be explained or described without sounding too bizzare and fantastic for anyone to believe even in the slightest. But this image is on the chest area of his buriel cloth. The burn marks would not touch the image area and even stopped on an “even slant” along it’s border. And his voice is so much beyond the voice of a mere “multitude” as it was while he was “just the word not yet made flesh,” (in Daniel chapter 10,) that it is as the sound of all the water in the whole universe crashing and rushing like the voice of an “innumerable company of angels.” All this made John lose his sense of balance and fall down as if he had just been killed, yet he, still having awareness of his surrounding, knew he was helplessly laying at the feet of the “meekest of all men,” who said, “learn of me for I am meek and lowly, and you shall find rest to your souls.” It appears John was finding that rest, but it was not from being with his human nature, but by being overwhelmed by his ultimate “morning star” nature. Jesus had promised that John would not die until he saw him in his glory, and now he was ready and fit to die, and only Jesus speaking peace and strength to his soul could make him rise up and begin to write down what words Jesus made able to understand, and compose into that message which is the summary of all Christian letters that can ever be written. So after Jesus touched him with the most glorious healing touch that made John’s soul prosper beyond what Jesus could have ever done during his earthly ministry, doing greater works through us, since he has gone to his father and become glorified, Jesus spoke those words, “fear not.” Whatever God or Jesus or any divine being speaks, we must look and see from what “Standpoint” do they speak it. Jesus spoke this in the same sense as when he walking upon the see, and bid Peter to come out to him. Jesus now glorified walks upon the “Sea of the world,” and bids us to not fear to follow him, and draw men into that church he walks in the midst of. But they must be fished for, and drawn in, and this means we have to be freed from those same vises which they are addicted to and ensnared by. No lifeguard can save a drowning victim if he himself is drowning. We cannot imagine that to become like a sinner and do the same works a sinner does will make us better able to save them, since it would easier just to give them the same license to sin which we “think we are enjoying.” It would be easier to show the world how to sin and yet believe God is okay with it. But the light of the world comes into that world bidding us to come into it by the standards he does, which is to “walk upon it,” even upon the “high places” of it, though we may visit the lowest places of it. Though that world sits in darkness, they will see a great light, and the main words that great light wants us to understand is “fear not.” What do these words mean? First it means we need to know where our connection with the church is: in his right hand. He touches us with the same hand in which he holds us, and where no man can snatch us out of. His touch throws the switch which makes all the fellowship of the saints activated by the presence of the holy spirit which moves upon the “face of our waters.” We are made of mostly water, and water is a medium which can be made very holy and contain a lot of communication just like a reciever on a radio. And the voice of Jessus too is compared to water, and the sound of much water all crashing together at one time. This fellowship of the holy spirit, which spirit IS THE IDENTITY OF ALL THE SAINTS, which is why God tells us throughout the Bible that “Elijah” will be sent, for he is symbolic of the indwelling of the holy spirit. So the spirit of Elijah is the spirit of the church, and so makes us all who recieve that spirit Elijah the prophet, though under different names. This should make us know who we are and what gifts God has given us. He who drives a powerful sports car, but does not know it, but is told all his life that it is a piece of junk, will fear to use that car for hardly more than what he absolutely has to. But if he knows it is an amazing piece of machenery, fit for the most glorious Kings and Queens to drive, and could not crash even if you tried, would find himself elated with wonder and joy and become tempted even to become arrogant. The promises of God are given us, and are called “great and precious,” yet we are told all our lives by our own sinful nature that they are hardly worth anything, just because they do not manifest in the manner in which we want, and expect, so we discourage our selves from driving that “sports car,” thinking it will not be worth it, and we will become losers in the end from all the worthless attention we give them. But Jesus saying “fear not to take these great precious promises unto yourself, nor fear they will not perform as promised,” makes us take a second thought, and wonder at how we have been deluted to imagine that what God had given us was as common and as unclean as some tall tail a drunken and filthy hobo in some dark alley might tell us. God is sued everytime we pray, if he is “faithful and just;” we do not need to hire a detective to find out his address and get a judge to serve him his papers. He who is all justice is faithful and just to JUDGE HIMSELF AND APPLY THE LAW TO HIS OWN WAYS. Every time we pray Psalm 51, “behold I was shaped in iniquity,” GOD IS EFFECTIVELY SUED FOR HAVING BEEN THE VERY ONE WHO DID IT! He will not give his glory to another, which glory is that he does all things, and the wicked are but his sword, and precise surgical instrument in the hand of the master, and that there can be no evil in the city by any terrorist unless he does it. AMOS 3; 6. We may think we defiled ourselves with sin, and the terrorist may think he managed to murder all those people, but unless God decided what effect our enemity and rebellion against him would have on the world, it would not have been done. We sin by failing to turn to God, but God decides what sins will be spawned in our hearts and lives as a result. No one sins unless it proceeds from the heart, and most all sinners under the need to believe they are righteous and going to heaven, have restrictions on what they will allow themselves to do. Jesus being the light of the world also gives sinners light in all the evil they do also, and so if ever that light is shut down or off altogether, we would just all grope in darkness, and not even be able to percieve what our flesh was sensing or what our brain was thinking. Our souls would be locked up inside our bodies like a body in a casket, and we would be effectively in hell even while we ranted and raved in our panic and delsions on earth. So God will not helplessly stand back like a man who finds someone changed the lock on his house, and he cannot get the key. When we say “I was shaped in iniquity,” God knows he did it, and that we are taking advantage of his “escape clause,” which makes it so we do not have to spend eternity also punished in the lake of fire for what he has done to us. And the more intellagent and merciful one is, the less we need to “strike it home to him” what he has done; BESIDES GOD IS JUST WAITING FOR US TO COME TO HIM, SO HE CAN SUE HIMSELF AT HIS OWN COURT FOR WHAT HE DID TO US. He cannot forgive us our sins unless he sues himself for making us sinners to begin with, (not counting them bad because of what they do to us, but because of what they do to him,) and in turn, for the sake of Jesus who died for us, give us such a windfall of heavenly cash, our souls prosper to the degree we prosper in great and mighty ways in all our carnal lives as well. To fear not means we have all our fear towards God, and made into that “fear of the Lord which is clean and enduring forever.” We must not fear anything which only thinks it has power to destroy our flesh, but if he is given license by God to do it, that is all he can kill. We ought to fear our own sinfulness INFINITELY MORE than we should fear satan even if we were in the very pits of hell eternally doomed to be his object of torture in the worst way, BECAUSE ONLY OUR SINFULNESS CAN MAKE US FALL UNDER THE ETERNAL WRATH OF GOD. But Jesus says “fear not” for he has saved us from our sins as a most merciful and jealous husband snatches his prized wife from the hands of those who would endanger her. We must not fear losing in growing in God if we can believe that Jesus must play the part of the husband, even a husband who finds a most exotic and breath takingly gorgeous “trophy wife” and dotes upon her day and night: and that wife is us IF INDEED WE DARE TO TAKE UPON US THE NAME OF THE CHURCH. If we say the name “tree” let us not imagine a toad or a bump in the road. So only if we say the name “church,” let us examine truly what that word means, or whatever word we take upon our lips. Jesus said “by your words you will be justified or condemned, and every idle word a man speaks he will give account for on the day of judgment.” In the tongue is the power of life and death, and what is worse than speaking wrongly is to speak mockingly and thoughtlessly. We are to “meditate upon the word day and night, and never let it depart from our mouths.” Only those who chew the cud and divide the hoof are CLEAN “BEASTS” whom we should “eat,” or fellowship with. This means to know the word again, making milk for the babes in Christ of it, and set one foot on the church one upon the world to take that church to the world, as Michael setting one foot on the earth and one on the sea. The meaning of church as the “BRIDE” of Christ is a PARABLE to describe how that as a man finds his wife to be so much more beautiful than his own father, or anything else in his life, and is the very light and joy of his life, THAT IS HOW BEAUTIFUL AND PRECIOUS JESUS WILL MAKE US WITH HIS PRAYERS TO HIS FATHER AND LOVE TO US! Can you imagine being SO MUCH MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN ANYTHING IN HEAVEN AND EARTH THAT EVEN THE FATHER’S OWN BEAUTY OF HOLINESS PAILS IN COMPARISON??? You may say, “how is that possible? Since where will God find such beauty if he himself cannot touch it?” But you should know that the father is the gospel, and he seeks his deep things as we are taught, being made in his image, to diligently seek God also. And this beauty will come from the farthest reaches of omnipotence made from the deepest and brightest parts of God’s omniscient intellagence! And God says, “NOT FOR YOUR SAKES DO I THIS, BE ASHAMED FOR YOUR OWN WAYS OH HOUSE OF ISRAEL!” As the parable continues, no woman is made so she may simply worship her “me” all the day and make love to her own beauty as the “vainest one of all!” Her beauty is made for the man, and for his own “help” to make him flourish and succeed in all he does. The Bible tells us the wife is the glory of the man. So also the church is the glory of Christ, and made compatible with him, when she is made “without spot or wrinkle or any such thing.” And when something is raised from the dead, it does not return to it’s former glory, but it will always be raised up insurrmountable higher. For man’s fall, God does not say, “the man shall be restored to a sinless condition,” but “THE MAN HAS BECOME AS ONE OF US.” So being sinful and unclean and vile beyond what we can imagine, being made by God originally in his image, in the fall, we have suffered the most horrible “train wreck” of being shaped in the image of satan, being made one of his children, by his DNA: even his depths as they speak. All God does he does with all his might, and he does it forever. This means our sinfulnes is forever AND IT IS OF A VAST AND UNSEARCHABLE NATURE: there is no escaping it anymore than when Jesus rose from the dead, his wounds did not disappear. Neither did his blood return to his body, but he said, “Thomas, thrust your hand in my side.” I do not think after Thomas THRUST his hand in, the fresh wound was breached and his newly accumulating blood gushed all over. That is because when Jesus was “made sin,” it was “yet without sin,” or else he would not have been resurrected, or been worth one tiny scrap of saving grace for anyone. If there had been one SPOT of sin found anywhere on the soul of Jesus, because he “buckled under” the weight of carrying our burdens with him into death, there to die with him, God would have had to call the WHOLE THING A COMPLETE LOSS! That is why he is called the Lamb of God without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, and makes his church like him in his sacrificial love for God. That means nothing about Jesus was ever healed when he was resurrected, but he was made to TRANSCEND into not only a higher but ultimate life form. His physical blood he shed for us, he NEVER GOT BACK. None of the wounds he suffered ever closed up or healed, and all the scars of his memory on the cross are with him ETERNALLY IN HIS MIND WHICH IS THE MIND OF THE CHURCH, BEING OUR “HEAD.” When he says “do this in memory of me,” he means do this IN ME, AND THEREFORE ACCESS MY MEMORY AND BECOME GRAFTED INTO MY RESURRECTION. It does not mean we should treat the Lord’s supper like we treat a day of “observation” like “memorial day” or something, but be “living participants” in what is an ETERNAL EXPERIENCE FOR HIM, but which is now transformed into something much greater and more glorious than we can ever imagine. The spiritual blood he got back ANIMATED his physical body, “quickening it” to the degree that he could walk through walls, and disappear before people’s eyes. He could that before, but before he NEEDED his physical body’s PROPER HEALTH WITH IT’S BLOOD, and needed to eat or he would suffer REAL HUNGER. Now after he rose from the dead, he did not need to eat, but ate for the sake of social grace, and friendship. He waa always without sin, but needing your body for it’s proper functions is not sin, so Jesus needed those things like any of us do. But having been the “first begotten of the dead,” having been dead to fulfill the very word of God that he was slain from the foundation of the world, he has no sin to be healed, for all the sin he became and all the wounds he suffered were without any personal blaim or corruption. And though his wounds “remained the same” and did not ooze or bleed or feel pain, he yet had a completely transcendent awareness and identity he HAD NEVER HAD BEFORE! He could speak to those who doubted STRAIGHT TO THEIR FACE, without them ever questioning why he is so horribly wounded, yet does not need aid or rest, and speak to them all day about how “Jesus was prophecied in the scriptures” and even upbraided them as “fools and slow of heart to believe” WHILE THEIR HEARTS BURNED WITHIN THEM, and yet they could not RECOGNIZE HIM UNTIL HE GAVE THE SIGN OF “BREAKING THE BREAD!” Then as soon as they realized who he was, Jesus VANISHED in thin air before them. So THEREFORE, what happens to our sins when they are forgiven, they latch onto the wounds of Jesus NOW GLORIFIED, and then they are raised together with his dead body. His wounds are called “stigmata” for they are the REMEDY of that “STIGMA” which our sins deserve. And when we are members of his “body, flesh and bones,” we will “bear in our bodies the marks of the Lord Jesus,” and be made into that new material which his supper gives in the bread, so we can drink also of his cup, and not “burst forth” as old bottles will eventually. We cannot escape what we deserve, and hide from the shame of it, but we can hide in Jesus who was made to be sin for us, and be counted by God to be worthy to be raised together with his most holy death, and transformed with him into his glorified image and likeness. Jesus is the messenger or “angel” of God’s presence, while the angels are but messengers of Jesus. Only Jesus “covers us” in the presence of God, and does not just merely raise us up as parents who “cover us,” and who do so in a way which can become suseptible to counteracting forces; but Jesus COVERS US FAR BEYOND WHAT WE CAN EVER BEGIN TO EVEN NEED. The grace of Jesus could cover satan and all the devils in a saving way if God ever commanded Jesus to do so. THAT IS HOW SUFFICIENT THE GRACE OF JESUS IS, AND NO MAN EVER SINNED TO EVEN A TRILLIONTH OF THE MEGNITUDE OF THAT SIN OF EVEN “NUDGING” ONE ANGEL OUT OF HEAVEN FOR A MINUTE! One angel, even the least of all the fallen angels are more valuable than trillions of galaxies if they were all wall to wall people! AND SATAN DOOMED ONE THIRD OF THE TOTAL POPULATION OF THEM TO ETERNAL TORTURE IN THE LAKE OF FIRE! You may say that “we are only a LITTLE lower than the angels, and my claim they are so great is WAY SUPER EXAGERATED.” I will stop a little here, and explain why I believe they are so important as to say just one angel is worth more than trillions of galaxies full of wall to wall people. First, they are ONE OF A KIND, and do not reproduce, and even those of us who will be “made like the angels” are also so, since no human will ever again beyond the great white throne judgment be brought from “human status to angel status” except in spirit and nature. God said “they shall be like the Gods.” This agreed semantically with satan but not in meaning OR TIMING, since satan meant it as a lie, with Eve’s knowledge “of good and evil” basically just knowing what it is like to be miserable and afraid and guilty, and see God “afar off” and worry to be eternally separate from him. For satan knew the mind of God on a low level, which he thought was thorough, and used this knowledge to mock God, FOR THE SAKE OF PROMISING EVE “INSTANT GOD STATUS JUST FOR TASTING A PIECE OF FRUIT.” And that is how all satan’s religions are run: just eat this communion and drink this wine, or take the name of Jesus on your lips, or do this work, or do this deed, or wear these clothes, AND YOU WILL BE JUST LIKE GOD OR SOME GREAT PERSONAGE! When children play dress up, or play games, sometimes parents patronize them saying, “you are just like a big girl now,” or treat them like their fantasy is real. This cuts them off from ever making use of their playing to grow up into real adults. We should explain to them how different their imagination is from reality, and teach them how to MAKE USE OF their playing to grow into useful and happy adults. Soon, as they grow, playing will evolve into real and beneficial experiements, and their running around like superman, etc., will evolve into real exersize and a healthy life style, and their laughing and frollicking will evolve into the joy of the Lord and ministering to others and sharing Jesus with the world. Otherwise their laughter will become the laughter of fools, which Solomon says is like the thorns crackleing in a bonfire under a pot. Childhood is an amazing time, which has a great blessing on it, but unfortunately most parents do not know how, nor care to raise their children in the “nurture and admonishon of the Lord.” Most adults are just overgrown children, and use their powers to get wealth just to build a bigger and better play pen and gloat in front of more play pals while they pretend to be someone special and very important. There is no depth and no understanding in any man made religion, for they are children of satan, who do his bidding, and that is why God says to shallow, wasteful (for throwing away their precious souls for so little) mankind, “man looks on the outward appearance but God looks all the way down to the HEART!” BUT GOD ONLY SAID “THEY ARE BECOME AS ONE OF US, like the Gods,” AS A “PROPHECY:” -- calling those things which be not as though they are, --- AND ONLY REGARDING FALLEN MANKIND, NOT THE SINLESS HOLY HUMANS WHO WILL NEVER FALL AWAY, WHO ARE “THE POEPLE WHO SHALL BE BORN” IN PSALM 22, BEING THE SEED COUNTED AS A GENERATION, WHICH IS CALLED “CHRIST” FOR THEIR LAST NAME. -- MATTHEW 1; 16. But angels are made not primarilly in the image of God, BUT IN THE IMAGE OF THE DEEP THINGS OF GOD, and they represent God LIKE NO HUMAN EVER COULD. When this world is over with, there will never be ANYMORE CREATION OF THE ANGELS! But humans will multiply into what is called “an inumerable company of angels.” But you will say, “how can you so easilly downgrade the value of humans as to make zillions of them as less value than one even fallen angel? Holy people without sin would not be less value than one demon, but sinners are made LOWER THAN THE DEVILS. James rebukes those in his letter saying that “EVEN THE DEVILS BELIEVE AND TREMBLE,” yet sinners rush on and get punished without so much as any fear of consequence. The devils did not fall from heaven as we think, BUT THEY BELONGED TO SATAN. Satan took them as his slaves and they are under his power. All devils are not equally wicked, and some are in severe shock knowing what their fate is now that Jesus is resurrected and has successfully condemned them. Satan is a sinner beyond what any of us can imagine, or ever will, and YET THE SACRIFICE OF JESUS EVEN COVERS HIM, OR HE WOULD BE WITHOUT ANY POWER OR RIGHT TO MOVE OR OPERATE IN ANY WAY. If we did not have grace, we would be in HELL!!! THAT IS ALL THERE IS TO IT!!! But again you will say, “but we are all one of a kind and therefore equally valuable.” Not in the hiarchy of God and what matters to him. No human will ever have the power the least devil has, unless he is converted and is endued in the armor of God which is the glorifed Christ who does greater works in us than he did while he was merely human. One devil can destroy a whole galaxy with ease if God let him do it, and dazzle us with technology we could not see the beginning or end of. They have PERFECT SIGHT AND AWARENESS OF THEIR DOOM IN THE LAKE OF FIRE, and the pain this causes them makes them want to murder and torture people like we want to scratch a terrible itch or get our fix of whatever we are addicted to. The shedding of man’s blood ALONE EASES satan and devil’s souls, THOUGH THEY KNOW IT WILL ULTIMATELY CAUSE THEM WORSE PUNISHMENT WHEN THEY ARE FINALLY CAST DOWN TO HELL. Satan and his devils are now “thrust down to hell” in the sense of being in their belly, (not able to look up to see the face of God through his external photographic image,) but they are not in hell as in “being without grace.” When they are in hell, they will be there when hell is cast into the lake of fire. And if we are with grace, (even satan,) it means when Jesus was made to be sin, JESUS WAS ALSO MADE TO BE THE VERY SINS OF SATAN. When Jesus said, “I am exceedingly sorrowful, even unto death,” he was also feeling the SORROW SATAN WOULD FEEL IF GOD EVER BEGAN SAVING HIM, but also the sorrow satan WILL FEEL when he is eternally rebuked by God withdrawing his breath from him, and he is left to do nothing but contemplate his errors for all of eternity gasping in absolute misery and being made into a firery kiln at the bottom of the lake of fire. So when Jesus says “fear not,” he carries with those words the “REPUTATION AND INTEGRITY” of one who has been given ALL POWER IN HEAVEN AND IN EARTH, and so if ever we felt comfort from a person of any ability promising to help us, all the more we should not take those 2 little words lightly coming from the mouth of Jesus. God makes all things new, and causes all we do to prosper when he adds his mercy to us, which mercy is over all his works. And Paul says, “ALL THINGS work together for the good of them who love God and are called according to his purpose.” And no amount of death or sin or wickedness can separate us from God’s love when we are under his most merciful covenant which takes us in his arms as a most loving physician cares for his severely and mortally wounded patients. We are wrapped in the buriel cloth of Jesus if we have set out to seek God and find perfect freedom and victory in him, and so the greatest fear of all, the fear of our own power and proness to sin is healed in those most blessed bandages. 

---------------- But again, Jesus lays upon him his right hand which signifies fellowship, which is not JUST worshipping together in a church, but ALSO AND MAINLY SO everything which goes on inbwetween church with the brethren. It is fellowship because that is where the pastors are kept, “in his right hand,” and so Jesus extends our communiation to one another by his faith, which is the “communication of faith, which acknowledges every good thing in us by Christ Jesus.” This touch also shows it is the greatest of all miracles to have real brethren in the world, A MIRACLE HE COULD ONLY DO AFTER HE WAS GLORIFIED IT IS SO ASTOUNDINGLY GREAT AND EARTH MOVING, and so this is why we have what is called the “right hand of fellowship.” Jesus is now far greater than he was when he first appeared to John, for just as he was far greater after he was glorified than he was just right after rthe resurrection, he has CONTINUED to steadilly increase in power, for he says “I am alive for ever MORE,” NOT JUST “FOREVER.” You may say it is just semantics to say that, since it is just a translation. But whether it says so in the original text or not, one thing is certain: it says he is the same yesterday, and today and forever, and we know from learning the scriptures it does not mean in ability and stage of development, so it MUST mean that he NEVER STOPS GROWING AND ELABORATING ON HIS INTERCESSION FOR US. We cannot take one scripture of the Bible as if it is the only one in the Bible and imagine it is saying something it isn’t because we have it “surrounded and overcome” by our carnal reasoning and understanding we are “leaning unto.” If we took the words “whoever would not have me be King over them, bring them here and slay them in my presence” out of context, you might think it came straight from the Quan or something. Or if you took the words which describe Melchidek, you would think he were greater than Jesus, for Jesus had a heavenly father and earthly mother, but Melchidek had neither. He was priest of the most high God, but apparently if you took it in a literal sense, not your ordinary priest. But this is to describe how when Jesus is “God with us,” we have God’s spirit be our identity, who IS WITHOUT FATHER OR MOTHER OR BEGINNING OF DAYS OR END OF LIFE. The Bible is not made or designed for those who just want to be like some “slick con artist” and catch people in “figures of speach” to try and accuse them of something. But the Bible is made for those who sincerely want to get down to the meaning of it, and grow by the pure milk of it. It is not for those who just want salvation handed to them like the woman who wanted the head of John the Baptist handed to her on a silver platter. You cannot make the Bible a purely poetic or intellectual masterpiece, and think to own it while separating yourself from the body of Christ. But you got to work to pray so the meaning of the Bible is revealed, and be content not to fear the meaning will come to you if you earnestly desire and inquire after it. It will not come if you think “wrestling with the Bible” like Jacob wrestled with the angel will do it, but you got bear yourselves up on the wings of repentance prayers so you can enter into a true and binding, erreversable covenant with God and so be counted “among those” who can rightly so claim the Bible as their “constitution” even as Americans claim what they call the constitution their’s by some kind of immutable birth right. But no constitution is a magical document you can just “invoke” while separating yourself from it’s source. And if any constitution is thought of to be inspired to “any degree or manner” by the breath and spirit of the almighty, then it ALL THE MORE REASON to go that source of all life and learn to fast and pray as your ONE MAIN DAILY EXERSIZE WHICH YOU STRIVE AFTER. Paul compared going to heaven as one who strives to win the Olymics, as “one who runs a race.” But who are we competing against? Is it against our fellow Christians, or against satan and his army? It is against satan, since we are supposed to pick up our neighbor when they fall, since “wo to him who is alone when he falls, for he has no one to pick him up again.” WE ARE TO BE LIKE MINDED WHO HAVE ONE MIND, WHICH IS THE MIND OF CHRIST, AND THEREFORE COUNT OURSELVES OF ONE FAITH AND ONE BODY, ETC. For if one suffer pain all the members suffer with it, and not just because we hear about it in church, but because we have a connection by the blood of Jesus through one body made out of the body of Jesus. So if there is a “leak” in that blood line anywhere, due to some member being injured in ANY WAY, we will say as Jesus, “who touched me, for I percieve virtue has gone out of me;” THEN WE LIKE A “BLOOD DONOR” WILL NEED EXTRA SWEETS AND MILK FROM THE WORD TO GET OUR STRENGTH BACK UP AGAIN. And when Paul travailed in birth until Christ was formed in us, he surely did so without carnal knowledge of who he was praying for, but said, “I thank my God I speak in tongues more than you all.” Not because he was bragging “I’M number one!” But because he rejoiced that he was counted worthy to “stand in the breach” so it may be acounted unto him for righteousness. And “if any man be overtaken in a fault restore such an one in the spirit of meekness.” Further Paul says since if you do not do so in meekness, you will be tempted even as the one you have Lorded yourself over! This should be obvious if going to heaven is like training for the Olymics, that it is not against one another we are competing, since WHO EVER HEARD OF AN OLYMIC CONTESTANT HELPING THOSE HE IS COMPETING AGAINST? Even Moses the greatest of all prophets was so meek and lacking all boasting in himself he did not want to patent his “prophetship” like so many now a days do who are just “so called” prophets, but said, “I WOULD TO GOD THAT ALL GOD’S CHILDREN WERE PROPHETS AND PROPHECIED. Paul said, after he got done stressing love is the greatest, he seems to then CHANGE HIS MIND, and say, “FOLLOW AFTER LOVE AND DESIRE SPIRITUAL GIFTS BUT RATHER THAT YOU MAY PROPHECY.” It is not to change his mind, but to ENFORCE what he has just got done saying in 1 CORINTHIANS 13, since he says HAVE LOVE SO YOU CAN PROPHECY. We think prophecy is telling the future, but it is speaking the mind of love to further spread love by linking us with the POWER OF THE WORLD TO COME. Most of the race with God depends on not quitting, especially if you get to the point of “tasting the power of the world to come.” That is like one of the sacred landmarks where God entrusts us with some REALLY PERSONAL DELACACIES, and Hebrews tells us if we fall away after that, “there is no more hope of forgiveness.” But the only escape clause for that one seems to be “IF WE HAVE HAD A GOOD ENOUGH TRACK RECORD OF MINISTERING TO THE SAINTS.” The writer of Hebrews, who is probably Paul, tells us “but we are persuaded better things of you though we thus speak, for you have NOT ONLY MINISTERED TO THE SAINTS BUT CONTINUE TO DO SO!” That is like God saying “ministering to the saints IS SO VALUABLE TO ME, that I place it not on an equal scale with the power of the world to come, BUT MAKE IT AS ACTUAL LEGAL TENDER TO BUY BACK THAT POWER IF YOU LOST IT BY YOUR OWN SINFUL BACKSLIDING AND WILLFUL NEGLIGANCE!” It is more blessed to give than recieve, but if we had no one who was willing to lovingly and in real need take our blessed life’s work of giving, WE COULD NEVER HAVE THAT BLESSING! A true saint shows a heart felt desire to be helped and recieves ministering in prayer or material goods WITH AS MUCH CHARITY AS THOSE WHO GIVE IT TO HIM! It takes as much love and as big of a heart to recieve as it does to take, SINCE PROSPERITY COMES ACCORDING TO HOW OUR SOULS PROSPER, AND THAT SPIRITUAL PROSPERITY IS “EXTENDED” BY FAITH UNTO THE GIVER TO BE ACREDITED TO HIS OWN SOUL SO HE MAY MORE GREATLY PROSPER. And the counterfiet reciever who just simply wants to steal our services CANNOT ACT AS A CHANNEL TO “CREDIT” PROSPERITY TO OUR SOULS IF WE DID NOT ALREADY GIVE WITH A TRUE CHRISTIAN LOVE, “but” should always be easilly discerned IF THE CHURCH IS A CLOSE KNIT BUNCH WHO “SPEAKS OFTEN ONE TO ANOTHER.” (MALACHI 3; 16.) But this should not REST UPON the need for him or her to be an ACTIVE MEMBER OF THE CHURCH, OR EVEN ANY CHURCH. You can minister to a person just for humanitarian reasons, and be counted as “one who gives to the poor, and remembers them in prayer, FOR HE WHO DOES SO LENDS TO THE LORD AND HIS PRAYERS RETURN TO HIS OWN BOSOM.” And if that person is homeless and is tired of the woes of living in the streets and under bridges and getting gawked at by vain and selfish grandiose people, he will more than likeley enquire as to HOW HE TOO CAN BECOME A CHRISTIAN AND “JOIN THAT ARMY OF THE LORD THAT SHOWED HIM SO MUCH MERCY, AND CONDITIONAL LOVE AND KINDNESS!” The church is called “mother” for it is the “cradle” for all the poor and unfortunate and the loney to find a family who is all related by one heavenly blood line, and where all things are held as “common,” for they do not call anything they possess as their own. It is never a “forced” situation, for charity can never be made a law by civil authority, but by God only. And we are to do all things according to our own conscience, for “blessed is the man who condemns not himself in that thing he allows.” Earning money is never forbidden or frowned on by the church unless it is made more important than serving God and seeking to have our souls lined with the true cash of Jesus crucified. For Paul says “labor working with your hands, so you may have to give to him that needs, and that includes your own self.” If giving to ourselves was wrong, God would have never made us able or justified for putting our hands to our mouths to feed ourselves with, but a true Christian would starve before he ate without another hand feeding him. AND IN THE SAME WAY AS WE EAT CARNAL FOOD, WE NEED TO NOT DEPEND ON THE CHURCH TO FEED US THE SPIRITUAL FOOD, SINCE THE MORE WE EAT, THE MORE WE ARE ABLE TO FEED THE CHURCH THE PURE MILK OF THE WORD, AND BRING THE PRESENCE OF GOD WITH US TO THE SERMON. Solomon 8; 10 describes that type of Christian who finds favor in the eyes of Jesus: “who is a wall against the gates of hell, recieving true revelation from God, and whose breasts are like towers of refuge.” Professing who Jesus is, IS NOT ENOUGH, but we must “CONFESS” WHO HE IS, which means see him by light of the holy spirit. Confession is a loveless and sinful act if we do so in our flesh and thinking “our works” will save us from our sins, but it must be AFTER WE MAKE OUR PEACE WITH GOD, so it is a testimony of what we have already been forgiven of. There is power in the church to forgive our sins, for Jesus bestowed it, but it should never be done without first having some basis of a real “kindred spirit” that guides us to do it. That does not mean we can always find forgiveness ON OUR OWN if we did some terrible deed, BUT IT MEANS IF A CHURCH IS NOT FRIENDLY ENOUGH TO SHOW UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND WRAP THEIR ARMS AROUND YOU IN PRAYER, then to speak candidly of your sins would be like casting your pearls to the swine. If they have power to forgive you as extensions of the Lord Jesus, they will have enough love to make you feel welcome also. A church which finds it necessary to count your sins as what John says “SINS UNTO DEATH WHICH THEY SHOULD NOT PRAY FOR,” I would not take their condemning excommunication seriously if they have shown signs themselves of failing to uphold the “law of divine love” in their midst. And if you DO THINK they are a real church, and yet find your supposed SURE DAMNATION of unimagionable trouble to you, you can hope it is a sign the Lord is saving you and so you should just keep seeking his mercy and forgiveness. It is the most terrible and fearful verse of the Bible that Esau sought his repentance with tears, but what did he seek? True reconcilation to God, OR JUST TO GET BACK HIS “BIRTHRIGHT” which is like the game of “I got your nose” which we play with children. Did Jacob REALLY GET HIS BIRTHRIGHT, or did Esau still have it, if he just would have prayed as David, “BEHOLD I WAS SHAPED IN INIQUITY?” The power to lay our sinfulness at God’s feet and rest in his mercy is the TRUE BIRTHRIGHT of every Christian. If we count our sins against ourselves, instead of against God and God only, we will NEVER FIND REAL REPRENTANCE WHICH IS DESCRIBED AS A “PLACE IN GOD’S HEART.”This is not to say we should not fear the “terror of the Lord,” so I do not want to lull anyone into a false sense of security, but God’s grace is too big and infinite and too all important to just cut it short and “limit the holy one of Israel,” and cheat him out of new opportunities to demonstrate the power of that grace to save the chiefest of all sinners. Because Paul says “we are able to comfort one another ACCORDING TO HOW WE OURSELVES ARE COMFORTED,” and the more grace it takes to save us, the more comfort we are able to show and explain to others. Bearing one another’s burdens might not FEEL OR SEEM like that is what you are doing, but maybe you might just feel super depressed and sad and heavy hearted, while all along you are lightening the load for those depressed members of the church you are made to have “unknown empathy” for. You might even feel faithless at times like you have no connection with God, but it might mean the UNBELIEF OF THE CHURCH IS PART OF THE BURDEN YOU ARE CARRYING; so God may infuse new life and faith into them from your own soul! A heart which is enlarged to have a “Semi omnipotence,” so you can be with others in the spirit, though absent in the flesh, may seem like it is a bottomless pit when you just want to feel some flesh quickening rays of spiritual life and energy to serve the Lord. But a larger engine needs more fuel, and it is not just to zoom down the road free of any load! It is to uplift and free many people to feel God’s presence; for where the spirit of the Lord is, THERE IS LIBERTY. The greatest men and women of all time could hold great camp meetings and DUE TO THEIR PRESENCE ALONE invoke great outpourings of the spirit. And you cannot claim to “HAVE” any gift from the holy spirit IF THAT GIFT IS NOT ALSO FUNCTIONING IN YOU, just as faith without works is dead. IT IS NOT THAT YOU DO THE WORKS APART FROM FAITH, BUT FEED YOUR FAITH WHICH MOVES YOU TO DO THE WORKS, FOR “WHATSOEVER IS NOT OF FAITH IS SIN.” The idea of “taking a leap of faith” is really acting on either superstition, or carnal desires, or a false conviction satan tricked you to think is from God. Faith never leaves the realm of trusting God as his all in all, and so never lacks perfect peace, for “his mind is stayed always upon God, and speaks only that which he hears from God.” The world knows what love is, though their own love is waxed cold, and they will not fail to judge and condemn you for failing to show that love if you claim you have it or just subscribe to it as your guide and rule of action. Jesus does not think we love him if we do not feed the sheep and give shelter to the weary. AND ACCORDING TO HOW GOOD OF A QUALITY OF FOOD WE SERVE, AND IN THEIR PROPER PORTIONS, “RIGHTLY DIVIDING THE WORD OF TRUTH,” THAT IS THE MEASURE OF HOW MUCH WE LOVE JESUS. Does loving our neighbor as we love ourselves fulfill the golden rule IF JESUS WOULD COUNT IT FILTH AND TRASH TO BE LOVED THAT WAY? What good is the “GOLDEN RULE” if to fulfill it is LESS THAN “GOLDEN?” But churches who do not hear or fear God, will not recognize any real credibility you have with God, though you were Jesus himself reading the book of the prophet Isaiah in their midst saying, “this day these words are fulfilled in your ears.” And whatever level and from whatever “type” of Christian you get saved by, unless later they grossely fall away and show they were seeds who “sprouted for a little season on stony or thorny ground,” THAT IS THE WAY HE WILL START HIS SALVATION AND GROW AND DEVELOP IN! The power of PROVOKING is not just to make us want to get revenge and take matters out of God’s hands, BUT IT ALSO WORKS THE OTHER WAY TO PROVOKE US TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER AND TO DO GOOD WORKS. Does a runner stop when he sees another runner fall by the way side and nurture him until he ready to start again? But this should show you how many who claim to be Christians we SHOULD BE COMPETING AGAINST, since when foolish virgins needed oil in their lamps none of the wise virgins stopped on their way to heaven to give them any. So we should pray every day we do not get decieved and “sucked in” by false brethren who only claim they love the Lord, but never feel any need to get oil in their lamps, or they will be like A DEADLY PARASITE who just wants to feed on us to make themselves look real and good with God. 

------------ After he says “fear not,” he reminds us that he is the first and the last. If the first and last son that will ever proceed directly from the father, says to us “fear not,” after he has conquered the very reason why we feared to begin with, “maybe” we should not just brush off his words as though they are a small and light thing, like how the children of Israel thought the “manna” was “light bread.” His words are the hidden manna, because only those who pray sincerely and earnestly for wisdom from God can hear and know these “words” of Jesus. For a true Christian, Jesus is not absent and the holy spirit present, BUT JESUS IS THE HOLY SPIRIT TO US, EVEN AS GOD IS THE WORD TO JESUS! The wind at pentecost was really none other than the presence of this Lord Jesus who descended upon the island of Patmos, which island represents our souls when they are being converted rising from the sea of sinfulness, and destitution of God’s presence, to “meet the Lord in the air to ever be with him.” We are all islands no matter how much we think we are not, and are interacting with the whole world in the closest and most extroverted and outgoing and outreaching and ministering kind of ways! Though we were as self sacrificing as our most celegrated of all saints, unless Jesus “breaks down the middle wall of partition between eachother,” we can have no true communion with the church in any way, shape or form! The meaning of the 666 is that it is “the number of a man.” What man is that? Is it the antichrist? Or beast or false prophet? Who is the man which this is the number of? It tells us “here is wisdom, let him that has understanding COUNT the number of the beast.” But is it really the number of the beast or A NUMBER HE STOLE AS IF IT WERE HIS NUMBER? Does not the false church steal the Lord’s supper and claim it is of them and them ONLY? Then why would the beast be any different? To count the number of the 666 you first must know what it means to say “it is the number of a man.” Man was made in God’s mind on the 6th day, so 6 is the number of man. But who was man made in the image of? God of course, so the 666 is really, like all of creation “good and nothing to be refused, for it is santified by the word of God and prayer.” It is sinful, superstitious man who needs to make righteousness a product of “circumsisicion,” circumsizing out of their lives things they brand as evil, when Paul says “I am convinced and persuaded of the Lord that there is nothing good or evil of itself, BUT TO HIM THAT ESTEEMS ANYTHING TO BE UNCLEAN, TO HIM IT IS UNCLEAN.” And, “to the pure all things are pure, but to him that is defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure.” The Lord’s supper is good, even the BEST OF ALL GOOD, but recieve it unworthilly, by either being personally unworthy, or by fellowshipping with the wrong church, and it becomes the worst of all curses, even to the degree of making you worthy of the same judgment as they who crucified the Lord of glory! So to count the number of the beast, you start from the last number, 6 is the number of man, 60 the number of Jesus Christ, and 600 the number of the gospel. So the “man” it is the number of is the whole 3 person temple of the trinity! The beast is allowed, like the fallen church administers communion unworthilly, to give out this number which is really the sacriment recieved only for the redeemed in heaven. And since no one is supposed to recieve the “600” AS AN ACTUAL SACRIMENT until they meet him face to face in heaven, but in and as the blood of Jesus, which is the blood of the “600,” the damnation those who recieve the 666 will get will be INFINITELY WORSE than the judgemnt those will recieve who recieved the body and blood of Jesus and fellowship with the church unworthilly! So for Jesus to repeat, “I am the first and the last,” is to say, “I am the means by which you will find true union with one another upon so your faith may be made one.” How many times does Paul reiterate in so many ways, “one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and father of all?” And the early church mentions many times how they were “like minded.” How can they be so like minded, IF THEY DID NOT ALL HAVE THE SAME MIND? But the Bible teaches us that true Christians all have the mind of Christ, since he is their head. But what does the beast do to those do not recieve his mark? He beheads them. This is a picture of how if we are not truly worthy vessels and recievers of our identity of being “made in God’s image on the 6th day,” we will not be counted worthy to be truly fit vessels to be remade out of the material of Jesus the “60,” and therefore recieve the blood of the 600. And this means the church who is not seeking that divine grace to convert them into new creatures, are essentially “beheaded” since they do not have Jesus for their head, though they “have a name that they live,” they are nevertheless dead. We must not just recieve these words therefore “I am the first and the last” according to our “autopilot catachisms” which we resort to for our answers, which all we have to do to be accepted by our “brethren” is to “mouth off” in some “group confession of faith,” (and requirement for membership in that particular church, - which to God is merely a schism,) but we must make our duty to “know nothing but Jesus and him crucified.” Our desire must be toward our husband, which for a holy child of God is their greatest and only joy, but to a sinful, deciet loving hypocrite, it is a terror and agony and nightmare beyond all imagination, and also the object of their most decietful and desperately wicked hatred spewing from their sewer like hearts. Paul says we must not just know nothing but Jesus and him crucified, BUT BE “DETERMINED” TO! It must be our most SOLEMN VOW to set our faces toward Jerusalem, which city is “named after the great King.” All the words of Jesus are in a symbolic sense ONLY TO PATMOS, as speaking to our “exiled souls” in the middle of a sea of indifference and total lack of all compelling of the world to recognize us as the objects of their affection. His words are the “fellowship of the holy spirit,” which in the substance and evidence of faith itself, links us to one another, so we may live off of that virtue which flows through faith, as the virtue of Jesus did to the woman who touched but the hem of his garment, and made the hemoraging of his blood in her begin to give life to the “new man.” As long as we are old creatures, we are old bottles, which are but “broken sisterns” which cannot hold the water of life, or the nourishment proceeding from his blood, and holy “DNA.” Our flesh must be conformed to our faith not only and mainly by our personal discipline, (which is but a “means” God uses to begin and excellerate his good work in us,) but our flesh must be obedient and in conformity in it’s very molecule and cell structure to the words of Jesus Christ, as one “baptized,” meaning “overwhelmed” in his loving intercourse of us. He has told those who come to him everyday, (for on the last day when they awake in hell they will know their works did not prevail with him or impress him,) saying, “Lord Lord we did many wonderful works again, even to the degree of raising the dead, healing the sick, casting out devils, along with works of charity only love can do,” depart from me for I have never known you. Jesus tells the church every day he does not know them, but their self worship of their own imagination of what holiness is, and who Jesus is, etc., is JUST TOO STRONG AND SWEET FOR THEM TO STOP EATING THAT “MORSAL OF MEAT” THEY ARE SELLING THEIR SOULS FOR! They must come to Jesus with their TRUE BIRTH RIGHT, confessing how they were shaped in iniquity and in sin from their mother’s womb, and how only his purging of them as the herb of hysopp which grew out of the dry ground of Mary’s womb can save them! But they count Psalm 51 as ONLY FOR THOSE WHO HAVE COMMITED GRIEVOUS SINS, AND NOT AS A CHANNEL FOR GOD TO RAISE THEM GRADUALLY “HERE AND LITTLE AND THERE A LITTLE, LINE UPON LINE” OUT OF THEIR DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR! To let go of their self exaltation is to them “THE VERY TEMPTATIONS OF SATAN,” since if any questions the validity of their salvation, they say, “I rebuke you satan, your’e a liar! I was saved the moment I ate the words of the tree of knowledge of good and evil: the Bible!” This was the very religion satan instituted which CAUSED THE FALL OF MAN TO BEGIN WITH: to be “Gods unto whom the word of God comes” INSTANTANIOUSLY, which really cuts off any further “coming of the word of God to them.” They may have been TRULY SAVED at one blip on the radar screen of history, but when they were convinced they were ALREADY FULL GROWN CHILDREN OF GOD, TO WHOM ALL THE PROMISES OF GOD BELONG AND ARE FULLY IN EFFECT FOR, they stopped growing in that grace and knowledge of the Lord Jesus. This is one main reason God calls the fallen church the “great whore,” for her doctrine is like a “contriceptive,” that aborts her children before she will have to “travail in birth for them,” and if any make it to full term, she will do everything in her power to confuse their faith, and make them think it is “just a fancy.” The fallen church, “Babylon the great” is putty in the hands of satan, and therefore will seek to discourage at all costs anyone who would truly do the work of God as Jesus did while it is day. The night when no man can work is when we no longer need our faith to see and know the things we were warned of. Many think they can accept Jesus when they see him in glory, as many so called “Jews” claim, but faith is the backbone and skeletal structure of all we need to become to be accepted into his kingdom at the last day. Though we have all love as one who thinks he is justifed and pure with God, but no faith, we REALLY CANNOT RECIEVE LOVE IN A WAY BY WHICH IT CAN MANIFEST HIS TRUE NATURE, JUST AS FLESH CANNOT BE ADDED TO A BLANK SPACE BUT ONLY TO A SKELETON. The vision of Ezekiel could not have occured in an empty space, but only one filled with “Dry bones.” And because faith can be “Dry” and lack the wowing effect of the latter rain, and all the miracles of the holier than thou people who brag everyday to Jesus of “the wonderful works they do,” most people do not have true faith, which casts the mountain of all doubt into the sea, as the purging of all our “sins,” and can see beyond all the “depths of satan” as he speaks his vast and seemingly limitless deceptions to us. That is why Jesus said it is impossible to finally decieve one who is elect, even if God would save him anyways. An elect person can see beyond the deepest and vastest and most complicated and heavilly guarded and reinforced and universally agreed upon deceptions! God will not condemn us for our lack of understanding, if we are striving to the best of our ability in the constant course of our growth in his soul’s ultimate and omnipotent prosperity, but if ever we say, “soul take your ease, you have much goods saved up for many years,” he says, “you fool, this day your soul is required of you,” even as it was for Esau when he would rather eat and drink unto himself INSTEAD OF TO THE GLORY OF GOD. When we serve ourself’s desire for pleasure instead of God’s pleasure, we are selling souls piece by piece just as if we ate our our flesh piece by piece and with every bite fell deeper into the strong delusion that it was “acceptable,” and we “still have time to stop.” God’s pleasure is to have us confess and see ourselves as we really are, which is painful even to the most glorious saint who is though by far more advanced in all his nature and habits than any more common saint or person can imagin. We are ALL far from being “without sin,” and even hideous in comparison to what “he shall be,” if we “see him as he is,” for in the fall of Adam and Eve “all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” But just as the earth is cursed in the fall, yet “full of his glory,” we shall all the more be full of his glory as so much more valuable in soul and body than the external planet and universe, though in many ways separated from God by our sins. But one may ask, “can a man be in sin and yet see God and therefore not be separate from him due to those sins?” It would have to be the case, since what “line in the sand” will Jesus draw which shows how perfect we must become before we can claim we are partakers of the divine benefits and privalages? On one hand, sin separates between us and God, yet on the other hand, to focus upon “cleaning up our act” before coming to Jesus and embracing him as our savior, is like a man who must make himself well FIRST before he will ever show his ugly and stinking wounds to the physician. Most of all the virtues of true Christianity therefore lays in our humbling ourselves under the mighty hand of God, and our love for God is far more valuable to him than our desire that we will look good to him when we come “boldly before his throne of grace.” And grace is like a mighty sports car that wants nothing more than “tere up the track,” and so God’s grace wants the “rough terrain” of our course sinful nature to glorify himself with, and clothe us in that grace to make our sinfulness a “glowing foil wrapper” to show off the beauties of his love for sinners. It is no surprise that these things can be confusing to sinners, since on the one hand they are taught God hates sinners and is “angry with the wicked everyday,” and if the wicked do not turn to God, God will “wet his sword and make it ready.” But on the other hand, God has a great mercy and pity for sinners and “hears their prayers,” yet says also that he does not “hear the sinner’s prayer.” But since God is not the author of confusion, all we must do is turn our ears of faith to him, and all these “inigmas” clear up like frost when a defroster blows upon it. We are in a stage of history unlike any other which will ever be, when God makes friends with those who are by nature his enemy, and even by nature lower and more wicked than the devils, and would do more harm than the devils if we had the power they had. We have this fellowship with God because unlike the devils we were so from our VERY CONCEPTION, while the devils were once holy angels, and Hebrews teaches us, “for it is impossible to save those who were once enlightened and partakers of the power of the world to come.” God can be our friend therefore by that “everlasting covenant” called “the sure mercies of David,” which is contained in and as the words of Psalm 51. We are associated in God’s sight and mind with the crucifixion, where Jesus became sin for us, so we may be sanctified with him in that “only acceptable kind of sin” Jesus was made to be for us, which was yet without sin. We cannot be fed a glorified Christ who is without wound of hurt of any kind, and which has not condescened to us in any way, but need a savior who has become essentially what we were made to be from conception, even “shaped in sin,” so that God’s mercy can flow through those wounds of his son to heal and transform our very real wickedness and malice towards God into only the most pure and fervent love for him. For only if we are made to love God, can “all things work together for our good.” God’s purpose is to make us his bride, which he will then marry to his son, and seeing the love he has for his son, like a strict and demanding father, he will not accept us unless we are made fully “as a bride adorned for her husband.” This adorning is mainly in God making us something that Jesus will not only want, but which fulfills the implications of the parable itself, which is that just as a bride is so much more beautiful to her husband than his father is, so much more beautiful will we appear to Jesus than anything he has ever seen in his father even until now! What a beauty that will have to be, and the very reason why it is possible, is because our beauty will come from the absolute depths of God’s limitless, boundless omnipotence, which is where the command came to his image, that he should “crucify his son, his only son whom he loved” to begin with. The image of God in which we are made, is limited in every way even as we are, OR HOW COULD WE BE MADE IN THAT IMAGE? Even though he is far more vast in knowledge and power than even Jesus or any angel in heaven can imagin, yet he is limited compared to his omniscient and omnipotent and immutable “soul.” And so the first verse of Genesis describes God giving this “Abraham,” his image, the gospel, this Isaac, and what a joy that was, and just when he was rejoicing in this glorious handiwork who would become “his son, his only son whom he loved,” the news came that he had to be slain, even from the foundation of the world, and so the image of God spoke the words into existence, “and the earth was without form and void,” etc. When God creates, it is God’s soul prophecying through him, just like the prophets, and it is also coupled with prayer, as when he says to his deepest omnipotence, “let there be light.” But we ought to know the words of the gospel which wrote the “program” for the soul of Jesus and alll of creation which he chose in Jesus Christ’s God head “the word,” are so many times more complicated than the most intracate and vast “clicks and calulations in the most fictitious of all computers” that no one in the vastest and farthest eons of space and time could imagine it. They are like the configurations of a molecule which consists a particular kind of substance, which of itself would be a blob of nothing, if it were not held together by the breath of God. God made all things therefore as prayers to himself, as “work orders” asking him to “do this thing this way, and that thing that way.” The structure of atoms and shape of plants and animals and people, are all messages God made to himself to “love this thing or person this way,” or “manifest this certain attribute of yourself this way.” And so it is no wonder the elect are they who cry unto God day and night, making themselves conformed to the employemtn and design of a holy creation, so they may be prepared for what is waiting for them in the world to come which will have no end, where all the members do nothing but seek to draw ever closer to the unsearcheable heart of God with advanced forms of that “key to unlock his heart,” and makes our prayers sinless, not missing his most presice target of his love, which prayer is the key of David, Psalm 51 

. For even the “spirit seeks and searches the deep things of God,” that is, his image in which we are made “seeks himself diligently” even as we are told we must if we are ever to be rewarded with the gifts which accompany salvatiion. The love of God is one that “outreaches his bounds,” since there was already nothing but light in himself, but he seeks not his own, and so envisioned objects of his love which he could exersize himself upon, and that necessiated the creation of a “light” which was merely a vessel for the true light of God’s face to shine through. If our sun were ever forsaken by God, it would become dark, though still shine. What would life be like if God forsook our world? We would all be running in a frensied panic, as those who have suddently realized all hope of salvation is gone. And why does satan fight us so? Because he knows with knowledge he is doomed, more surely than any condemned criminal knew his day was coming to be executed. But he must fight us, or our claim to God’s power will shift the power of God from satan to us, and the power of God is the only thing which covers our sinfulness, and keeps us from falling into a hopeless and most miserable despair over the futility and sure doom and gloom of our existence as those whose only father is the devil. To use the term “father” signifies not who created us, but who “beget us or adopted us,” and while as sinners we can say God is our creator, we cannot say he is our father. So long as we are not turned to God in conversion, we must say we were sold under sin by satan, and concieved by him with his corrupted version of the God head, and has adopted us as his children, since whoever we honor as our father, that is our father. All sinners who are not yet turned from their sinfulness honor satan, whether they believe that is who they are honoring or not. The Lord’s prayer is not a prayer for the unconverted therefore, but for those who have recognized who God is, and have been convicted of their sinfulness and cry to God day and night for mercy. 

Revelation 1:18   I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive  for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death. 

This is to say the manner in which he lives, which is eternally, which is what he promises to all who believe in him. He “lived” also when he was dead, dead in our trespasses and sins, which were not his own, and so he was yet without sin, but to say you “live” denotes a “quality” of life attached to it. For if you be evil and know how to give good things, how much more shall your father in heaven? And he has upbraided all Jobs in the world with this question: are you more righteous than God? A person can be both a fully sincere and real Christian, as well as known to himself “holy hypocrite,” which is what “discipline” is, but also a self decieving hypocrite, who hides his nudity and drunkeness from the world like Noah did, and who then cursed his own sons for discovering it, because he was ashamed his heart was not through and through holy like he wanted to think it was. The greatest hypocrasy is one that fills the very doctrinal vision of the word itself, and that is the kind that has “krept in unawares” into the very church of Jesus Christ. This form of most evasive and subtle hypocrasy is the reason the church is now decieved into thinking that we are not alone in the universe, but that it is entirely possible for us to be visited by aliens from another planet and even Galaxy far, far away. This deception has spawned out of our lack of what the nature of the “word” or “logos” is, which is that Jesus did not yet exist at that time “in the beginning,” just as Adam and Eve did not exist at the time God said “he made man in his own image after his own likeness,” and then spoke to them saying, “be fruitful and multiply,” though it were but an inanimate program he wrote upon the “omnipotent hard drive” of his mind with the point of a diamond. Jeremiah 17; 1. And everything even our sins exist only because of a program which God wrote as their “word form,” which sins were reconciled to God in the making of his own son sin for us, and raising us together with his dead body. The church arrogantly and thoughtlessly, yet rightly and accuractely claims Jesus is God, yet does not understand the truth of “how” he is God, and that we who are true Christians are Jesus in the same way Jesus is God. Most commentaries, if not all, on Revelation, claim that the vision of the angel in chapter 10 is Jesus, since he is just too glorious, and they think angels are more like “drones” that talk like they are in a trance, and wear long white robes, etc. But the best of the commentaries, such as one written by James Durham, who have a great and singular integrity for truth, manage to still write it for those who wish to only read the truth in it as it proceeds from the mouth of God, and do not utterly complicate and unbeably camouflauge it in their own ramblings of self righteous blabber. Also they lived in a day when the religion of “hearing some new thing” was considered without any exception satanic and deserving of being burned alive at the stake, or some other horrible fate, and so he had to carefully craft each phrase, so it would yet be true, and also not deleting important information, if he persiceveed the holy spirit was communicating something to him which would land him in an earlier than necessary death. I have been told all my life we enjoy freedom of speach in this country, and believing it to be true may have made me, as those born with a silver spoon in their mouths, not so careful about how I write and organize such writings. Sometimes riches for sinners can make them poor in other ways, and that is the nature of a hypocrite: to be “uneven” in virtues which they practiee, thinking if one area is clean, it is enough, though other areas are still wreaking in filth. And the riches which makes a sinner a hypocrite, is the very idea that he “has time,” (which most errplaceable of all riches was bought with the blood of Jesus,) since if he thought he did not have time, (for we should have all things as if we had them not,) he would more closely consider if he were ready to face the infinitley pure and all seeing eyes of God without this “dark glass” which seems to be a barrior to us, like a blind person who thinks he is hidden from other people’s view. People like that which concerns them the most, and that is why dogs are such a popular pet, since dogs in scriptures represent those outside the kingdom, but which can have a very profitable form of worldly wisdom which Jesus said is “wiser than the children of light.” And often times therefore the lost will prosper in this world before the righteous, though their wealth is laid up for the just. And since we need the goods of this world, to house us in our pilgramage to eternal life, Jesus said, “make friends with the children of money, so you may be recieved into everlasting habitations.” And indeed, worldly wisdom is a Christian virtue, along with heavenly wisdom, which it needs like we need enzymes to get the best results from the food we eat. And so those who are in the faith should, if they thought in the most wholesomely humble and down to earth manner about things, get the upper hand over those who get riches just to flaunt and spend on themselves, with God and his meat for his own house in mind. 

---------------- To aid us in this most sober and non exalting, precise form of humilty, which does not overexalt, nor overly condemn us, we should often think of the finality and seriousness of death. We should not walk around acting like we will always be here, and forget how we suddenly noticed at some point not long ago that we existed, and that life has been a slowly and painstakingly unfolding mystery ever since, but realize that those laying in the grave yard are all people who were mortal just like we are, and we too could be taken out of this world at any time without further warning. God has a trillion MAJOR WAYS of removing a person from his time on earth, and can employ those methods in any combination without us expecting it in even the SLIGHTEST! And indeed, if God were not protecting us, and more greatly prospering terrorism in the world, (for there is no evil in any city unless God does it, AMOS 3; 6,) a terrorist can have many different major ways, more than we might guess, of removing millions of souls in a single act from their bodies here on earth. We always expect we can predict life “good enough,” and that we are “most likely” saved, while others confidently claim they KNOW they are saved. But nothing will make us think more soundly about these issues, no matter what form and level of deception you are (unknowingly) suffering from, than to contemplate what it takes to take the Lord’s supper worthilly, and if you are counted by God among those “communicants” associated with the triumphant church in heaven. 

----------------- The Lord’s is the declaration of death of Jesus, and as Jesus was made sin, yet without sin, we should know those sins of our’s crucified him, and caused his death, yet we should be “in that condition of causing his death” yet without sin also. To be “guilty of his death,” or that is, “body and blood,” means we do not discern him, and are not ministered to by the holy angels to be in our sinful condition without sin. Our senses must be exersized by the theureputic presence of the holy angels, who will encamp round about us if we fear God, and so just as the Lord’s supper is a spiritual sacriment, we must also be a spiritual sacriment to Jesus by being made compatible to him as his bride. An athlete knows what he has to do is a very tangable and real thing, but to train to do it properly and succeed in it, so he is not ousted by those better than him at it, is another thing altogether. And sin means “missing the mark,” so like a sharp shooter aiming at the most illusive object that he must do spontainiously and at every moment, even in his sleep, that is how we need to train for eternal life, which will not be an “often” feast of the body and blood of Jesus, but an eternal and non stop one of intercoursing him and recieving his intercourse. The whole key to being worthy of recieving the Lord’s supper, is to make it a full time all out effort. God does not want us seeking him with one hand tied behind our back, but he wants our whole faith, and with all our works animations of our faith, which is powerful enough to remove mountains, so how much more our mere flesh? As the body without the spirit is dead, so is faith dead without works. And we are transformed by the renewing of our minds, which shows the first thing which faith should animate is our minds, or else we are as the thief “who goes in some other way.” To say “the body is the faith, and the spirit is the works,” seems backwards. We think the body is just inanimate without the spirit, and surely works do not animate a body if there is no spirit in it. But this shows “faith is the word which is of itself inamimate,” but it is the spirit of God which does the works through faith. So faith, being the substance and evidence of all things hoped for, as a documentary is which is very obviously the truth, but is not alive or animated of itself, the spirit of God flowing through us is our works, but if it does not dwell in us, all our works will be as menstruous rags, though the blood of that menstration is really the very spirit of God and blood of his image which Jesus shed for us. We count the blood of Jesus an unclean thing, when we imagine we can show there is active faith in us, but simple discipline and good works to others. Paul says though you give your body to burned, but not have love, God’s spirit flowing through the crucifixion of his son, you are counted by God as nothing. If the blood Jesus is not “discerned” or that is, “recognized” as such, and it does not flow through his faith, which is his crucified body, then it is wasted and tread upon, along with his body. And when the power of God flows through a sinner’s own works, it stinks and is defamed, and even to the degree of “blasting” that fame like we would throw a blow torch upon something. Blasphemy, blasting God’s fame is what those do who say “stand back by yourself, for I am holier than you,” since God says, “they are smoke in my nose all the day long.” That is how most self righteous people are, they compartmentalize their works, so some are very removed from the public, and others less, but few bend like a green unbreakable tree limb all the way to touch sinners where they indiviudally need it most. 

------------------ And so if you thought thoroughly about this, you may ask, if all we can do is menstrate all over everything and everybody and stink up and pollute the whole world with our presense and deeds though they be the finest works any saint can perform even to the degree of raising the dead and healing the sick and visiting the widows and fatherless in their affliction, what deed can we do that God will not despise? Especially when the very broken and contrite heart must be repented of, seeing we need a new heart, and only the heart of Jesus is acceptable to God as “broken for us?” That is the purpose of repentance prayers, especially the one which Joseph Alleine most ingeniously, on the highest and most noble level of being a theological genius wrote, called “a short soliloquy for an unregenerate sinner.” The whole prayer is prefaced with both the confession of our absolutely total depravity, and said in terms an unwilling, obstinate sinner can see through to perform, and acknowledges that he is not even worthy to look “up” to God to speak to him directly. This is the saving nature of truth, such as when Jesus told the woman who was not a member of the children of Israel, that she was a “dog,” (code Biblical word for “being outside the kingdom,”) and she did not then say, “oh I see there is no hope for me,” but came back at Jesus with, “truth Lord but even the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their master’s table.” And this is another way to test yourself to see if you be in that faith which is worthy to eat of the “BREAD” of the Lord’s supper, and that is if you EAT OF THE “CRUMBS” WHICH FALL FROM IT. And if you start from the proper foundation of acknowledging the full nature of your sinfulness, and do not stop confessing until the Lord has postively animated you with all his gifts and healings and miraclulous intervetion not only for yourself but for the whole world also. Jesus depends upon the church to enlarge his “campaign” of praying for us, and it is his life in heaven to do so, as our life on earth is whatever our “trade and careeers” are. We are not supposed to just feed ourselves until we say, “I know it already,” but continue eating “knowing the word again and again” like a cow chews cud until we have milk to “give to those who have need.” A true saint does not pray for the gifts God made us for, until he alone is satisfied, but always prayers for it for God’s sake as a rule, just as a true Christian wife will not have sex just when she feels like it, but does so as a duty to her husband. And this takes a true humilty since if we have a holy intercourse in marriage, all our desire must be towards God only or it is considered as adultery and fornication in eyes of God, and we know all the portrayals of those who expose themselves is not done in humilty but usually with a gross and festering pride. A true Christian wife knows she has not power over her own body, as he also does not, and this is a picture to show us that need “Jesus has need of us” to intercourse him in a most vigorous and active faith from a mind which is renewed and a soul and a body which is transformed through that daily and ongoing renewal of our “mariage vows” to him. Jesus needs us to intercourse him as our husband, and needs our love because God designed it that way, and we should be in awe over how marvelous this corner stone is in our eyes, that he needs us in order to be complete in every way. And think of how “without spot and wrinkle or any such thing” God promises to make us if we accept his offer in this life to walk with Jesus in his faith for us. But if we worship him as if he is God, he loses our identity with him, since are supposed to be “bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh,” and this we cannot do with God who is a spirit. And if we count him as one “holier than us,” which is true, but as those who are “falsely so called holier than others,” for one TRULY HOLY will go into ALL THE WORLD to preach the gospel, and preach it their creature self and it’s needs also. And a true preacher of the gospel will not count anything they own as their own, but hold it all as “common wealth,” which belongs to God and therefore all who are God’s, even to the unwashed masses in the world.  But Paul says, “as long as you have opportunity, do good unto all men, BUT ESPECIALLY TO THOSE OF THE HOUSEHOLD OF FAITH.” Many churches will make a schism of their church and so not do good to those outside their community, who are like those in James who say to the poor “sit here under my footstool,” and their “footstool” is the earth in general since they act like they are God who decides what good they will or will not do. 

------------- What was this death he mentions? He was dead as soon as his father began to forsake him. This is the death we all as sinners are in, but do not feel because we are covered by the blood of Jesus, whether we deserve it or not, for it is “gratutuitously” given to us. But Jesus had no covering, and only the ministry of the angel gave him any aid in his ordeal, but it was not sufficient to “cover” him, or “overwhelm him” in any way. The cup he had to drink of, that we drink of in the Lord’s supper, is the loss of his blood, or the spirit of his father, which is why we are able to drink it, since it was “shed for us.” His death, being a voracious maggot upon the cross, into which all death was swollowed up into his victory of being made sin for us yet without sin, is the reason we are not pressed down into hell because of our super abounding excessive deadness, since he has opened his mouth to swollow up that flood of deception satan casts out of his mouth of lies to carry us away to hell in. How grateful we should be that not only are we saved from our sins, but honored to the promotion of being made like the angels and have a salvation which the very angels desire to look into! Onemay ask also, if our body and blood are intermingled, and surely not every drop of blood was shed in his death, why is the bread and wine separate in the Lord’s? But he did shed every drop of his SAVING blood for us, but his HEALING blood, his own physical blood, that was indeed left to some degree in his body, as when he was pierced out came water and blood. The bread symbolize his hanging upon the cross in PSALM 22; 1, in such heavy misery his words were from an inner roaring of pure agony too deep and disfiguring of his body than we can imahgine., Isaiah 52; 14 says, if you translate into the proper original Hebrew, “he was corruptly disfigured and appearing to decay than any man, and stared at him stupied.” So the blood is separate since it is the “forsaking of his father,” or that is “his blood shed for us.” And when these two come together in us as one, we are resurrected “again” as Peter says, “blessed be God who has BEGOTTEN US AGAIN unto a lively hope.” A true Christian will have a lively flesh which is animated by the spirit of God, as Paul says “the spirit quickens our mortal bodies.” How amazing that should be to us that we are machenes designed to run on the spirit of God as our fuel, and that our food needs our blessing on it, by our asking God for it in prayer, or God counts us having stolen it. For us to pray for all things is a command of God, for he has ordained it as a “form of Godliness” which is are the means for him to work in our lives. And if we do not pray slackly but seek him diligently in our prayers, and use not our own carnal reasoning which says, “God knows what we pray for already,” we will see our words as channels for God’s own voice to speak through, which comes with his spirit, like “clouds black with rain.” Jesus did not end his statement at God knows what things you have need of already, but said, “before you ask.” And we cannot ask if God does not already know what we will ask for, since he is one giving us the wisdom of how to speak to him. For we know not how to pray but the spirit in us makes intercession for us with groaning which cannot be uttered, and when we put those “groanings” to words, God knows what we mean by it. An infant means one who cannot speak, and it is not wise to stick in the burth, so we should strive to grow up in the Lord, crying, “Abba father!” When Jesus came as the word, he said to Daniel, “I have come for your words,” and now all the more shall not the word made flesh and now glorified come for our words?” 

------------- When Jesus speaks of the “sin against the holy spirit,” he is speaking of sinning against the church. He teaches us as the holy spirit to forgive all, even our enemies, so if I am right how can this be that most deadly and dreaded of all sins? It is not speaking so much of the temple of the holy spirit, who is taught to always forgive as perhaps the most needed and valuable Christian virtue of all, but he speaking of failing to recognize and become involved with a church which is properly being conformed to born again of the holy spirit. God says “my spirit will not always strive with man,” and that spirit of God which will not always strive with man is his son Jesus Christ. For as God is the spirit of his son, the son is the spirit of the church, which is why he says of himself, “he that has an ear let him hear, (continuing the work of Genesis, in the words of his father, “LET THERE BE, LET HIM HEAR,” etc.) what the SPIRIT says to the churches.” The nature of the Godhead is three fold, but it is not according the traditonal teaching, but it is a “passing the torch of creation.” God says, “hear oh Israel, the Lord your God is ONE God,” NOT THREE GODS IN ONE! No place in the Bible is taught the doctrine of the trinity as it is taught in the churches. Jesus says, “father, son and holy spirit,” but every place of scriptures which elaborates on what he means by that, does not in any way, shape or form callaborate with what the church teaches on it. We think it does, because we are BRAINWASHED SO THOROUGHLY, that when we read a place in the Bible, WE AUTOMATICALLY UNDERSTAND IT TO MEAN WHAT THE CHURCH “DEMANDS AND COMMANDS” IT SHOULD MEAN TO US. But to read the Bible simply to READ “WHAT THUS SAYS THE BIBLE,” is considered dangerous and misleading by the church. Jesus did not think that the only way to be blessed, which is to recieve directly from the father the truth of who Jesus is was misleading, and why would the integrity of the Lord God almighty be so weak and tottering, that to read his “supposedly holy word” (if what they say is true, in that we can be mislead,) would land us in the hands of the devil if we do not claim a sincere subscription to all the views and beliefs of the established church? You may then say, “but did you not yourself say the church is the holy spirit incarnate, as Jesus is the word incarnate?” Yes, but just to put aside for a moment all the ways the supposedly real church callusly and most obviously and blatently denies the fullness of scriptures, and the parts they take they make seem to mean something they cannot possibly mean, and just to assume for a moment none of those most gross and damning errors exist, no one can be possibly perfect, and even the greatest of all saints would WELCOME our judgments and critisms of them, SO THAT THEY CAN GROW THEREBY AND HAVE GREATER AMUNITION AGAINST THEIR SINFUL NATURE THEY EXAMINE WITH A “FINE TOOTH COMB” EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY. The fact the church despises my critisism and lashes out at it in most vicious wrongful judgment and most gloating and smug arrogance, shows they cannot possibly be looking for that judgment with which God saves his daughter zion, the church. Did not tongues of fire, that is of judgment descend upon those praying for it on the first pentecost? And did they all run claiming it was a trick of satan or something? This was that which was prophecied: he shall baptise you with fire. 

----------  The church claims there are 7 deadly sins, ALL OF WHICH WE CAN OF OUR OWN SELVES DECIDE NOT TO DO! One of them is “lust.” To show how rediculous it is to claim that lust is a sin, without any qualifying explanation and circumstance, all you have to do is realize that the soul is called the “worm that dies not.” All the soul is in it’s essence is lust, and that was true for Jesus, when he was in hell on the cross, saying, “I am a worm and no man,” and it is true for all in heaven and hell. The difference for the damned is “their fire, (their desires) will not be quenched.” Their worm will not die, though all that fed and quenched that desire in this life will no longer belong to them. The redeemed will have their “worm” fully and always satisfied with the quenching, soothing water of life, and show their gratitude in prayer and praise forevermore. The true saints make God the object of their lusts, while the lost make material objects of their lusts, not realizing they would have no desire for ANYTHING if God were not in those things. God made all things to desire him, in his infinite lust to be lusted after, and he alone is a fit object of our lusts, saying, “you shall have no other Gods before me.” If God did not lust, then we would not be made in his image, and also made to lust, and lust is part of the original creation, as God said to Eve, “your shall be toward your husband.” And what is the difference between desire and lust? The only idea I can come up with is that they represent a “spectrum” of the same thing. Lust is desire “threaded” through the lower nature” and desire is the same force of lust or desire, which are the same thing, only threaded through the higher faculties of the mind and more sublime prayers and needs for spiritual gifts. Jesus had greater lust than all of creation combined, and it was a fire so hot only the spirit of God could quench it, but it was never “threaded” through his lower faculties such as his sexual organs and our nature for having a mate, or else he too would have had orgasms and find it an obsession to find a wife. Paul says “if you are enflamed and cannot contain, it is better to marry.” God makes us who are submitted to him “uniches,” meaning those who make him first even in our sexuality, and it is he who enflames our lusts, which we are uneduated about. It is God who makes both men and women ejaculate, in different ways, but as the same thing, because this is a picture of what prayer is, in that it is being enraptured into a divine exactsy of intercoursing God and heaven. Jesus did not have this “erotic inflamation” of his sexuality and desires, because he is made so much better than all the angels combined, he is of a completely different nature and quality far more advanced than anything we can imagine. In fact he IS the father of all of creation, but not of a “removed and uninvolved” way which lacks all intamacy, but is IN THE SAME WAY THAT GOD IS HIS FATHER. Jesus was not made the way he is to be an example for us to follow, except in it’s basic concept of placing God first, and making sure our lusts serve no one else but God; but he IS ALL FORMS OF LIFE COMBINED  INTO ONE ENTITY! The apostles did not make it a law for those who would succeed them in office to be celabate, but Paul called that a “DOCTRINE OF DEVILS,” to forbid marriage, AND ALL THE MORE IF YOU HAD TO DENY YOUR CALLING TO THE MINISTRY IF YOU WOULD RATHER MARRY! The idea of celabacy came only when “grievous wolves entered the church and did not spare the flock.” In fact God makes it our DUTY to be and perform as whatever kind of creature he makes us, and wishes to use us as vessels and “objects” according to our specific nature, or else he would be a frivolous and vain God to have made us as we are. Also in whatever way he makes us, he requires us at the pain of being a theif if we do not, to pray to best of our ability for God to increase of his gifts in us whether for our souls or bodies, and all the powers and pleasures which run and empower our souls and bodies come from one source: who is God. I grant you there are many who pray to demons to get sexua favors, and claim this makes all sex with “mere mortals” as boring as easting cardboard, or whatever, BUT THEY ARE IN GROSS WILLFUL SIN, AND DO NOT MAKE GOD’S IMAGE, IN WHOM THEY ARE MADE, THE SOURCE OF ALL THEIR BODILLY POWERS. God even complains when we lack his vital life giving health straight from his own “body,” the gospel and image of God, saying, “they are a vessel wherein there is no pleasure.” All lust comes from God, and if we did not lust, we would cease to exist. Lust is SYNONIMOUS WITH EXISTING, and the only way lust can be sinful, is if it is polluted through some source or deformity with sin and improper useages. A person who prays to a devil to increase his lust gets it from God, BUT THINKS HE IS GETTING FROM A DEVIL, AND ALL THOSE LUSTS ARE LIKE RAYS OF LIGHT GOING THROUGH A DARK AND DEFORMED PIECE OF GLASS, AND WHICH REQUIRES HIM TO USE THOSE “CORRUPTED LUSTS” IN THE MOST ILL ADVICED AND DECIETFUL KIND OF WAYS. We are by sinful nature shallow and external creatures, who look on the outward appearance, because we are not like God who looks on the heart. And so we think lust is of different “kinds,” such as lust for money, sex, power, food, or whatever, and we can even decide of our own free will power to override and maybe even kill off some of those lusts, WHEN THEY ARE ALL LIKE WHITE LIGHT JUST SHINING THROUGH DIFFERENT FILTERS. Then when we manage to destroy all the colors of our God created bodies they illumiated and animated, we think we are pure, but all we did was “destroy the temple of the holy spirit,” and believe the lie of some devil who told us certain “parts” of us and “feelings” were nasty, and so we should shun and avoid them or God will not accept us. But Paul says AS CLEAR AS DAY: “I AM PERUSADED OF THE LORD NOTHING IS EVIL OF ITSELF. INDEED ALL CREATURES OF GOD ARE GOOD. TO THE PURE ALL THINGS ARE PURE. BLESSED IS THE MAN WHO CONDEMNS NOT HIMSELF IN THAT THING HE ALLOWS.” AND HE COUNTS ENJOYING THE NATURAL GIFTS OF CREATION HIS “LIBERTY IN THE LORD,” AND SAYS “HE HAS POWER TO LEAD ABOUT A SISTER.” This does not sound like the fanatic and radical teaching which makes us fear that if we find any lust in us, we will surely go to hell! And Jesus warns the pharasees that the same lust which makes a whore do what she does, IS THE SAME LUST WHICH MAKES THEM SO FASTIDIOUSLY KEEP ALL THEIR SELF MADE RULES, AS IF GOD HAD COMMANDED THEM, for he says, “they teach for doctrines the commandmnerts of men.” AND THAT IS WHY GOD CALLS THE FALLEN CHURCH THE “GREAT” WHORE, BECAUSE SHE IS JUST LIKE THE WHORE, BUT LUSTS AFTER THINGS THAT MISLEAD PEOPLE INTO NOT JUST FALLING INTO A “VICE” WHICH HINDERS THEIR GROWTH IN THE LORD, BUT LEADS THEM INTO FALLING INTO THE SAME PIT OF ETERNAL PERDITION ALL THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN BLINDED BY THEIR OWN DELUSIONS OF MOST INSISTANT “GRANDEUR” FALL NEVER TO RISE AGAIN! God wishes for us above all things we may prosper even as our souls prosper, so we may be a picture outwardly of what he has done for us inwardly, since sin and sickness, forgivness and health are inseparably intertwined. And I dare say, if God wishes this for himself, as an object of his greatest and most abundant intercourse of all levels and kinds, then he would have to have qualities in us which are without limit and which transform us into unlimited beauty and love for him. 

----------------  When women do not fulfill their duty as women, men for whom they were made, and who NEED them suffer, and vise versa it is true for men towards women also. But Jesus also fulfilled his design as the son of God, and did not require or expect any of us to be able to live without needing a spouse, except for few rare exeptions, but they are not more holy because they have different callings and functions. So to say lust is a sin, at least in my best understanding is completely misleading, and I am sure has confused multitudes to absolute distraction who have tried to understand what the church means by it. But who will give an honest and candid answer to that, when to even show the smallest amount of reasoning wrips the insane doctrines and statements of the church to ribbons? They must tread softly around those empty priests who have but an egg shell for a covering. 

--------- Now to investigate the manner in which the Bible brings up the topic of lust, Jesus says things like, do not lust after a woman even in your heart or you have commited adultery. This is not the same as if one of a self righteous and carnal reasoning said it. These are words coming from our very mind and therefore head, and so surely do not mean something which has no way of making sense of or fulfilling to any degree of real obediance. God desires us to live as close to what it will be like in pure sinless paradise as possible, and no one there will find any sin in the image of man, unless the image of God in which we are made are the source of it. All the commndments of God hinge on where our lust is, even the control of the other “Deadly sins” such as greed, gluttony, or what have you. Adultery, fornication, etc. are all sins of the same nature, and all depend on the “proper quenching” of our “worm” which dies not. We all have that “hunger for the word, and Jesus,” etc., but we made to have our lusts so diverted from any knowledge of these things, we do not know that is what we are hungering after in our lusts. The most sexy female or male, would appear as void of all beauty and appreciation from us as if it were a blot of ink on a sidewalk, if God’s image were not shining through it with his pleasure and beauty. What we call “erotic pleasure” comes from the very image of God in accordance with those areas of his he made us in image of, and designed to house and feel and be animated by those powers. And we can pray for unlimited amounts of these things, and not only is it not a sin, BUT IT IS COMMANDED BY GOD, AS HE GREATEST DESIRE FOR US FOR HIS OWN SAKE AND WILL AND PLEASURE! Whatever he has exersized our senses in our souls and bodies to recognize as good or evil, we should either shun and avoid and rebuke and pray against to our best ability, or embrace, pray for and ACT ACCORDING TO, to the best of our ability, And what is the best of all our abilities? Waiting upon the Lord to renew and exchange and refresh our strength, and fill our mouths with good things if we open it wide to him, so we may mount up on the wings of Eagles, which are the prayers of Jesus we pray and learn from his voice. ALL WHILE MAKING THE GOSPEL, THE IMAGE OF GOD THE SOURCE AND OBJECT OF ALL OUR AFFECTIONS WITH ALL OUR HEART, SOUL, MIND AND STRENGTH! Anything we do as a “bare work” which requires “unbendable man made rules and regulations” are as dead and deader than the driest and most decayed bones rotting in worm infested earth. We need to be as Mary who sat at the feet of Jesus, and did not count his words as discardable trash like the world thinks of his “hidden manna,” which is but it is “light bread.” But it is always the food that sinful junk food eating sinners think is the most tasteless and cave man like, that makes us the strongest and most enduring, and which makes all our bodily powers of their greatest strength. And surely God would not have us to eat only food which will cause disease and weakness and obesity and malnourishment and which even costs more, JUST SO WE WILL AVOID FEELING ANY SENSUAL PLEASURES! To be sensual in a way which separates us from the church, is to be obedient to the self, instead of God, and it does not mean having physical sense and beauty. That should be obvious. You can be the most sickly and starving and frugal eater of only the most “civilized” forms of foods, which doctors love us to eat so we will visit them often, and be ALSO THE MOST SENSUAL OF KINDS OF PERSONS! And separate yourself from the church by not leaving the 99 to seek the one lost sheep. Jesus commended the pharasees for their “forms of Godliness” though they denied the power thereof, and one of those forms was they “compassed sea and land just to make ONE CONVERT!” How far is the church from that who claims BILLIONS were saved in a certain course of time just from making some televised watered down, totally inaccurate, drenching with sinful self worshipping pride message which touched no one, and begged for money a trillion times more than they EVER BEGGED FOR SALVATION!? 

----------------  Beggars which open their gaping and polluted, festering wounds of flesh or debt or spiritual destitution or mental illness, or emotional distress, or danger from domestic violence, or whatever is the case, and FORCE those with any mercy in them to pity them, and if possible move them to give whatever aid they can, are pictures of a sinner’s prayer for both salvation and greater assurance of it. Jesus said the violent take the kingdom by force, and heaven actually SUFFERS because of it, BUT THAT IS WHAT WE MUST DO, WRESTLING WITH THE ANGELS FOR THEIR BLESSING OF CONSTANT MINISTRY AND PROTECTION, AND RAISING US LIKE PASTORS AND FATHERS RAISE THEIR CHILDREN. We must constantly beg God to make “SURE” Michael is fighting for us as though HE HIMSELF will be lost if he loses THE TINIEST GROUND, and rebuking satan for us, wrestling to gain perfect access to our souls and bodies. JUDE 9. As long as we are in this life, we have to pray as if there were no such thing as the concept of a sure salvation, and Jesus himself prayed as if he could be lost. AND PRAY AS IF YOU WERE REALLY A MANY MEMBERED PERSON, WHO FEELS THE PAIN OF ANOTHER MEMBER NO MATTER HOW MANY ALL AT ONCE, OR NO MATTER HOW FAR AWAY. If our hearts are enlarged as Paul says, then we will not be satisified ministering only to ourselves, but even at times seem to lose track of where we individually begin and other members of the church start, “loving our neighbor AS OURSELVES.” And the more we are comforted of the Lord, the more we will have the means to comfort others, bestowing that same spirit upon them, who is the person of the holy spirit: THE SOUL OF THE COLLECTIVE CHURCH MILITANT UPON EARTH, CLOTHED WITH THE ARMOR OF THE “GREATER WORKS” OF JESUS: HIS GLORIFIED BODY ON PATMOS. As long as we do not worship saints, but hold Jesus up as the standard by which God will judge the world, we will ALWAYS find things in us which in comparison to the pure soul of Jesus are worse than the most rotten and polluted of all menstruous rags, and which cover our whole soul and body for which we need continual cleansing. Those who count their sins “but dust” they just need to “shake off” every day, HAVE NO CONCEPT THAT THEY ARE SINNING AGAINST GOD AND GOD ONLY. Sure, to them they are but dust, since they just need to “polish up” their “self righteous act” everyday, AND LIKE ESAU ALL THEIR SINS ARE BUT INSULTS AND IMPOSITIONS TO THEIR OWN CONVENIENCE AND LIMITED SELFISH SENSE OF WELL BEING. But to God each partical of that dust is a WHOLE PLANETARY BODY, which needs to be desolved and cast into the infinite sea of his unfathomable mercy and grace WITH UNCEASING AND EQUALLY AS EARNEST PRAYER. The tiniest sin is as big as who it is against, and how can we say “at least our sins do not cover a large area of God’s omnipotence, or engage that much of his almighty power?” And what is large or small compared to omnipotence? Again I remind you what was revealed to Isaiah, he says, “then was sounded in my ears, thus says the Lord, this iniquity shall not be purged from you until you die!” And John says, “if we say we have not sinned, (and are without sin,) WE MAKE GOD A LIAR, and there is no truth in us.” What a ventriloquist act that is, to make God into a liar! And we do that if at any moment we decieve ourselves to think we are without sin! God must know we are NOT without sin, though he does not “remember it as OUR SIN,” if we are in Christ and counted his body, flesh and bones, and therefore though sinful, YET WITHOUT SIN.” Jesus is the first begotten of the dead, who alone has the keys of hell and death, and therefore can open our stony, dead, hellish hearts to pour his heart of flesh into them to make us living beings. But being a sinner by nature, though our new man is without sin, makes us to need to always humble ourselves yet deeper and more knowledgeably and accurately, so we may manifest that divine love which is described in 1 Corinthaisns 13, and not only manifest but be living examples of what it can do for miserable and guility sinners. I can add many more elaborations and Bible verses to back up my claims here, but search the scriptures for yourselves to see how it all lines up. But if you are not willing to do that, then you have no business judging me, or acting like you know any better. I do not usually give Bible references, since if my writing does what I wish it will do, you will make the Bible your main text book in the college of eternal life, and know each and every Bible verse better than if I just mapped it all out for you here. Also you can buy Bible programs for your computer to make it even easier to do. 

Revelation 1:19   Write the things which thou hast seen, and the things which  are, and the things which shall be hereafter; 

------------ We need to write what we “see” in our vision of the truth, and like a cat “sharpening it’s claws,” sharpen our ability to argue the truth by writing in defence of it. Sure all cannot read it, and only a few will get famous or make money at it, but it will be more like “hand to hand combat” if more prepared to “give an answer to those who ask a reason of the hope of eternal life.” Many say there is no proof of hell, but if there was ever a knock down drag out “sucker punch” to that kind of deception, all you got to do is imagine “what kind of being do you think is behind all of creation?” Just think of what he can do, just by the simple act of making the sun. And if you sinned against that “God” whatever he is, or maybe even if he is a “nobody,” because if he does not exist, what kind of hell would that be? --- either way, that will be what hell is: a complete forsakeing of ever being able to know, and when all your toys and complimenting friends turn into a pure bareness, and are cast into the gulf of that giant questionmark which burned slow and cool in this life, so that you were content here saying, with a big silly yawn, “well you never know,” you will not longer find it so tolerable to never know anything for sure! And what kind of hell will that be? And if there is no hell, who is after this life? Whether he is just a force, or an inanimate creation machene, who ironically can create real awareness and separate identity, is he so weak and unholy that he will be happy with the likes of you? Is he such a push over he will not just yawn and roll over in boredom after a trillion eons pass? Or maybe a few minutes? Is God like us who sometimes need not much more entertainment than cats chasing a ball of yarn, and even we often get tired of eachother more quickly than a ball of yarn we imagine is moving by itself though we are pushing it. What will you be to that “one” who has EVERYTHING? If he is just a bunch of light, endless light, and you get to meet those same people you got bored with and sometimes had to suffer with and because of in this life, what kind of hell is that? And what will that do to your sense of fairness that you all got to go to the same meaningless, worthless, endless, aimless place of endless empty light with the same uncertain destiny of what if any changes will occur therein? And so when you look around and see the handiwork of God, the scenario of the aithiest, or paranoralist, or agnostic, or muslim, or even traditional christian just does not add up! Because surely whatever is next, has to be far more dynamic and shaocking to us than even the tiniest blueprint that surely must exist on some level and manner in existence on how even the most monotonous square inch of outer space got there and continues to exist. So if you have any detective ability at all, then surely you will not think your ideas are worth too much. We must look at life like it is a joke or cartoon to imagine that whatever is beyond, does not require more than the most innacurate figment of our imagination to be satisfied with going there! And if life were to simply vanish into a complete errasal of memory that it ever existed, soon those who cared so little about us compared to what we thought we were worth in our own eyes will forget about us too, and if you say that does not horrify you beyond all expression or belief, then you should question ALTOGETHER all of your claims that there is no hell, because your ability to predict and expect and calculate and have things “register” on your mind are completely drugged and deadened somehow!

----------  Marriages fail because they are not based on being a picture of Christ and his church, and if something in this world works best when it is a picture of some divine thing, that is about as much a picture of faith as you can get! If you found a statue of some “God” somewhere, and it was obvious it was made by some uneartlhy intellagence, like the Pyramids, which we cannot build even with all our technology and powers combined today, wouldn’t you think at the very least there was some kind of God big or small g that could at the very least do some kind of damage to you if he or she wanted to? And it is not your body which has feeling, all the ability to feel pain or pleasure is in your soul, and you just think it is your flesh which is feeling it. Your brain cannot think, it is just your mind using what little resources it can find there which makes it seem your brain can think. Our bodies are emplty shells, which have no more powers of animation than bones do without flesh and mucles and blood covering them, and connecting to them. And so what will our souls feel when instead of being “married” to our flesh as “one,” they are married to “outer darkness” as being “one and the same?” It is not the damned by themselves which get cast into the lake of fire, but in being “one and the same” with hell and death. The lake of fire is the second death, but Jesus only died for the first death which is our total depravity. The heights of depravity those who will suffer the pains and terrors of the lake of fire will come to and ever deepen and elaborate in, for which God will simply increase his wrath in response, which will just exasperate and agrivate their horrifying condition all the more, would make all the worse sin, even the sin Jesus was made for us seem normal and even glorious by comparison. 

----------- Jesus said, “deny yourself,” and he was not speaking to our flesh, or for us to make sure our flesh denies itself. Yet that is what one would have to think when you look at how people respond with such religiosity and superstition, and irrational fear in living and walking by rules instead of faith. If the just live by faith, not by their carnal sight, what are they who walk by their carnal sight and think they are going to heaven because they keep the rules they decided to make for themselves? Unjust? It is funny that they do not realize they are the sensual ones Jude speaks of who “separate themselves and do not have the spirit.” But they decieve themselves that “they do not separate themselves” because they turn the house of prayer into a “country club,” and all agree together on what God is thinking and what God meant by “certain” verses of the Bible they have decided defines their denomination. As a result all the “denominations,” (which is but splitting Jesus up into tiny fragments, and then making a patent on their piece of “faith’s shipwreck,”) all have spiritual forms of all the carnal diseases we suffer in the world today, since God curses us with them to show us our sins. Did not Jesus say “which is easier to say, arise and walk, or your sins be forgiven you?” And Isaiah says, “the people shall not say they are sick, for they shall be forgiven their sins.” Jesus told Peter, “satan has desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat,” or sugar, or whatever else we “process,” sifting out the real nutrients, to only embrace that which seems holier to our carnal reasoning in our own blind, dead self righteousness.

--------------   It is like a virtue, or going to a sacriment to need to see a doctor, and pump our bodies full of pharmasutials than to just take care of our health with spirolina and swimming and vitamins and chlorella, and the things God designed specifically for our bodies, so we will more than likely not need to see a doctor, unless we are physically injured somehow. Why do we need to be their Ginny pigs anyways? But that is what we are doing: we are signing up to be a guinny pig for some doctor who is mad in his lust for money and self exaltation to practice his medicine on us! There will always be sick people among us, why not let that suffice? We don’t need to throw ourselves under the wheels of the chariots of junk food, just so we can suffer some disease, and give some doctor more practice! And who are we really worshipping and serving when we do that anyways? A demon perhaps? Shall we cut ourselves little by little with every spoon full of processed sugar, and waste every bit of time we have to exersize just to appease some demon so he will not stab us in the gut too much with stress and worry about worldly matters? And we will not sell our soul in one lump some, but how many pieces of our soul can we sell in “installments” until we no longer have a soul?  And what will we have gotten? Maybe saved from some sharp and bitter temptations, which God was standing by offering us a way of escape? And what would it be like if we had taken that escape? Those drunken on their own blood as with sweet wine will never know. Do we need to drink alcohol to be drunk? What about too much of anything bad for us? 

--------------- Many times, (I will not judge how many or percentage wise,) doctors do not even care about the patient if he lives or dies, and just wants to make sure his sinful ass is covered by some lawyer. So much for the hippocratic oath, when our nation does not honor it, since isn’t it supposed to say, “whether a patient can pay or not?” So why are we making our doctors all hypocrites when they take the hypcratic oath? Maybe because none of our politicians mean it when they take our nation’s hypocratic oath, the constiturion, when we make them hypocrites in still requiring them to swear by it to get into office. We know they won’t honor their words, so why don’t we say to that “would be emperor,” go ahead, just get naked, we know you want to anyways! The constituition is our nation’s uniform, and if we let it get full of holes, and filthy and soiled for throwing it in with the garbage, or rot in the attic with our other proffessed treasures, it doesn’t matter how rich we are monetarilly, we are all the filthiest and most rotten and disgraceful bums that could ever exist! To whom much is given, much is required, and what nation ever was founded on more righteous and logical principles than America? Not that Americans in general ever kept what they professed, or they would have never had slaves for the most obvious example, and that should have been obvious especially when Moses had a black wife. The early Americans usually had the Bible as their main or only book, and they would be shocked and horrified if any claimed they did not rightly own or read it, but that is what really was the case. Do you think God sees his Bible being read when it is not read in faith? Did Jesus feel the people thronging him in faith? It was just the woman who said, “if I but touch the hem of his garment, I will be healed” who touched him in faith, which made Jesus say, “who touched me? for I percieve virtue has gone out of me.” As the disciples thought Jesus was going mad to ask that when all the people were pressing his body with such great pressure, we also judge God to be crazy to see no one reading the Bible when there is Bible studies and churches on every street corner like harlots promising a good time for a fee, (our tithes and offerings,) yet that is what God sees when no one reads the Bible to increase their faith! But who needs faith when they see no need of the great physician? Accepting Jesus to them is either like putting a cherry on top of any already perfectly luscious cream pie, or else just doing it for the sake of tradition to show what good sports we are, in that we “picked or stayed in a religion we were born into,” as if it were just a big game or sports team. And so every church has their cheerleaders chanting, “we’re number one! And go team!” Etc. And will we be surprised when some aithiest or totalitarian regime that now owns us lock, stock and barrel because of national debt, drags the Bible to the trash, and the national “computer” does not say “item in use” when they push the delete trash button? If when that famous aithiest wanted to do that to prayer in school, did the national computer say “item in use?” We thought it was in use, since we went through the motions, and said some mumbo jumbo statement and added the word “God” to it, but apparently GOD DID NOT THINK PRAYER IN SCHOOL WAS IN USE, OR WILD HORSES COULD NOT HAVE MADE OUR NATIONAL COMPTER DELETE PRAYER IN SCHOOLS! We have a lot of Muslim prayer in use, since we cannot delete that, and a lot of other kinds of prayer, BUT CHRISTIAN PRAYER? There is no way it was anything more than a dusty and decrepid corpse when that aithiest wanted us to get that dreadful stench out of our national closet! But our self righteous pharaseeical Christians condemned her as if it were real prayer, since they also think their reading of the Bible and supposedly living by it is real too! 

-------------  And why does college have to be so expensive anyways? If there was one act of charity our nation should honor as a “given,” it should be college, especially since all it basically is, is just meeting to hear a “secular sermon” of sorts, and many times slanted to the opinions of the professor, and then you are off on your own, and it is all up to you to make sure you “make the grade.” If they held your hand all day and hired someone to fan you, and bring you tea and ice cream, and pamper you 24 hours a day, I might see some reason why college is so expensive. And if the government will bail out anyone for billions or trillions of dollars, why don’t they realize we are “one” nation indivisible, with liberty and justice for ALL, NOT JUST A FEW BIG WIG CRIMINALS WHO PULL STRINGS AND PUSH LEVERS AT THE TOP OF THE “MONEY CHAIN!” And if they realized that, how would that affect their acts and decisions? That is assuming they have a functional mind which is not completely reprobate and insane. Why do we as a nation have a system set up only to honor the dollar we worship as God and Jesus, and so only honor people according to their “fluxtuating number” they are assigned as it were by that “entity” money? If their dollar number is high, they are highly revered and worshiped by the masses, both poor and rich, and if their dollar number is low, they are counted as scum, which someone should buy some kind of cleaner for to get rid of or polish over, or something. And why do the churches call the state to take care of the poor before they extend their own hand and services to do it? How can the churches have any slightest idea or grounds to hope that Bible they falsely so swear by, is their’s by any long shot of the most drunken and vile imagination? 

------------- And now that I have obeyed Jesus to some degree in writing some of the things which I see, and the things which are, WHAT ARE THE THINGS WHICH SHALL BE HEREAFTER? I am drowning all day every day in despair just to see one stray thread of any hope in this world. I cannot deal with life, and I am beside myself why God made me like this to be such a misfit in this world, and why I am so obsessed with writing accurate dipictions of my opinions and beliefs and theries, or what have you, when I do not see any hope anyone will ever want to read this. But if they do, it too will be worthless if it does not cause people to repent by the power of the holy spirit. I know “it is not by might, nor by power but by my spirit saith the Lord.” But I have typed myself into a corner, since where in the world, especially in this day, and especially in the foreseeable future can I see God intervening for us, excpet in the most basic, and limited mundane things? Surely any good in the world is from above and comes from the “father of lights,” but as far as what I think SHOULD BE, all that appears to me is God handing this whole world over to satan to do what he will with it and pretty much every soul and body and thing in it. I just don’t see anything for the future but more of the same, and God put so much on the church to change things, but the church does not do anything but follow the “Spirit of the times” and ways of the world. Do you think when Jesus said, “if I be lifted up, I will draw all men unto me,” he means “a false depiction of me lifted up?” Or that it was not somehow the job of the church but God would just do it anyways? And when Paul says “be determined to know nothing but Jesus crucified,” he meant just as a “nebulous thing” which did not include “using all means at our disposal?” And is the Bible a small means? And if it is not, should it not be studied and meditated on MORE THAN ANY OTHER BOOK, that is, if we consider eternal life our “one thing needful” to have in this world? And did Jesus want all men drawn unto him, so he could “hog” all God’s children like a power crazed mother, and not hand them over to his father? I just see complete lack of all sincereity, true love or interest in Jesus, or in performing even the least of all his commandments, which maybe do unto others as you would do unto me; or even at least unto your own self serving sinful nature. I must admit I am just completely negative about everything, and all I want is to see some ray of light that God did not put me in this world like the worst misfit in human history. I do not see this book going anywhere, or making one penny off of it, or ever experiencing any prosperity in this world. I am just thinking about getting my house in order, and “bracing for the worst.” That is all I can think of, which is really hard for me now because of the debt and all the financial mistakes I have made recently which I am writing also somewhat about on my website www.jesus-on-patmos.com. I am not excuding all possibilites, or I would probably have nothing to live for, but I am just really seeing a gloomy picture of things now, and with nothing getting better, though I still have some faith things might improve. 

--------- I do not see any real moves of God, or God sending me to preach the gospel, and all I see is more of the same if even that much: “big wig” evangelsists, holding giant crusades, which do not touch anyone personally, and just glorify ecumenicalism, which would be okay if the churches involved were right in any way to begin with. The power of God there is not manifested through truly caring and saved servants of God, but just servants of satan used by God as his “swords” to send strong delusion to the world for not recieving the love of the truth. I believing all my writing is based on my recieving the love of the truth, and so all who do not recieving that love will not like my writing, and may find it the least interesting of all things, or maybe even be violent against it if they see God prospering it in any way. I see money more and more as turning into the mark of the beast, especially when no one gives me any attention or places any importance on me at all, unless they are trying to get into my wallet. When Jesus or religion or friendship, or way of life, or nothing I can offer means spit to anyone except my money, and it TRULY SEEMS WITHOUT EXCEPTION, that to me says “we are getting down to the brass nubs of the matter right about now,” which will be administering the “sacriment of the 666” which the “false prophet,” (is it the pope?) will administer to the whole world, and behead anyone not recieving it. Will the beheading symbolize losing your true “mind and head” who is Jesus Christ? If so the church has already been beheaded long ago, and almost without exception throughout all ages since the church of Acts. Don’t tell me the mind of Christ would let someone like me fall through the cracks, without so much as talking to me, and trying to “straighten me out.” Oh, maybe I just haven’t looked in eneough places! You mean to tell me, the church is so inept and vile, that I have to seek for a friendly Christian like you would a needle in a haystack? And yet they have Jesus for their head, and therefore have the mind of Christ? If that is so, Jesus needs no one to blaspheme him or the holy spirit or anything of God, HE IS DOING A GREAT JOB HIMSELF! But this behavior of Jesus, (if that could be true,) is not consistent with his pure and holy sacrifice, and it is not likely he decided to only do the will of satan and please the devils, after he spent his whole life in most bitter sorrow and suffering striving to only do his father’s will and things that would please him. Is there any other place blaim can go than on the church? When judgment must start at the church, you tell me where else it can go? Will God make someone his first in line to be judged, if the primary blaim for all evil is not on his soul and laid to his charge? Does God give any blaim to the world for all their abominations or haroltry, when he lays all at the feet of Babylon saying, “mystery, Babylon the great, the mother of harlots and abominations of the earth?” When it is your job to warn the wicked, and the wicked commit terrorism or great whoredom, because you did not do your job, is not the blood of all those sinners on your soul, so when God smells you, his radar reading shows up “all the abominations of the earth?” If you put a little scent of something a dog knows belongs to someone, when that dog smells it, he will think it is that person or thing, and start stratching or digging. God knows we are not all he smells on us, so he is not like a dog who just “sees the outward appearance,” but he made us more deserving of judgment than them, because we were given the message which could change the world by putting the fear of God back into it, and we did not do it. The fear of God to the world is like “insectice, or some poison,” and so it will keep the bug and pest problem under controle, though it will not kill all. But those it does not kill will be limited in their “pestiness.” That is how it is if the truth of God were taught. It would not make all repent, (for to “kill” in the Bible means to “convict,” which has to happen first as the primary thing, or there is no basis for repentance,) but if the message were REALLY PERSUAVIVE BEYOND WHAT ANY COULD “GAINSAY OR RESIST,” they would at least desire to live, and not want to turn the earth into a “glass skating rink,” or use their own bodies to strap them with bombs to splatter and lacerate as many people as possible. The idea they would be going to some pornographic paradise would then seem rediculous and at least highly unlikely if they were convinced of the truth, or at least made “agnostic” about what they believed. And does God promise us anything in heaven he does not allow us on earth, at least in “theory” if the world were not so far from him in all their ways? This is my main hope, and most “basis based” since there is the greatest basis to hope for something if it is a long awaited desire of Jesus, and he even asked us, “pray for the Lord of the harvest to send laborers into the harvest.” We ought to know if satan can make us not know the difference between a counterfiet laborer and a real one, he pretty much has the whole field all to himself! And that is really what happened, and now there is really not even a catagory for “real Christian liturature,” since we do not even suspect there is any fake stuff. The churches claim there is real or fake, but it is all said in the spirit of “it’s all good.” If those who claimed some cult was a fake, AND REALLY MEANT IT, how could they not be at their door trying to persuade them to turn from their errors? So they may “Save a soul from death, and hide a multitude of sins?” It is hard to evangelize to people if you do not have a church home which is doing evangelism as a “group effort,” since what will you say to people? Just stay in your same dead end “trapped” life style, and so more than likely continue being a slave to your sins? And if there is not also some “communal aspect” to your church, HOW CAN YOU EVANGELIZE TO THOSE WHO ARE HOMELESS, WITHOUT DENYING YOUR OWN BIBLE, SINCE YOU WILL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SAY, “DEPART IN PEACE, BE YOU WARMED AND FILLED?” We cannot bring all the homeless we find “hopeful of becoming a Christian” to our own houses, and it is the job of mother church to supply a place to keep them with a reasonably quality life style conducive to prayer and hearing the word, and study of the scriptures. Because you can’t (rightly) extend Jesus to the world, who with him, God gives us all things, and not therefore with Jesus, offer the poor of this world the basic necessities of life. OR ELSE YOU ARE THE GREAT WHORE, WHO ABORTS HER CHILDREN AS SOON AS SHE CONCIEVES THEM, BUT HIDES HER OWN CONSCIENCE FROM HERSELF, SO SHE WILL STILL THINK SHE IS PRISTINE AND PURE! - It is one thing to warn the wicked and walk away, having “delivered your soul,” but when you CONCIEVE A SOUL by leading them to the Lord, YOU GOT TO RAISE THAT BABE IN CHRIST, OR YOU ARE LIKE A WOMAN WHO TAKES A CONTRICEPTIVE OR THROWS HER BABY IN THE TRASH! The church with their pastor should be on call 24/7 and minster out of duty and righteousness, not because they feel like it! And if you can’t put down the gripes and complaints of your flesh, your duty will be like a “barameter” to show how far from being holy you are. And like a loving mother to her baby, you are not supposed to glaot and brag about how superior you are to that infant, and snub your nose at them, and if you do, YOU HAVE NOT GOTTEN OUT OF SPIRITUAL INFANCY! And which is more innocent, a new born infant, or an adult WHO IS STILL AN INFANT? And if the poor of this world had a place they could call home, and not just be pilgrims on their way to a “real life,” in our churches, without first requiring them to necessarilly repent, but just require them to show signs they are at least hopeful candidates of eternal life, when and if they do finally pray for the church, that church will prosper and have the presence of God in it UNLIKE ANY OTHER CHURCH WHO DOES NOT HAVE A HEART OF FLESH RUNNING IT! 

-------- And am I saying these are all things I am able to do now, or that the church is worthless if she has not come to this? No, but I am saying if you do not have a vision of these truths and hold to them as your ideal, and all according to, and in line the holy scriptures, and treasure knowledge as a “means” to grow in the Lord, then what chance do you have of EVER IN THIS LIFE OR THE NEXT COMING CLOSE TO “BEING A CHURCH WITHOUT SPOT OR WRINKLE OR ANY SUCH THING?” And no one will end up with Jesus or see the father without holiness. You got to at least “get understanding with ALL your getting,” or you are counted as though “WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING,” whom the Lord will neither show mercy to, or his favor for them. You can be FAR FROM PERFECT, yet not be far from the kingdom, if with what light and ability God gives you, you hold onto as “but one talent,” which YOU IMPROVE AND INCREASE AND MULTIPLY, so when he comes in a revival of some kind, you will not be cut off from the body without remedy, as he says, “you wicked and slothful servant!” There are many judgment days throughout time, and not just after you die. If you are not at an ideal place in the Lord’s faith by a certain “projected period,” God’s spirit may no longer strive with you, and you will be like Esau who could never find repentance again, though he sought it carefully with tears! Jesus does not give us any talent just so he may get it back again in the same condition, as it were “laid up in the napkin of delusional carnal security.” It is satan’s trick to think “Jesus is a hard man,” and so “we better not mess with anything he gave to us.” When all along we are like the child who, when  he is given a painting kit to make pictures, he fears his parents will be angry and condemn him, if he messes it all up by trying to be artistic with it. Nothing is worse than a Bible that shows no wear and has no marks in it! Our greatest gift is the Bible, and all other books and things proceed from that one gift. It is the back bone and skeletal scructure of all Jesus communicates to us from heaven, either in thought, or spiritual outpouring or in his mighty deeds he does through us. But we are too busy with our own “sealed houses,” that is our “own flesh and blood families,” to tend to the family of God who are all adopted as true relatives by the blood of Jesus. And so we call “worshipping toegteher” fellowship, instead what true fellowship will do together. And how can we be sure we are all of the same mind and agreeing on the same thing, if thre is no true fellowship in the mean time? If it is enough to give lip service, and show our approval by merely attending, that is called “selling out to satan,” not “prartaking in the true body of Christ.” Why is giving lip service selling out to satan? Because when you just say something “as a form,” whether it is true or not, and have to put your “reasoning and general faculties” to sleep, or they will not accept an iniquitive and thought provoking member, then that ought to be self explanatory! 

Revelation 1:20   The mystery of the seven stars which thou sawest in my right  hand, and the seven golden candlesticks. The seven stars are the angels of the  seven churches: and the seven candlesticks which thou sawest are the seven  churches. 

---------  The “mystery” of the seven stars and churches is answered by each member PERSONALLY, under the question, “what is the reason of hope in you?” Why do you think you will be saved. Song of Songs asks, “what is your beloved more than another.” But here it is asking, “what are you to Jesus more than just another one that he is calling to be his bride?” Why would Jesus want you? This is the “job application” for eternal life, where we will be “servants that serve him,” and be among the countless multiudes who, in Daniel 7; 10 will “minister unto him.” And if we are ministers, who are we ministers of? Of God or man? And for whose sake did Jesus die for us, and yes, die for in the truest sense? Was it God or man? And if we can answer this in an immpressive enough way, then who can deny us baptism or membership in any church, if we have recieved the spirit of God just like any other real Christian?  Since how can any persons answer such questions without refering to merely chatacismic answers, unless they are in someway recieving the love and dvine breath of the truth? And what hope is there in us, if we cannot find the finger of God at work in our hearts, and activate the communication of our faith by recognizing and acknowledging every good thing in us by Jesus Christ? Is there desire in you to see God and recieve all he has? There is hope. How strong is it? The stronger your passion is to know Jesus the more alive you are in him. And if you “walk by faith, not by sight,” so that you not just “profess” him, but actually “CONFESS” him as one “who can only speak of that which he sees and knows,” then you are walking up the heavenly ladder Jacob speaks of. But Jesus says, “don’t look back, or you are not fit for the kingdom of God.” One can say, “I see certain things here that describe me, but I am a mess, and I always look back, like I have a rotating head, one minute I am looking to God, and the next back to the world.” This shows the need for cleansing and daily recital of repentance prayers, and to do them like you would take a bath or shower, not waiting until you are uncomfortable or start to stink. Cleanliness is next to Godliness, and so God will not be offended if he raises you to even the highest rank of holiness, and you are still confessing repentance prayers like you are the chiefest of sinners. Paul was at a very high level and he was still saying, “oh wretched man, who shall deliver me from the body of this death?” And that he is “the chief of sinners who was not worthy to be called an apostle, but that he sinned out of ignorance and unbelief and so obtained pardon.” You can never OVER CONFESS your general sinful nature, no matter how advanced your new man becomes, “who cannot sin for his seed remains in him.” Your new man is PERFECT, he is the symbolic Mary “concieved without sin” in the second birth, which is the creation of the second Eve, mother church, for the second Adam: the everlasting father. Your new man LOVES for your old nature to pray repentance prayers, because it lightens his load, and makes him grow faster, like when you weed a garden. And as long as there a sinful old nature in us, though he were truly like dust on the surface of a beautiful table just waiting to be brushed off, that “dust” can be what does us in to hell, if we do not detest it AS IF IT WERE THE MOST RANK OF ALL SINS! Jude tells us to “hate the garment spotted by the flesh.” He treats those self righteous Christians, who think they are so perfect, and may indeed be very anointed and powerful, as if they need to be PULLED OUT OF THE FIRE BY THEIR MERCIFUL BRETHREN! And it will be far more tormenting for a new man to go to hell, than for a sinner who was never born again, or did not rise to such “almost there” heights. Those in Hebrews 6 fell away because their hearts were never broken enough to fully mourn and confess their tiniest sins, BECAUSE THEY DID NOT MAKE JESUS THE STANDARD OF THEIR HOLINESS! They were as if promising themselves an easy path to heaven, by patting themselves on the back in flattery for how holy they were compared to others, though they would not say it outloud, since the church was advanced enough to know how the pharesee exalted himself over the publican. And if we do not restore eachother in interseccion in the spirit of meekness, those weeds which grow around us will get us at last and pull us down! If our hearts are truly like tilled soil in which the seed does not “fall by the way side and get eaten of birds,” or ‘get choked by the weedy cares of this life,” or “overcome by the thorny and firery darts of the wicked one,” then we will want above all things to be able to fully and most sufficiently “Examine ourselves” every day, like a woman examines herself to make sure she is as much like a “bride prepared for her husband” as possible. Jesus is our husband, and self examination is our preparing ourselves in front of the “mirror of the word and prayer, and fellowship with others who are like minded.” If we do this, this is another sign and answer of “what is the reason of our believing there is hope in us.” If we grind to a hault everyday, like gears and pistons in an engine which have run out of oil, unless we fill our lamps with fresh oil from the markets and “fields” of heaven through prayer and reading the word, and occasional fasting, then that is another sign of hope in us. The world runs full steam ahead every minute of every day, and never feels the inner “knockings” of an engine, that is, “our hearts” out of wack because we did not spend enough time in prayer and seeking God. And they judge those who need prayer breaks out of a “fainting need” as inferior. They will not judge those whose prayers are constant and mechanical as such, for clearly that is a work of man, not a sign they are insufficient unless God intercourses them with his spirit. Jesus prayed all night often times in prayer, for he said, “without my father I can do nothing.” It should be a no brainer for a real and truly born again Christian, if the choice is, be tired the next day, (because you “watched and prayed,”) and have spiritual energy to keep me victorious in the faith, or sleep and maybe wake up feeling like you are in hell, and be cranky and depressed all day long. Some do not have that problem, but it is just one example of why a true Christian needs to put God’s power and strength before his own. We as sinners have what is called a “hideous strength,” and that shows Christianity needs a REAL GOD, and that is why it is terrible to worldly sinners who just want to look “saved” to others. 

So what is the reason of the hope in me? It is that I can say I love the brethren? But how can I love them when I cannot find or recognize them as such? Does this mean I do not discern the body of Christ, and so not fit for communion, or does it mean I am right, but others just don’t see their need for a saving change? And what about the times I do not show love? Does it mean I do not love them, and so have fallen back into darkness away life? But all this shows is who IS our righteousness, and who MUST be determined to save us. If salvation is the work of God upon something, even a soul, which Jesus said “you cannot exchange the whole world for,” because it is of such a high and noble nature, then to say “I got Christ,” is really not so accurate. If Jesus does not HAVE US, then we will surely plummet to hell never to rise again, with the very first step. The old story of when I went through my hardest times, I only saw one set of footprints may apply to salvation ALL THE TIME. We are self righteous, so we think it is a phenomina which only happens when “bad things happen to good people.” If Jesus said he was not good, but “only God is good,” are we more “God” than Jesus? And we cannot rise to the height where all we deserve by covenant is good, if we do not first see and deal with that covenant of death we were born into, which makes us only deserve bad. We only see ourselves, and know we have a new man in us, but what is that new man? It is Christ in us the hope of glory! It is in fact the new us, so it is not just Jesus, but really us, and the old man will not pray to be put down and cleansed away, but that it is the new man in and as the old man praying it. So to “get saved” to begin with is never our own choice. God says “choose,” but if and when we choose, it is because Jesus, “you have not chosen me, I have chosen you.” It is because God puts that pressure on us, and we are “elected” by God not to be able to overpower him by our natural tendency to rebell against him. It is not like a true born again Christian is two persons: old and new man. The old is swollowed up into the new, and the two become one person. But what does the pregnant woman clothed with the sun symbolize? but the church who is being compared to Mary who gave birth to the “man child,” husband of the church. And that is why we can so easilly think we are the ones who have power, and walk alone, seeing only one set of foot prints, but really we can only “do all things through Christ who strengthens us.” We need to really learn to acknowledge every good thing in us so the communication of our father’s faith in us, “the word,” may make our prayers effective. 

Sincerely yours, Joseph Edward Bonnette •••••••••••••••••••

************   MAILING A LETTER TO GOD IN THE “ENVELOPE OF FAITH,” CONTAINING A FORMAL REQUEST THAT WE MAY BECOME “USEFUL” TO GOD, WHICH MEANS “TO BE KIND TO HIM,” 1 Corinthians 13; 4, AND GLORIFY (being conformed to) HIS NAME, WHICH WE MUST NOT “TAKE IN VAIN.” BUT “LOVE” HIM BY UTILIZING HIS “USEFULNESS/KINDNESS” AS THE “SOLAR RAYS” OF ALL POWER, EVEN MAKING OUR VERY BODIES AS “SOLAR PANELS” DESIGNED TO RUN ON HIS “QUICKENING POWER.” AND BY WHICH WE MAY SHOW OURSELVES, (SINCE WE ARE MADE THROUGH HIS NAME,) AS ALSO “NOT MADE IN VAIN.” ~~~~~  “Have you made all men in vain?” PSALM 89; 47. “Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain.” EX. 20; 7: which also shows that ALL GUILT stems from bearing or using the name of God IN ANY WAY in vain, meaning, “in a way contrary to the will and design of holiness.” Also to pray in the name of Jesus means NOT to “slap” the word “JESUS” at the end of a prayer, but if you pray ACCORDING TO THE WILL OF GOD, you are praying in the name of Jesus EVEN IF YOU DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME IN THE PRAYER!! Since Jesus fulfilled the word/law/promises,etc., ALL the word of God, even the old testament is ALL in the name of Jesus. 

“He did not make us, (the earth,) in vain, but he made us to be inhabited, (by himself and every member of his kingdom.) ISAIAH 45; 18. For God to make us, but not have the PERFECT RIGHT to enhabit us, by our asking and prayers, is like our making a house, but we cannot live in it, and if we go into it, it spews us out and makes life intolerable for us if we insist on staying anyways. Why would God NOT count us made in vain if he is not WELCOME to live in us? God counts anything we take and own “therefore” theft if we do not pray for it to be blessed and express constant gratitude for it, and vow to use it only for his service. “The grace God bestowed upon me was not in vain; for I labored more abundantly than all (combined,) yet not I, but the grace of God in and with me.” 1 CORINTHIANS 15; 10. “For you know your labor is not in vain in the Lord:” verse 58. We as “workers” together with Christ, must not receive his grace in vain. 2 CORINTHIANS 6; 1. 

Do you think that the scriptures says in vain, “the spirit that dwells in us lusts to envy?” God whose name is JEALOUS, --EX. 34; 14, --AS SURELY AS HIS NAME IS JEHOVAH, OR ANY OTHER NAME HE HAS, “lusts” for us as a man lusts for his beautiful bride. That is why God made us, and why should the infinite God make anything inconsistent with his nature which is to “be almighty and ultimate and supreme,” etc? Will such a God make us to be something he finds boring and loathesome and useless? We only SEEM like that, despite our overly inflated ego and self opinions, because sin has made us a “false testimony” regarding the works of God. We were made in the beginning, (in the mind of God,) joyful and glorious and so beautiful, God compared us to his BRIDE! God never makes parables in vain, and show me one father or son whom a “straight” and normal sexually driven male would like to have sex with as much as a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN!! And Paul says the REASON WHY we who are SO sinful have been chosen to have such a glorious place in paradise, saying, “that which lacked has God bestowed the more abundant honor and comliness.” 1 CORINTHIANS 12; 23 - 24. - God looks at our “total depravity” as his authorization and opportunity to make us the most beautiful thing he can ever “dredge” up from the DEPTHS of his omnipotence. But that should also make us fear, that if our sinfulness can only be cured by Jesus marrying us as his bride, how GREAT must that sinfulness be? He became our sins, “DYING” with us, (for the wages of sin is death,) so THEREFORE we all died with him, but he redeemed us in his resurrection, “living together with his dead body.” ISAIAH 26; 19. To know the power of his resurrection IS WHAT CONVERSION IS!!! PHILIPPIANS 3; 10. For it “converted” Jesus from being made sin for us, to being made all glory for us. And he did that when he was nailed to the cross: to his dry, wooden, unworthy bride. And if he did that in his death, how much more now in his life? ROMANS 5; 9 - 10.  

God hates vanity, so why would he make us according to vanity, just because we insist on using his gifts according to vanity? Besides God must defend his pride in his works in the eyes of the holy angels, and if God made us, in our original pristine creation anything less than the most valuable “jewels of paradise,” this would be in fact saying, “this is the best I could do,” which would be very humbling to God, since his rule is, “whatsoever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might.” Who will believe you if you say, “I could have done a lot better, but I just didn’t try or want to.” And if they believe you, they will judge you as a lazy hypocrite who finds the truth tasteless and boring and is apathetic to holiness. YOUR PRODUCT SAYS “WHO YOU ARE.” Many choose to do nothing, because all will know what flaws and sins lurk within them. But to be holy you first have to open your mouth and let everyone know you are a fool, and finally take away all doubt. If those who hear you have any hope themselves, they will hope for your growth and continued conversion, instead of saying, “he is marooned! he will always be like that!” 

Sinners are “static,” and never grow, and so judge everyone like that, since Paul says, “you are inexusable who by judging others condemn yourself.” They would not condemn themselves if they knew they were the same as others, but they are condemned because they offer no hope for others, and think they only have a “guaranteed place” in heaven. Judging others only makes us judged in an adverse way because we judge INACCURATLY AND WITHOUT OFFERING OR INTENDING TO OFFER HOPE. Psalms says “NO MAN CARED FOR MY SOUL.” That sums up the whole reason why God is damning the world, because no one cares. To “CARE” is like the white hot “rays” of love, or the signal on the phone, or the voice of our thoughts, or the works of our faith. If you don’t care about anybody but yourself, it is not just a “life style choice,” it is a resolution to “belong to the most tormenting places of damnation where there is absolute lack of concern.” Hell is in degrees, and Jesus said those who know the Lord’s will and do not do it will be beaten with many stripes. SO TELL ME, WHO DOES NOT KNOW WE ARE SUPPOSED TO CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER? IS THAT EVER A SIN “WE JUST DID NOT KNOW ENOUGH” NOT TO COMMIT??? And we can “care” about eachother, but if that concern never leads us to CARE ABOUT GOD, what good will it do us but guarantee us a “less tormenting” place in hell? 

And what good will it do our hope of eternal life if the only thing we can say is “I never murdered anyone?” And that is pretty much the only requisite we are headed for regarding general humanity, unless of course you are like me and try to teach the truth to people. But interestingly enough, to convict of sins is compared to killing, but it is not called “murder” because it is not unjust killing. God did not say, “do not kill,” but “do not murder.” We do not murder the enemy if a war is necessary, or murder a murderer if he is found guilty beyond any shadow of a doubt. And what AUTHORIZES US is if we cannot change them by first preaching the word to them, and so most all wars in God’s eyes are not “authorized.” And that is, “killing the old nature,” or else we cannot “eat” one another, meaning “fellowship,” or “intercourse” one another. And in the Greek, fellowship also has the “sexual” connotation added to it. WE MUST “ARISE IN FAITH AND WITH EAGLE LIKE WINGS OF PRAYER, AND KILL AND EAT.” ACTS 10; 13. If we are a “rock of faith and wall against the gates of hell,” being filled with the clotting factor of the blood of Jesus, we will “do the work of an evangelist,” or that is “of the holy spirit,” and “convince the world of sin,” JOHN 16; 8, and “not speak of ourselves.” JOHN 16; 13. 

Churches are so far from having breasts like towers, they rarely if ever have any milk to feed new born babes, unless it is their own “formula” of that milk to grow up “mutants” who will serve the church instead of God. AND THAT IS THE DEFINITION OF “ANTICHRIST” OR “IN THE STEAD OF GOD:” not as an “ambassador,” but as a REPLACEMENT!” WE CANNOT “PRACTICE” WORSHIPPING GOD BY GIVING THAT WORSHIP TO A MERE MAN OR INSTITUTION OR DOCTRINE OUR WHOLE LIVES! THERE IS NO “PRACTICE” WORSHIPPING, THERE IS ONLY PRACTICE LOVING. ONLY IN LOVE CAN WE SAY WE LOVE GOD BECAUSE WE LOVE ONE ANOTHER. And churches have little patience with babies in the Lord, who like Paul, suffer great things because they see themselves as “wretched” and who have a “body of death.” And so churches teach them to grow up “immediatly,” by telling them all they got to do is “repeat after them,” like they are taking an “oath of office,” and they got everything they will ever get or ever be, “so stop acting like babies and crying unto God day and night!” That is by the way, EXACTLY what satan promised Eve for eating the “communion wafer” of satan’s lies. 

The tree of knowledge of good and evil could have been ANYTHING, IT DID NOT HAVE TO BE A BEAUTIFUL TREE. All it had to be was something to contain the essence of satan’s sinfulness, and it would have done the same thing. The tree satan used was not the tree of knowledge of good and evil, in fact IT DOES NOT EXIST. It “BECAME” that after satan chose it for his “cursing” of it to inflict mankind with the “exploding and elaborating virus” of sin. The tree “in the midst of the garden” was not presicely “pointed out” by God since there were MANY TREES in the midst of the garden. The tree of life also was not a specific tree, it was “ACCESS TO A WORD PROGRAM” which was the very Godhead of Jesus Christ. Adam did not yet feel the NEED for the physician, and so did not reach to those levels where the MIND OF GOD is. BUT AFTER HE SINNED, God knew Adam would be reaching for it, and so guarded it by his need first for CONVICTION OF HIS SINS. The holy angels are called “elect,” because God “elected” to reveal his son to them while he was yet only the “WORD,” OR “LOGIC” (logos) OF GOD. And Jesus is called “the green tree,” who is on “either side of the river as well as in the midst of the river,” which “river” is the blood he shed for us. Now to be saved we must go through the flaming sword of conviction, and be raised by holy angels, since “the way of the tree of life” is not something we are worthy to recieve until we are crucified with Christ. And to recieve it before we are worthy is to be “as guilty” as if we PERSONALLY CRUCIFIED Jesus Christ! 1 CORINTHIANS 11; 27. 

JAMES 4; 5. “IF ANY AMONG YOU SAYS, ‘I SHALL HAVE PEACE THOUGH I CONTINUE ON IN THE IMAGINATION OF MY OWN HEART,’ THE WRATH AND JEALOUSY OF THE LORD SHALL SMOKE AGAINST HIM, AND ALL THE CURSES OF THE BOOK OF THE LAW SHALL BE LAID UPON HIM.” DEUTERONOMY 29; 19 - 20.

                        An “individual and personal prayer” but from all who desire to learn the most intreging knowledge in all of existence, to that most blessed image and “mother of us all,” the gospel of the kingdom, even “Jehovah,” whose names are many, and which all contain in them “power over all plagues,” even the plauge which was spawned in the “flood of lies” which satan casts out of his mouth, and through which most deadly vyrus of sin, we were shaped in our first birth according to that iniquity, and whose inner most hearts are very “sinks of desperate wickedness coupled with the most insiduous deciet that we are already holy and pure,” though we can ironically also sin, which is impossible to do if we were “good trees” as we think we are. - And to the fulness of the soul of the gospel, the masculine nature of God and the Father of Jesus Christ, who begot him in the likeness of his omnipotent soul, and emplanting the seed of his soul, the word, in the womb of his own image, his female nature, whose words began creation as a “word program only,” writing the whole of all that could ever exist, and calling it “the only begotten son.” And whose image in which humanity is made is of a limited size and shape, just as we are, only infinitely more complexed and fully of a spiritual nature, reunite us all to the “roots” of that most basic origin as I seek to explain my mind in a way which I will most exactly believe applies to all of general humanity. 

To transcribe all important works, so I can print them most personally for others, and so to make having my printer work one of the main factors. And to make all my prayers explained to others according to the scriptures, so it may be of the use of other’s edification. And to save my money for the word, and to eventually and little by little be able to “invest” it in ways that will earn more money. to pray to carry the burdens/cares of all the churches, people needing salvation; since there is no churches as in pal’s day. revangelize on internet daily as much as possible

                                     “Dear,” (expensive) Jehovah, whom only the death of Jesus could buy for me, I was made in your image in the beginning as pure and holy, and not shaped in sin, but that was before I was made flesh. But when I was made flesh, my being was already intercepted by the ultimate creature of all evil, who seduced my first human mother by taking possession of what was at that time, BEFORE IT WAS MISSHAPEN AND STRIPPED OF GLORY, a most beautiful creature known as a serpent. So with the “curse,” which I see as all things on earth being channeled through the soul of satan, the serpent became evil and malevolent. So after sin entered the world through the “communion fruit” of that channel satan used to infect Eve, all the earth was cursed, and I and all creatures on earth inherited sin. Which like the tiniest and fastest growing “grey goo,” of the most unstoppable nano technology that could ever exist, rapidly grew to infect and redesign even the “DNA” of our very souls and bodies. Only humans however, for being made directly in your gospel image were subject to a future damnation under our “then” father the devil, who became our “head,” and with whose mind all our thoughts were controlled and directed. And now that Jesus fulfilled the law, and opened both heaven and hell for humanity, sin on earth is also all the more exceedingly sinful and evil! Even of a completely inexplicable nature, seeing if evil existed when Jesus was only the word, how much more now that he has fulfilled being made sin for us, and so all sin is made directly through his living soul? And that is, because nothing can be made “that is made” except through the word, and all the more through the word “made flesh,” and you claim to create the good and the evil, and will not give this “glory” to another. And claim there is no evil in a city, but you have done it. AMOS 3; 6. And you create the good and create the evil, not just “let” it happen or “use” it. Even creating the fall of Lucifer who is the arch chief of all sinners, and all the wicked image of his face, which Jesus was made to be for us as “sin upon the cross.” And seeing you must THEREFORE admit all my problems are from you, though not “directly” from you since ONLY GOOD comes from you, BUT THROUGH YOUR SWORDS WHICH IS SATAN, THE DEVIL, AND SINNERS, I beg to make a “settlement” with you that you would SANCIFY my life in your peace and mercy. But in a most MIRACLULOUS AND BIG way, so that it would not be anything I could think is subservient to my life in any way, or just a part of my creature self in any way. But that which TRANSFORMS me in a most miraculous and omnipotent way beyond any calculation even the mind of Jehovah can imagine, so it must be asked for by him to his omnipotent soul: “let there be this degree of peace and mercy and prosperity for my bride that includes a fulfillment of all his prayers far beyond anything he could ask or think, even making all the power work in him necessary for it’s complete and immediate fulfillment.”

Work any kind of suffering in me necessary to cleanse and purify and sanctify me with not only your “justification” of my sinful nature, but your conforming me to your command and my mind to your thoughts. Make me lowly and human enough to have all things pure to me, and to see your image in the human form, instead of an image that offends my self concieted sense of righteousness. Let me not judge what is right or wrong according to how it feels, but according to whether it corrolates to your image or not. Deny satan any “right or privalege” to inflict his insulting condemnation upon my body and soul, or to discredit and defame my writings. Therefore reveal your image to me as my “final” love which Jesus has died to “open up” unto us, along with the very voice of that image which sound is more thoroughly vast and potent even to all flesh than could ever be born without breaking forth in constant and most intense praise to you. Sancify my mind with the word self you wrote for me from before the foundation of the world, and transform me as my old sinful mind becomes renewed because of your spirit breathing into me creating an holographic image that “becomes flesh.” Make me to see soul and flesh are one and the same, and our bodies are but “temporary” though will be eternal after the final resurrection. Therefore give a “downpayment” of when my flesh will be made out of what my soul is, and by this give me renewed health and youth that defies all age and the ravages of stress and threats in this life. Let me not therefore, (since what is not eternal cannot help) seek righteousness in physical clothing, but only in the very nudity of your very image itself: who is omnipotent and universal, though indeed the prototype image of endless species of humanity, and therefore must needs be nude. Make that be my inner bone structure and manifesting image, but to be covered with the glorified Jesus as he intercourses me as my “first love,” who leads me to Jehovah my final love, who “finalizes” and approves of all my repentances. Let me not judge what is holy or not according to what is appealing to my flesh, but acording to what potential there is in it to manifest your image. Make what is valuable to me according to what best speaks of and teaches the kingdom of God “as it is in heaven,” so it may come in the earth of my body and animate me “as it does in heaven:” and therefore make me “the bride of Christ who IS in heaven with Christ.” Make my mind therefore be the most transformed of all areas of my being, since it alone can transform my whole nature, and it alone can teach and explain the “mechanics” of your image. Make Micahel the archangel be my voice and possessive factor of all my ways, and treat me as one who is as important as even Jesus himself, since Jesus prayed, “that you may love them even as you have loved me.” A big and bold request knowing that you could not love us in the same “way” you loved Jesus, or we would all be in hell, seeing he could not sin once, and be our savior. But we sin all the time, and yet by utilizing his righteousness, you still see fit and are most miraculously able to NEVERTHELESS love us as you loved Jesus, though not in the same “way,” but “DEGREE AND URGENCY OF IMPORTANCE” only. Yet regardless, we must expect chastening like him, but not with the complete abandonment of the world and alienation of anyone relating to him as he suffered; for he alone is one person in a Godhead, the second person, while I am supposed to be among many people in a Godhead, the third and final person. I pray that my chastening would be within reason, that is with a little fellowship, having a sufficient spouse, as Jesus in the heavenly and a wife in the earthly, and some persons whom you would stir up enough to at least debate me on my religious beliefs though they will all be “slaughtered” in their ignorance and apathy. Prepare this “table” in the presence of my enemies, and make the “cup” of my soul and body and mind “run over” with the pure milk of the word to supply an ocean of knowledge from the justifying mind of Christ to even “answer” those who do not “ask” nor offer support and comfort to my association with them. 

And so defeat those who say “there is no God” in my endevours, and who claim I will never properly be able to take the Lord’s supper because of my eccentric beliefs, and “slutty” religious doctrines, or publish by books for shear lack of interest and demand in the people.  Make your most final and greatest work, I hope you have been studying and planning all these centuries since the resurrection, be to raise up a people whose desire to know you will be real and without bias as to what the true definition of “YOU” is. Make me a true anointed scientist of the logic of God, and all that God makes through that all encompassing “file” in his mind called “the word,” which is his “logic.” Make me to understand why I do not get the “kind” of results from my prayers I wish, and “why” I do not have others who are like minded to me and whom you have been “working on” to love me as I wish to love them. So make us to “have no words or thoughts of our own to say or think,” except that which “meshes” with your thoughts and words in divine intercourse of all types that corrolate to our nature after it is cleansed and healed and starightened out to be “aright” in your eyes. And make my word self that I fulfill by being recreated as “that word self made flesh,” be extremely glabally omnipotent in a most dominant and prevailing way over all the “lower” forms of authority in the world which comes from satan and fallen angels. And in the presence of my self being present in the spirit, even though I be not worthy or conscious of it, transform, heal and cleanse many people throughout the world, as well as defeat the enemy of our freedom as Americans, which “term American” simply means “heirs of those who pleased you sufficiently to bestow upon their future generations that which is a fulfillment of your promises.” But let this be to make us all one blood through the shed blood of Jesus Christ, so to be an “American” does not require buying or partaking in real estate in the geographical location known as America, but in the constitution and “political principles” that were founded and approved of and set in motion to grow and develop accordingly by our yet “inspired” forefathers. And knowing no police officer or judge or any kind of political and public servant can render any service that can defeat satan and build up this “America” unless you defeat satan for us and “build the house and watch the city,” send your army of angels to assist all our military and police force and public servants and every true American to “have power over all the power of the enemy” so that “nothing shall by any means hurt us!” Bind satan the “Strongman” of all the house of all evil in the world, along with all his demons, and Holy Spirit, who came down to Jesus in the form of a homing Pigean, come and make your “nest” in our midst as the “homing Pigeon” that takes the messages of Jesus Christ’s voice to the very depths of our souls and then back again with a “report” of the condition of what the full and universal “Godhead” of the holy spirit has found there: for the HOLY SPIRIT AS THE IDENTITY OF THE CHURCH “is” our “candle,” or “church.” And make every American by true birthright deputized to have all the power we “glibbly” imagine belongs only to the elected leader called “president,” when if anything he should have LESS POWER THAN THE AVERAGE AMERICAN, SINCE HE IS THE “DESIGNATED SERVANT,” BUT THE AVERAGE CITIZEN HAS NOT VOLUNTEERED TO BE SO “LEAD AND DIRECTED IN ALL THEY DO!” Do not let us imagine that there are any “loopholes” by which a criminal could take that office and then lead the nation into dictatorship, when it is upon the very word of God that the constitution was sworn to be upheld and protected: which like the American flag is a “living being.” Let us rather imagine that “maybe” that word has more power than to be under the tyrany of being used as a “prop” to fulfill the wicked plans of a terrorist: since Jesus himself now glorified IS that very word of the Bible made flesh, and who animates all our prayers, and pumps fresh blood and glory into our flag. As we shall be made like Jesus if we see him as he is, make us to also pray like him if we hear him “praying as he prays” in interseccion for us as his “eternal life’s obsession” in heaven, which heaven is also upon earth in the church. Make all we do therefore in loving one another “forms” of such “interseccion” which stretch far beyond what is needful only because we are yet sinful and unclean and still in need of protection from all our enemies. Give us a better vision of “all the words of life” than to only see the need for cleansing and protection, but that it would be to the end that we would all be lovers of God and of that life “style” which is eternal. And make there to be a sense of “fairness and evenness” in our public judgments, since those who are supposed to be so important and indespeansable in their leadership get away with so much, yet those who are deemed to be so unimportant and invisible are required and threatened with so much. Let us be completely of “service,” that is, “use” to you, which is what “kindness” is, and so not judge ourselves by our own corrupt and decietfully misleading and halluconagenic righteousness, but according to the true science of your mind which judges all things properly. Make the “single eye” of our mind stayed upon you, and make the lens of your word continually correct our vision, until we no longer see you as a “tree walking,” (a means to satisfy our worldly hunger,) but as the very God who is to be worshipped and served in the first place IN ALL THINGS, in which alone we can ever come to function as the loving creatures you see most beautiful and fit for heaven. Since if we can love you who does all the evil in the world, (though it is so you can have complete control over it and to make a quick end of it,) how much more can we love anyone else, though their lack of turning towards you and throwing down the weapons of their own righteousness is the real and true evil for which anyone will be condemned eternally? For though we will see surely you are not evil or hate though you do all these things, and therefore not evil like we are, and satan and his devils are, you will supply us the power to love one another with that supernatural love which only comes through and by Jesus Christ. Our love to you will not merely be an exersize by which all other loving of others is easy, but it will be the very SOURCE of our love by which we     can “have love one for another!” 

As a mouse I want to be an “on earth rock star as soon as possible,” and plant endless trees like an Indian minister or holy man of this world. Will I claim my new wife is a lesbian and want to put her cut out image in a coffin? Will I get so angry I jump up with “comparitively” gigantic eyes like a fly and get a twig stuck through my nose to show far worse could have occured had not God been in charge? And be like a little chirping bird to show how sentimental my horemones are to always make me drunk with thoughts of returning to my roots? When I must face the darkness of my own demons will your grace let me succeed in dispelling them? Or will the initial suffocation make me to breath them into me and contaminate me forever? Will your mercy say my fleeting and weak resistance is enough and come to my aid? Or will you require me to bear my own sins for a while and exersize my own righteousness to stay pure? But could even Jesus have done that had not a holy angel free from being all sin strengthened him? Yet I am sure it did not satisfy his soul like it would mine, seeing he alone is begotten directly of the father. Can I prove to the hearts of those ministries of the world who deny me, that my heart is pure, and all my judgments of them are out of shear honesty and accurately sincere insight? Or will I breath their air and have no way to purify myself because you forsook me? And if I cannot hide in you, who alone can declare me to others, where will I be? Will my physical location and what others see of me be enough? But what is “physical location” if my attention is not in the “word program” which designed my place in the earth and “instructed” God to breath into me in that manner which causes my materialization as a living soul? 

If I am oblivious to my “true roots,” is that not like being disconnected from life support? Then my sinful nature will fester in it’s own filth until I callapse into the mine shaft of “senility,” and my awareness will run on a “virtual reality” which my original father satan will see to it that I am “fitted” with so I cannot shake it off easilly. And though the purity of the word “works” mightilly in me, which is the very “seed” of my husband Jesus, who is upon me, it is not easy being an “unclean thing” that distorts and devalues every form of truth, and cannot but by the most supernatural of miracles, make it seem impressive to we who are designed by sin to only lust after and find satisfaction in the products of sinful men. You would think we as humans would lust after something other than ourselves, seeing we ALREADY ARE US!!! WHY WOULD WE NOT WANT SOMETHING “DIFFERENT,” LIKE THE BEST AND THE HIGHEST, WHO “JUST HAPPENS TO BE” GOD? Did not God make oposites attract, beginning with the greatest oposites, which are the “creator and creature?” And did not God give us a husband whose sinlessness was by his grace attracted to our sinfulness? And is not the splendor of glorious angels attracted to the lowliness of humanity? The sin of homosexuality is not just a sexual phenomina, but to find satisfaction soley in humanity apart from the need for anything better is “great homosexuality!” Relationships between men and women is homosexualiuty on a high level if there is no real need and overdriving and dominating craving for God to be the covering presence at every moment! Though the physical oposites attract of a man and woman, and other “variables” involved, if there is no desire and even repulsion for something greater and “beyond” our “realm,” it is as damnable and more so to God than all the perverts of Sodom and Gomorrah, seeing it rejects Jesus himself, and turns the church into a “great lesbian whore!” If to reject that which we could not do even if we embraced it, namely the law, was so punishable, is not it all the more punishable to reject that law made flesh as the person of Jesus, who could have made us able to fulfill the law even with an “abundant entrance?” 

Would not the computer programs by which the “screen” of the universe comes alive be far more interesting and valuable than that which will be in a junk yard or garage sale and old news that is shunned and scorned in a few years? Why spend money for that which is not guaranteed to have ETERNAL value? And since when did money ever become no longer current? Shall we use eternal money for perishable wealth? Is Jesus our cash whose glory in his face validates our tokans be good for buying only temporary forgiveness and a grace which we can turn into a slave to our lusts? That is like buying service from a doctor, only to do all he can to AGRIVATE AND EXTENUATE our diseases! And why therefore are we not dead by now when all God does for us is to seal us in sin? Is all sinners nothing but soldiers who just don’t have the ultimate “end all” weapon yet, and God puts a wedge between them finding it so the trash compactor walls will not close right away? And if this world is on mere life support, it should be my best interests to pray for God to show me what is my best use of time which is the very sufferings of Jesus. But you would think the sacrifice of Jesus would have killed us all, though in exersizing all his desire and energy and effort to keep us alive, even forever, because we do nothing but use his gifts to destroy the earth! Which lusts can do nothing but cancel out our most valuable use of our time to utilize the texts and exersizes of learning that will make us grow in happiness and security as a child of God! Though our lusts be channeled through our most pharaseeical ideals which “appear” to be of the highest and holiest nature. How can I partake in the souls of those I love if I am not in you? Will that not be hell on earth? Or is the only soul I love my own anyways? And do I just decietfully identify my own soul as other people’s? 

And are we not all the same anyways if we are not in you? Only a father will see something special in those he makes, and we did not make ourselves. But if we have your heart, we will think others are special even as you do. And if my soul is other people’s servant, should it not do them the most possible good? Do I love myself as if I were just a flesh toy, or one who will live forever? Then why would I love my neighbor “as myself” in a merely carnal way, if I love my self with an eternal love? We have pride in who makes them the best milkshake, but no pride in who succeeds in doing the best interseccion, or explains the mysteries of the word the best? Or shows the most compassionate and struggling of all sacrificial love? Would not these be good on my “resume” when it is time to move on from this world, so I can “resume” with having a life, WHEN OUR ONLY “EMPLOYER” WILL BE GOD THE FATHER, AND THE ONLY DISTRIBUTOR OF ETERNAL “JOBS” WILL BE JESUS CHRIST? Should not I seek to “butter up and flatter” such a one with the “honey” of my constant and most diligent of all seeking attention, and have my only “crush” be on him? Or will I wait until it is OBVIOUS that it is only selfish? At least now I can pray my selfishness can be cleansed away and rectified to be transformed in his image! Will my house be a place of pilgramage for the world? And will the most holy of the world plant trees here as the most unremoveable of all the objects here? Will my church be a “CAMP” for the saints, or a giant collection plate they go to like hypnotized slaves to deposit their money once a week, with the “product” of that “certificate" that “they are genuine Christians?” Will the only result of our tithes be to destroy the meat of God in his house and sell that “morsal of true meat” for more toys to win in the end in the eyes of our vain companions on our way to hell? God forbid that I should turn tithing into mere superstition and fear of “missing out on a bargain for worldly goods!” And God forbid that my companions should be those who belong in hell! Can we make whole cars that run on peddle power only and made to last forever? Or do we need Jesus without whom we can do nothing? And can we study our bodies which run on divine energy to also build machenes to run on that power? What would a solar panel look like which light came from the very face of God? Would these not be leaves that heal the nations? And without inate light in all things, will not the very molocules desolve into dusty black hole? Will the government decide to rain down low grade atomic bombs upon us all because they were so cheap to make? They may decide to, but there is no evil in the city if the Lord does not do it. AMOS 3; 6. AND THEIR CHEAPNESS TOWARDS US ALSO CANNOT BE DONE UNLESS THE LORD DOES IT! 

Make all my self control be because of understanding how you wish to interact with me, and in what I do not understand, make it completely holy and innocent and adorable to you to the most ultimate degree that you must seek your deep things for it. So whatever action I make, make it harmless in a civil and religious and spiritual sense, even if it be more flesh indulging than one could argue is not needful and is lacking in purity. Make Michael the archangel so close to me, he is truly my “FELLOWSERVANT,” and my main pastor under Jesus, who also therefore raises me up to be worthy of Jesus, so when I take the Lord’s supper in intention or in actual deed, I will reap the greatest benefits and have no “penalty” from being unworthy in anyway or degree. And indeed assign me with my own personal angel, and who gives me special favors because the fathers and mothers of the world forsaking me, along with the brothers and sisters thereof, for you have said, “when your father and mother forsake you, then the Lord will take you up.” Take advantage of my lonliness since it makes no competition for your jealosy to become inflamed against me, and as a “reward,” assign me a true and Godly spouse that cannot be denied or lost. Make me therefore reap special rewards and privalages for being a “lone stronghold” for the Lord’s sake, and not destroyed as those who thought their forsaking of me would accomplish damnation and poverty upon me, because in their eyes, I was not worthy to stand in their presence for not being holy and intellagent and able enough. Make all of your ways deny the wisdom of the world, and confound what is righteous to them, and while satan blesses them for their “illogical ideals” make your light and wind from heaven blow off that chaff of satanic power to strip them naked of any justification in the eyes of anyone who beholds them. Make only your image, the gospel, be preached, and exalted even above your son, for you alone put all things under the feet of Jesus, and are “external” to all things as omnipotent, and therefore “exempt” from being under anyone. Give us this true “discernment” which does not exersize our discernment to discern anyone or thing before you, and therefore to place all of our worship towards you, and “secondarilly worship” (place worth on) all other things according to how valuable they are in leading us unto you. Therefore make Jesus our first love, without whom your heart would not be open to even the holy angels. And as surely as your holy angels esteem Jesus for that great work of his on the cross, make them to also teach me to so value, love and adore Jesus for buying me back from the eternal and satanic “garbage compactor,” which is the clutches of satan. And give me the “head” of satan as my “pledge from you” that all he ever stole from me will be given back seven fold “at least” along with all the substance of his house, SINCE YOU HAVE “CAUGHT HIM IN MY BEHALF” IN THE RESURRECTION OF YOUR SON! 

Make me to be extremely and meticulously sober and careful in all my ways, except in what does not pertain to you, so I may have true moderation free from all hypocrasy and so I am not driven to any scandle to get relief from that which you do not ordain and approve because I would not seek it in the manner you as my physician prescribed. Make me to be very and severely studious in all that you give me to set my facalties and talents unto, and have a perfect “plan” in mind that drives me to accomplish quickly and thoroughly all I set out to do. Make my life always having a rich and satisfying sense of meaning and purpose, and make me to have a vast and dutiful sense of performing intercessory prayer for the world, both through free form spontanious prayer and form prayers prescribed as “invocations” by the holy men and women of God in the past. Deliver me from the “effects” of my conception and how I was raised and who I was influenced by, healing me from all the consequences of if my Dad was drunk when I was concieved and my mother on a “power trip” and “completely self serving” and utterly forgetful and denying of you. Make me to have that honor for my parents whether dead or living that will make my life “well and prosperous,” and eventually come to have a more selfless reason for it, knowing if my heart is not right with you, I will make mistakes in my performances. Deliver me from “drunkeness,” not just the kind we think of with alcohol, but from that lack of discipline and diligence that makes my past nothing but garbage strewn upon the highway of life, and all the fragments of it scattered in the wind. Make all my hand writing written with the spirit of prophecy, not just in “substance” but in the neatness of it’s form itself, and made according to the design of love, both for myself and for others “as for myself.” Make all your commandments to be very precious to me as the most subatomic and basic building blocks of the very Godhead of Jesus himself, and cause me to “become flesh anew” according to them, not as something I must do, but as what I must be. See to it that I keep a very organized and reverent journal of all my past sins, and intellagently catagorize them all according to “ommission and/or commission,” and then corrolate them all to the commandments, to see how they have failed, and to gain a sense of the wrath I deserve for it. But to also study expositions and chatachisms others have made on the commandments, but those who have been only “animated” by your divine breath.

And as you see these sins upon my heart and mind, as well as ink and computer language, saturate them in the sea of your grace, since I too must be inseparably included being made not just a sinner but sinful, and all my works have damaged and effected both you and others. Though only against you, or we could have no healing for our sins at all; since you must find our lostness a “loss” to you or you will do nothing about it, and so “seek not your own” for the purpose of “making it your own.” And in this sea of grace make up for all I ever did wrong or failed to do, even if it was simply through your lack of working your love in me, and cause all my sins and sinfulness to become reversed from their harmfulness, so that they become fully ministerial and beneficial unto you and all. So that you “forget my sins” by no longer counting them as sinful, even as Jesus was made sin for us, yet without sin, and is the remedy for the worst of all possible sinners. Yet do not let me use this saving grace as an excuse to pray for you to bless my ongoing sinfulness, but to rather diligently seek to understand what you want from me, and how you wish for me to perform in all things. And so lead me in everything “if” you do indeed count me as a “son of your’s,” and “if I be a man of your’s,” Father God, send your holy angels to continually minister to me and open every prison door for me in my life, but to close them upon all my enemies. For the sake of your final but ongoing work in the world, give me great privaleges such as you have given to your most choice prophets and people, and I promise under oath to not abuse your gifts, but use them for the good of all as you have intended in bestowing them. 

Let all proper judgments against me only make me repent all the more soundly and successfully and prosperously, with all the strength of your joy. And let all prayers of condemnation upon me make me trust all the more in God for my freedom. And finally make all my possessions which are ill gotten yet not stolen, be turned over to the service of your house to be sanctified and cleansed. But if there be anything I have stolen in a way which is against civil law, I must confess it to the state to be forgiven by God, and give them back to their owners. I do not want to sound like the pharasee saying “I thank you God that I am not like other men,” since the publican only who said “be merciful to me a sinner” was justified in the end! But yet surely the pharasee if he was scolarly in any way in Biblical teaching, surely would know that you, God, decide what evil will be in the city and which “swords” you will use to do it, though “woe to the man by whom it is done.” So while I ALSO want to add, “be merciful to me a sinner,” I also want to INCLUDE “I thank you God I have not murdered or committed accidental homocide, or stole from anyone, or assaulted anyone in aggrivasion or callculation.” I have had extremely small moments in my foolish teenage life where I have made rash “mistakes,” and commited immoral deeds of a “minor” nature, and all my “works” being “by God” had all his mercy over them, and so “contained them” with a merciful limitation. Yet if any reads this who has been a murderer or thief, or excessively immoral person, he or she must know, though God may forgive you, your civil punishment must remain, though even that under rare and extreme circumstances “could” be commuted. 

Before the gospel was preached, which preaching alone can “protect” mankind under the threat of execution to murderers, many of God’s people were very bloody men. Because the statement of God “that if any shed man’s blood by man shall his blood be shed” was not “in effect” but as a “promise” only until Jesus Christ’s blood was shed by satan, the strong bull of Bashan on the cross. PSALM 22. David “technically” murdered scores of cities of people in the most brutally merciless way, and yet he to this day is even “confessed” by the glorified Jesus as being “the root and offspring of David.” And even the “son of David,” but by human lineage only, because Moses did not choose a different “race” of people when God gave him the opportunity, but was a type of Christ for his interseccion and arguing for their ongoing status. NUMBERS 14; 12. Paul was said to have been a murderer, and finally beheaded to fulfill “all justice” in the end, and yet he was used by God to write a major part of what the “counsel of churches” have deemed fit to be included as “inspired by God enough.” Yet how should they know what is, since they denied God’s own breath by claiming that THE AGE of all inspired writings ended, and it takes inspiration to know that and also to identify what writing is inspired or not. So while they claim all inspiration ended, yet they can compile what they claim is a set of the only inspired books on the planet. That is like saying no one can see anymore, and then read and do what takes sight to do. How can you be a partaker of the heavenly nature if you can’t be animated by the spirit that nature needs to run? How can you study what takes the mind of Christ for your brain to learn anything about it rightly? Shall we turn knowing God into pure sensuality and think “carnal knowledge” of the “claimed history” of Jesus can save us? And how can our flesh ever find it interesting if it does not “quicken our mortal bodies?” Does God want learning and studying the word to be shear drudgery and self sacrificing living martyr dogma? Does not the word say “MAN” became a living soul? Then why would God want our soul to be turned over to the “dogs,” those outside the kingdom, and not place God first in all it’s “heart, soul, mind and strength?” Is our “SOUL” merely a “claim” we make which becomes “valid” when the churches agree with us on it? Or is our soul all that we are, and our bodies the “monitor” which shows our soul’s activity? 

But let it be by grace only at first before requiring the power to work in me, so though it is not “ideal,” it will be more than sufficient as a fulfillment of my prayer until I can grow to have all the necessary power in every needful way to work in me. Be my only creditor, buying me back from all worldly creditors, and be the only one I will ever be indebted to. Free me from all “Egyptian” curses, so that I can be free to serve you and you only. Make Jesus as the cash that buys even the fullness of God come all the way down to “descend” into the “hell” of my level of worldly debt and carnality, to be more really “backed by all the gold in the universe” and universally “honored and approved” than all the money in the world, or could ever be calculated. ROMANS 5; 10. Make Your kindness abound to me to such a gentle and gracious and pitiful degree, that even Jesus in his intercession is surprised you have extended your mercy so lovingly and seemingly so unconditionally to me. And make Lavera be truly my wife in all official status that could ever exist, even before we are tegether in the flesh, so even now we feel more like we are together than we could ever feel just in the flesh. Make me to love her even as you love me, so all your kindness and mercy and gentleness is channeled through me to her. Make your special powers for which my body is taylor designed for, dwell in me to such a degree of fulness it is beyond all calculation even by the mind of your own image, (who seeks your deep things to ever learn more about your omniscience,) and so heal and transform me to be of that nature in soul and body that functions according to that power and love you have made me to be a vessel of comparable only to a “bride.” And so therefore make my hair to grow back and be strong and beautiful, and my eyes become of perfect health, and strength, and my teeth push out their fillings, etc., and grow back in perfection, along with the restoration and then remaking into flesh all you designed me to be in the original creation of Genesis as an “individual soul” you have “chosen in Christ.” 

Make the face of Jesus now in his glorified form be a source of so much prosperity, even so far beyond what my soul could ever prosper, that all the money that could ever be calculated is in my most legally tending possession. And so give me that peace and assurance that my “cushion of comfort” in this life is of the uttmost priority and importance to you, and so make me feel like you are immeasurably more obsessed with all my needs and requests being absolutely and ever increasingly fulfilled than I could ever be in even my moments of greatest self centered selfishness! Make Jesus so real to me, and through me, and in me, and by me, that even those who deny any of his value must bow and bend and stoop to pay me with all manner of freedom and riches. Make the smallest portion of his presence in my life be potent enough to bestow upon me all peace and assurance of prosperity and wealth. And to see it that all materialize of these things is as scientifically “BOUND” TO OCCUR AS EVEN ANY TRULY “PHYSICALLY SOUND” SCIENTIFICIF EXPERIMENT MUST SUCCEED! AND ALL ACCORDING TO THE “OUTRAGEOUSLY GIGANTIC” REQUESTS OF THIS PRAYER! Make this “wealth” thereof be of a nature and consistency that I cannot imagine, or pray for, and which I have no way to expect or have anything to compare it to, being so vast and powerful, and something even the mind of Jehovah must strain to find words to seek his deepest self for. But also make all this wealth be of all the things we can pray for, both spiritual and material, and all used by your people in the best possible way to please you and fulfill your purpose of having meat in your storehouse.  

But now all I want is to be controlled by you, and deny my sinful nature that seeks satisfaction against the design of your only son’s mind. Give me a new start in life, but more patience for my sinful habits, because the problems of my life are so insurmountable, and all consuming and parasitical, that I cannot even think to deny my sins, without my whole sinful nature from which my sinful habits proceed, being entirely enflamed and exasperated by all the forces of hell which seem to pour from every molecule in the universe and from every faculty in every dimension. But I get nothing for all the service I give satan and his purpose for my many sins! Is there something in your mercy that could deal with me with such “kit gloves” that I would be most graciously inspired to adopt some way of life that would even please you,- yet be something I would see most beneficial and appealing to me also? But EVEN MORE desirably, I would rather you found some way by your faith to cast this “mountain” of evil into the sea of your grace, and give me a new start and new reign on life. But only Jesus was made to be sin, and yet also without sin; and so me being sin and also sinful, must find some way of being full of his holy wounds and his divine shape upon the cross, so when I am cast into the sea of grace, I am not spit out into suffering your eternal wrath. Since even if it was not me but my sins only, unless those sins are considered the wounds of Jesus, why would you forgive them? They are blots upon your holiness and damage done to your inestimable dignity and purity! I must see him upon the cross so I may be made like him while I am but a sinner, so I may also be made like him in his ressurection! Also, I would like all the riches satan owns, since it is now “children’s bread,” seeing you have conquered him in the resurrection. I think it would be glorious and beneficial to all the real people of God, if you could prosper me by making satan poor, (transferring and forfeiting all his wealth to me,) as well as making me to inherit all the wealth of your only son Jesus Christ. You would not have to worry that anyone would think I was worthy or that I made myself this way. Then you could have all the glory and say, “thus shall it be done unto he whom the Lord shall honor!” And those who deny you shall also fear, being able to imagine better what the oposite of that is. 

I know I should be willing to suffer anything for you, but being spoiled by the devils who have raised and hen pecked me to a spiritual and moral death all my life, I am too self coddling and licking of all my wounds, to be able to just do what I could decide to do that I know is right. But I am just too rebellious due to all the judgments of what I thought you should have done for me differently than casting me into a world which is basically just a “Den of vipers and blood suckers.” But “ironically,” this condition and attitude sucks my own blood INFINITELY times worse than any devil or evil power could ever do! My sins are my own worst enemies, and they are all signed over to me, as my own, whether I willfully did them or not! Time could be my best friend, seeing when the clock of my life stops, I could just “slide on in” to a glorious eternity. And all the sufferings of the world will not matter when that clock stops ticking, and my heart stops beating. But if I am found in sin, even the smallest sin will have my name signed to it, and all of eternity suffering in the lake of fire cannot pay for even that. So if the blood of Jesus does not cover me, nothing can erase and replace my acts I have done in sin, since nothing can erase your memory and what I have deserved for my sins. ONLY THE SEA OF GRACE CAN CREATE ME INTO SOMETHING THAT COVERS WHAT I WAS! YOU WILL FORGET THE DISTRESS I CAUSED YOU, THE STING OF SIN, BUT TO FORGET WHAT I WAS AND DID WILL ERASE YOUR GLORY AS HAVING SAVED ME OUT OF IT! Only Jesus who was made sin for me, yet without sin, can replace my sinful “stigma” with his “holy stigmata” of his wounds, and so make me to bear in my body all of his “marks.” Then make me to grow and develop according to this “holy pattern” and “live together with his dead body,” who forfeited his humanity to teach me how to become truly human.  

Give me those overwhelming blessings which constantly and super abundantly pour through me, which are all of your corresponding energies and healing health into my body, for which you made my body and soul and mind and every awareness, making me a vessel of your merciful pleasure and all manner of intercourse which you can possibly desire to have with me, and so I may not be a vessel wherein there is no pleasure. JEREMIAH 22; 28. 48; 38. HOSEA 8; 8. And I know you did not make me for myself, but your own use, and so I know being a limitless God, your use of me will not be limited either. Make me to prosper as my soul prospers, but with also adding a settlement for the suffering I have endured due to the abundance of sin in this world, since there is no evil but you did it. So put your fullest image in me, and radiate through me, using my whole soul and body for all manner of prayer and all “pictures” of prayer that you as my “master artist” have made me to be. Make us more effected by our pleasure than our pain, which causes an internal flow of new life that

continually, in one form or another, ejects from us in your exciting

and stimulating presence. Make the cause of this pleasure be the very

pleasure you had in making us to begin with, as an ongoing intercourse,

and so be the source of those new stem cells which recreate tissue

which those who are brutal and satanic have cut out and destroyed. Even myself, who in my sinful nature have been my own worst enemy. So

make us defeat satan by reversing what he has done, and make him to

repay what he has stolen seven fold, and forcing him to give up the

whole substance of all those blessings he inherited as a “previous”

holy angel, while making himself to suffer as he has caused us to

suffer. PROVERBS 6; 30 - 31.

Make your bodily image in us be fully able to

function through us separately and on your own despite our own failures of

goodness to apply the full power of your inter-coursing love to us, while

being fully possessed with all that “burning desire” which “smokes”

against our enemies, and most reproductive jealousy if we do not give you

that right that you have as owning all privilege over all your creation to

use all flesh as that which is designed to connect directly into your

very existence; seeing our bodies will be resurrected and remade into our

heavenly mansions. Which includes all we ever did and thought and

experienced, since what we own, including our very awareness, and general

existence, along with the sub conscious, are all extensions of our flesh,

and whose sorrow will be turned into joy. And along with the resurrection

of our rotting and/or destroyed corpse, include every skin cell or body

part we ever shed, so that not one “dust particle,” down to each molecule,

with all it’s parts will be lost. But make all to be restored, and

considered to be, (since we are the bride of Christ,) to be as important

and valuable as his own flesh, for we are members of his body, flesh and

bones; while the wicked will rather be lost in oblivion, than to have such

a thorough resurrection, only to be held up as examples of shame and

contempt eternally. And so make all we did, after being cleansed in the

blood of Jesus, to become as honorable as his very wounds, though at first

very sins which we most shamefully committed.

-----------------------  And supply my soul and body with all manner of

substance which you can use to minister to yourself with, and your

creation. Make your “sweetest life” be the life of all my flesh, and come

forth from the very “other side” of my soul where you are coming forth

into me more and more always. And with every prayer I make, make my heart

and soul bigger and more desirable for you to house in, no longer making

me a manger in which Jesus must eat what he could not stand to, but real

food he may fellowship with as a ministry to his own soul. Use me for the

“object” of all your powers, especially those qualities of your’s, for

which you specially designed all my functions you made me to have, in

order to house and interact with your specific inclinations you may have

towards a creature such as myself. And though I am sinful, bypass all of

my sinfulness, while also healing and smoothing it all over, in your

disease eradicating divine health. Look upon me as you would as if I were

holy, and see my sinfulness as an illness which you most graciously and

pitifully seek to cure in continual progressions. Make me a “plant” of

your’s whose fruit you continually harvest and consume, and therefore

making it all more and more pleasing to you in every way; and make the

effects of your harvesting the “fruit” you make me to have, in all it’s

innumerable forms, be so overwhelming and intensely sweet and pleasurous

and powerful, that it is more times greater than I can bear without your

love, than all the calculations there are in existence. And make it so

easy to harvest and consume all forms of my prayers, in their essence and

illustrations, that I may be like a “fountain” whose water never stops or

ceases to increase in splendor and might. And so make me so perfectly

beautiful and glorious to you, that I may produce every manner of fruit

you have designed me to produce and deliver to you, as my joyful

sacrifice, eternally, ever more and without ceasing!

----------------  Prosper me materially and spiritually therefore, to that

“acceptable degree” before my soul prospers accordingly, which is the work

and duty of your undeserved favor, and whose love “believes all things”

including my promise of better performances to do your will, and fulfull

all my vows, so that I may have that opportunuty to “increase” in being a

greater and better beauty and pleasure to you, as fulfilling the will of

your motherly image the gospel of Christ as the very reason of why you

made me to begin with, and not the vast and ultimate will of your

omnipotence that many will perish in everlasting pains of a molten rock

which cannot destroy those in it, making me to “function” in all my

faculties, in all “proper divisions” as a prism divides the light which is

poured into it.-- Make my very “bones,” both physically and spiritually

which is my “faith,” to contain the fulness of all your sweetness and

health and beauties for which I am designed by you in your mind, from

before the foundation of the world in Christ, to contain for the purpose

of discharging them frequently and massively unto you always in the first

place, as an eternally radiating prayer; both spiritually and physically

in the way you made my flesh to be  a picture of the higher “soul”

attributes. And make the fulfilling of this prayer be so quick and

powerful and supremely overwhelming, despite how little or slackly I pray

it, (though with a sincere effort that I do not pray it little or

slackly,) that it will be the very perfect personification of being

“fearfully and wonderfully made.” Make just the mere existence of this

prayer as something I pray once in a while, no matter how infrequently and

insuffuiently, but all the more if I do it often and diligently, be “MORE”

than enough reason to fulfill it with unrelenting and limitlessly greater

and increasing greed and obsession and force on your part, in a way which

is more elaborate and complete than anything even imaginable by your most

intelligent mind: which seeks continually to further learn the “deep

things of your omnipitent soul,” which you have done from everlasting

until now and ever shall. Since we are made in the image of that most

intellagent mind of God’s image, in which image our human minds are made,

who seeks his deep things, make us to also recieve the same benefits of

seeking God, as the very image of God, the gospel himself does! And so

glorify our humanity to be a picture of your image, who if it “knew all

things” as omniscience does, which covers an unifinitely unlimited

terrority, making all the unoverse in it’s whole vastness eternally so, no

matter how large it expands, less than a pick prick in size by comparison, you would not seek your deep things, nor could we who must be limited be

created, seeing we “had to” be made in that image also, who are designed

to seek God as a car is designed to drive or a heart is designed to beat.

Do this because your desire to have it done is so great, the smallest

possible “excuse” is more than sufficient to accomplish it with such

force, it will place me in eternal “shock” at the power of your love and

most selfish need for the fulness of all my being, to most thoroughly

receive the fulness of your lusts and substances. And make the

fulfillments of this prayer be so decisive by you, and so obvious, and

burn in me so explosively and powerfully, and in a manner which effects

the whole cosmos in a way so obvious and life changing to all around me,

all may know what pleases you the most, and what is the function for which

you made me to be for your own most treasured desires.

--------------------------- • Do not let me be deceived by the evil one,

who would make me think I must fulfill the functions and offices of those

who are called to those specific duties for which I was not designed or

talented to engage in, but make me to perform and fulfill that specific

duty and function for which you made me; so that I may show you the

ultimate kindness which is to be useful to you. And make me so accentuated

as this “classification,” that I may attract the most intimate and

passionate love and intercourse of all the holy angels, especially Jesus

himself! So make my nature and ability and powers to receive such

intercourse be so advanced and so increased with all manner of most

burning desire and supernatural strength, that I may be too overwhelming

for anyone to even be able to imagine no matter how intelligent, including

Jehovah himself. And let this be because I am a “gift” from the deepest

depths of omnipotence itself, unto each member of God’s kingdom: which has

nothing to do with my own degree of holiness, or for my sake, but the sake

of the whole kingdom as being “one” in the perfect unity of the true

trinity. Which is to be of use as the “bride” of Christ, and fully

compatible therefore with Jesus as my husband. Use this prayer as the

channel and means by which you may keep me growing in these qualities and

powers and conditions for which I pray, and to never become ever again

“drained” of these qualities and attributes, or to lack in receiving them,

but to have greater and greater wisdom and knowledge in how to pray for

them. Rebuke satan from the manifestation of our image as the “facets”

your image in us needs to shine forth unto all, and give us the knowledge

of how you intend to design us and what our behavior and functions ought

to be. So in our interaction with you and one another, teach us how to

have a heart as big as your heart’s desire to give to us all these things

in their fullest glory. For without a destination of your gifts, all the

desire to give in the universe will do you no good; so that no one can

receive a gift, if they are not simultaneously giving the “gift of

receiving,” which requires as much love and mercy as the giver. Though it

be all for the sake of the “ultimate giver:” who is God.

-----And make the effects of this prayer without limit, in that it will be

performed by you without consideration to the relation of my limited size

and abilities, to your unlimited size and abilities, and so make no

number, no matter how great, describe the degree of intensity and forms of

energy which you cause to “burn” within me, in all exhilaration and

electrical stimulation and personalities; through all the “media” of your

heavenly throne room. Make all which I do, whether it be reading or

praying in all manner of intercession, or serving one another, regardless

of how much my mind is directed to those duties to which I am called,

nevertheless increase the effects and manifestations and communications of

this prayer unto you. In that you will sanctify all of my possessions and

duties as channels to your working these benefits in and through me for

which I pray, and to do it for your sake, so that regardless of whether I

want them or not, you will see to it that they are done for your own

name’s sake. So make it clear what exactly it is I am being made for, so I

may not only be of use to you, but have the peace and tranquility and

ultimate satisfaction of knowing and understanding exactly what my use is;

so your desire to show love for my own comfort may also be fulfilled. And

at any point in your working your will in me, do not let me become

discouraged or weakened in faith, or complaining due to lacking personal

fulfillments, but to stand strong, and continue all the more fulfilling

your will. And reveal your will also as I go along throughout the

experiences you give me, so I may know what your thoughts are, and so

satan or any other being cannot intercept your mind towards me. And so I

may most perfectly beg and cry unto you for the success of your will in

me.

-------------------------------   Seeing that my lusts and personal needs

and desires are not compatible with your limitless lusts and personal

needs and desires, only due to sin since you may me, (before I was

concieved in sin) towards you as a wife is to her husband, make me

obedient to you in praying for these things, that is, “to have that glory

I had with you from before the foundation of the world as the restoring of

my original joy I have never known in this life,” as the means by which

you may do and fulfill them all in me, and so therefore do not let me be

subject to the “fluttery whims” of my own sinful and/or limited nature as

a “creature,” no matter how good they are “of themselves,” so I may

“snactify my creature self by the word of God and prayers.” And use all

the images of humanity I have witnessed and imagined, no matter how

diseased with sin and unrighteousness, through the cleansing virtue of

your blood which Jesus shed upon the cross, as channels through which you

may reveal your image to me with using them to causing an increase in

“life quality” in me, regardless of their own intentions for their sinful

deeds, and through me all the way to the sight and recognition of sinners

whose blindless is in a darkness so great they would feel it if they also

had spiritual sense, greater than can ever be described or explained to

yourself, by your image being a prism of all your “blood” which is your

unlimited holy spirit, using each image of humanity real or imagined, as

though it is both worthy of your love and really existing, as being

“called by you as things which be not as though they are.” And so make all

my mind’s images be mirrors of your thoughts which “framed the worlds,” as

you made all things by your word, who is my head, and therefore mind, so

that trees may grow where there is desolations and waters may flow in the

deserts and I may be that channel through which Jesus in his glorified

form may do those “greater works” through than he did in his earthly

minisry.

----------------------- And so therefore cause my affections to be fully

felt by you, and your’s by me also through the condescending grace of the

image of Jesus Christ’s crucified body, broken for us as the “earth

without form and void,” down to the most carnal human, regardless of how

contaminated with sin they are, or disobedient and deviant they are to

you. And so make the brokeness of Jesus be that “only acceptable kind of

sin MADE SO FOR US WITHOUT SIN,” in order to replace our own sinfulness as

that “SORROW WHICH NEEDS NOT BE REPENTED OF,” so from this proper level of

humiliation for our diseased condition as sinners, which only the

crucified Jesus forsaken of his father who is his blood shed for us can

supply to us as his “riches in glory,” we may have that bedrock of faith

from which we can be raised from and sink no more into a deeper hell of

sin, and upon which the gates of hell cannot prevail against. And so send

your resurrecting power into me, fully putting all of my sinfulness into

“remission,” as a disease which gradually heals, no longer backsliding

into further corruption, and is no longer in need of quarantine from

fellowship and communion with your holy people, while planting your seeds

of faith in me, out of which grows my new man from the compost pile of

sin: to make me a tree of faith, whose largness of heart, makes full

accomodation and room for all the birds of the sky to come and lodge in my

branches. And make full use of all of my “expressions” designing them to

be all fulfilled in a way which you consider to be most adorable and

appealing to you; in manner, frequency and intensity. So make me worthy to

be called “your jewel,” whose food and drink to be the substance of my

whole soul and body, is that most precious body and blood of Jesus, and so

make the power you pour into me have an effect greater and more abundant

than what you could possibly know and expect, because of the omnipotence

of God whose limitless abilities has no bounds nor hindrances, who desires

that his image have something in us, which he has not found in himself, so

we may not be “superfluous and reduntant” to have created. And so make the

parable of calling the church “the bride of Christ” be fulfilled in me and

all your church, which teaches us that as a man finds his wife so much

more beautiful than his father or as his father finds his son’s wife so

much more beautuful than himself, so make us your church, something you

find as more beautiful than you would have ever found in yourself, though

it is from yourself who is the source of all things. And not because we

are worthy or are this of ourselves, but because of the “law of Paul,”

that “unto that part which lacks do we bestow the more abundant

comeliness.” And who can lack more than we who were shaped according to

the sinful corription of our DNA by our original father the devil, who

“spoke his deep things to us” since his influence entered the world? And

so do not let me forsake and sell my birthright to this ultamate and

unspeakable glory, by my failure to confess Psalm 51 that I was shaped by

you in sin, so that you may in your supreme justice sue your own self in

our behalf for making us so, (for there is no evil in the city but you did

it, Amos 3; 6,) and awarding us this “penticoistal mighty rushing

windfall” of making is the “windows” of such a great salvation. And so

make me only and exclusively subject to your “advances” you continually

make upon me, (making all others find my spiritual and physical muscles

too steel like to move, since when we see sin rightly it is the most heavy

burden to us that can ever exist, making all other problems seem like

fluttery and fleeting shadows,) in your relentless calling of me to attend

unto your face and fullest glory, and to become ever more exactly what

most greatly pleases you, while your will for me is that I be saved and

come to the knowledge of the truth. And make my viewing of your face be

with the pleasure of an endless and ever more intensifying and elaborating

“kiss,” pouring all of your sweetest love and pleasures into my soul

eternally; also through full contact with all of your bodily

characteristics and facilities.

------------  And so make me also perform and function in a manner worthy

and compatible with your limitless dignity and sovereign royalty, and so

do not “spare” for all my reactions and struggles which may be the result

of them in me, but make me to only behave and operate as one fully

consistent with your most sublime beauties and manifestations of all of

your omnipotent excellencies. And adorn my human image with the fulness of

your “manifested image,” making me to feel the powers that occur as a

result of such a supremely divine “clothing;” which makes all other

clothing seem non existent by virtue of the supremely overwhelming nature

of the light and image which consist your gospel image. Seeing that if it

is all through your love for me that you do these things, and received by

me as one whom you have made to love you, the overwhelming nature of these

blessings, cannot be anything but pleasures and enjoyments and limitless

satisfactions to me. As your uncontrollable “filling” of all things, also

intermingles the substance of all my affections with the substance of all

of your body’s and your kingdom’s most affectionate prayers: with all the

“images” of those prayers along with their “messages” you illustrate

throughout your creation.

------------------ And do all this decisively and quickly, as nothing

lukewarm, so that this prayer may be as the water which you licked up at

the prayer of Elijah: 1 KINGS 18; 38, making it clear what your will is

regarding all these things. So that I may have a “direct channel” to

receive these things, unhindered by any lack of faith or sinfulness, or

any other things which would result in the fullest answers to this prayer

being postponed to any degree. Even if it is all in your end of the

spectrum, in how you are now arranging for the full victory of your

“miltant” church in the earth, as it is “triumphant” in heaven; and so

have for whatever reason delayed the promotion of your kingdom in this

earth, since you can at anytime refuse to bow down to the failures of

those you have put in charge over your kingdom in the earth. So make me

now become fully militant with your armor, Jesus Christ, who is my head

and helmet of salvation, and teach me how to wage war against satan and

his kingdom perfectly and most devastatingly to him; causing me to finally

be able to fully control without failure of any kind, all that I consume

and do, so that my body and all my possessions may be perfectly maintained

by you, and successfully turned into all that most greatly pleases you,

made from the very image of faith itself, which is your voice proceeding

from the mouth of your image the gospel, the “only good news,” since you

alone are good, being in perfect contact with my Godhead, the holy spirit:

the voice of Jesus Christ, as many waters by which spirit I am both born

again and developed from spiritual infancfy in that limitless well of the

water of life. And therefore make me an example to the whole cosmos of

humans who shall yet be born, PSALM 22; 31, what kind of vessel they ought

to be for your service, and upon what “lines” to pray, and what things to

pray for. So sanctify and arrange and develop this prayer as a fit tool

and instrument to be used by your holiest and most beloved people who can

ever exist; so they also may more perfectly elaborate on it eternally by

that inspiration which is the “light in which they may see light.”  For

without you, who is both light and love no man has nor can see you neither

love you, no, not his brother whom he can see by carnal means. So by your

ultimage will for your elect, make all things work together for our good,

by making us to love you as you love yourself, and to love us as you love

your only son which ever proceeded direcly from you. Unto whom alone you

can say, “this is my son, and this (eternal) day (from before the

foundation of the world) I have begotten you:” who is the “day” star, or

that is, morning star, and “sun” of righteousness, whose wings of prayer

manifest healing vurtue through us, unto all who so much as touch the hem

of our souls by faith, though we be thronged by the whole world’s

pressures and tribulations. Of which we are all his sons, and he our

everlasting father.

But I would rather feel like someone cared about me, than have a rich man like God say “be you warmed and filled with my mercy and love” when it is like having a billionaire for a close buddy but never getting one penny from him. So what if he loves me? I could understand if, even though he does nothing himself, I myself would do nothing too. But I have a burden for souls, and I want to preach to the masses, who have never even thought about the fact that there is only hypocrite churches, and never thought maybe Christianity could be “for real.” How can I be comforted by someone who might give me a happy pill and another pacifer and say, “go suck yourself to another state of blissful ignorance!?” That is all I ever got from God my whole life, which the “dud effect” of this book testifies. How can I NOT judge God to be a hypocrite, when he would rather give trillions of dollars to frauds and criminals and scammers than to give his one or few “real” ones enough money just to go out and preach and minister? Shall they all die and go to hell because I am still a baby and had to be chastened with these “chains of poverty?” I am sure they will say going to hell was okay and waiting to get thrown into the lake of fire will be nothing but “worthwhile” since they had to perish just so Joe Bonnette could be taught his lessons by remaining in lonliness and poverty. 

How would my style of writing change if I had the benefit of a real wife who loved me, and I could spend my days ministering to the people? My element of just trying to create a “cola formula” that might sell would evolve into searching deeper for truth, and getting words with more “impact” than “intellect.” And I cannot help but to think God speaks of “love and grace” about himself, just because it is more glorious than saying, “I am a stingy and unjust God.” And like the ULTIMATE LAWYER, he can “MANIPULATE” his words in the end, and put any blaim on anyone he wants JUST TO JUSTIFY HIMSELF. And if Jesus dying for our sins ACTUALLY INCLUDED HIM MAKING A WAY FOR US TO BE SAVED FROM OUR SINS, NAMELY MAKING SURE THERE WERE REAL CHRISTIAN CHURCHES IN THE WORLD, or else hang on the cross forever, SOMETIMES I HONESTLY THINK NO ONE WOULD HAVE HAD ENOUGH COMPASSION ON HIM TO RELIEVE HIM OF HIS ORDEAL BY “GETTING REAL WITH GOD” BUT ME. And yet I am the one he dumps on all day with lonliness and poverty and sorrow and grief. He says, “see how much I love you? Since I chasten and rebuke you so much?” Here this book ends, and if nothing changes by the time I finish going through this book to get it ready for publishing, I will add no happy ending to this. You will know my faith soured into a bitter and “vengeful” attitude praying for God to punish himself, (since I think he deserves it,) and know I am not letting God off the hook by declaring him to have the right to do “anything he wants because he is God.” If I could have ONE FRIEND and I were covered in boils FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, I would not pray this way AT ALL, but “let God be God.” What I have to go through is completely OFF THE SCALES of any catagory of the “plite of the righteous.” I am going through this because THE WHOLE WORLD HAS UNANIMOUSLY DENIED GOD, AND I AM LEFT ALONE TO HOLD THIS WORLD UP, AND IF IT WERE NOT FOR ME, GOD WOULD DESTROY IT, SINCE HE ONLY KEEPS IT IN EXISTENCE FOR HIS ELECT’S SAKE!!! And where are those “ten thousand who have not bowed to Baal?” If you think I am so arrogant and delusional, what will it take for you to actually ACT LIKE A CHRISTIAN AND TALK TO ME, instead of fleeing because “he’s trying to understand the Bible!!” IF GOD WILL NOT VALUE THE TRUTH, I WILL PLACE MYSELF ABOVE HIM AND VALUE IT, saying, “God if you require us to love with actions and keep our word, then should not the God of all truth do it?” Will a compassionate sinner be more righteous than God? Is all the words of Jesus worthless, since he said “if you being evil know how to give good gifts, shall not your father in heaven?” What deal did that “precious baby” satan make with God to get him to forsake his word and leave the world to it’s “own devices?” IS SATAN BETTER AT “INTERCEDING FOR OR AGAINST US” THAN JESUS????? This is the end of the world, which ends not in the sound of “growling demons” but with the sound of “I love you.” With the sound of “big messy smooching kisses” which mask the fact that underneith it is nothing but the “abomination of all desolation towards God and truth.” My misery is greater than I can bear, and all my many words are nothing but “empty placebos” which I can hardly even take anymore because they do not even act as a “broken potshurd” to scrape my “boil covered” soul with anymore. All the Bible seems like a big lie to me, yet I still feel I must defend it, since “where else shall I go?” Shall I run with the packs who are happy to chuck the Bible in the trash to exalt every “new visionary” that comes along? What can they offer but narrow mindedness and contentedness to remain embracing their big “wonderful selves?” I learned to hate myself long ago because everyone taught me to, and now they are like saying “love yourself!” All satan did in his treatment of me was force me to pray to God and seek to become a “new person” even before I heard about that concept in the Bible. I was already saying, “I don’t want to be me anymore.” But to be honest, I think I will remain angry at God forever, and I don’t think my love for him will ever mean anything more than for the truth, since I detach truth from God. To me truth is something that has to “materialize” beyond a mere concept, and since God does not materialize anything he promises, but uses all his loop holes of “youv’e been bad” to justify his lack of fulfilling it, I see no choice but to detach the two. If all I wanted to was to live to myself, and drag all he gave me off to my “den” like a common “low life critter,” THEN I WOULD SAY “GOOD FOR YOU GOD! WAY TO GO!” But when all I want is to be like Jesus and give my life as a “ransom for many,” I think I should get a little “mandatory compassion” from God, so he can reach those people who, UNLIKE ME, don’t deserve being forsaken forever. I don’t see anyone else doing it, or I myself would have never been in this “tight corner” of struggling with such vicious and hateful depression towards me. WHAT GOOD DO ALL THOSE HARLOT CHURCHES AND PIMPING TV EVANGELISTS DO BUT MAKE MONEY FOR THEMSELVES BY MAKING MERCHANDISE OF THE CHURCH AS AN “INDUSTRY?” There is never a moment I do not have to struggle and groan under heavy and vast depression, and if I had to be perfect before I found a real church, and be welcomed to their universal and open society, AND NOT JUST AT THE “DOOR” AND LEFT TO FREEZE AND STARVE IN LONLINESS THE REST OF THE WEEK, then if I ever manage to build a church, I SHOULD DO THE SAME TO EVERYONE TOO!!! No! Don’t woo or compell anyone, just stand there like a “smug loser” letting that stinking world go to hell! That would be the kind of minister the Bible paints of Paul and Jesus and all the prophets ISN’T IT? Maybe for Elijah, since he would just rather burn sinners alive than touch them, but for the most part, there is words of compassion and patience and mercy for sinners. And if one small part, ANY PART TAKEN AT RANDOM, like “comfort the feeble minded, support the weak” WOULD BE TAKEN FROM THE BIBLE, AND WRITTEN DOWN, AND THEN GO ON A WORLD WIDE MASS BIBLE BURNING AND BIBLE OUTLAWING “CRUSADE” but fulfill those few portions, THIS WORLD WOULD BE LIKE A PARADISE DESPITE ALL THE “BIBLE THUMPERS” IN THE WORLD TODAY!!! In the days of slavery, FOR MANY IF NOT MOST, THE KJV BIBLE WAS THEIR ONLY BOOK ANY FAMILY HAD! And yet, lo and behold, in NUMBERS 12 God makes it CLEAR he is against racism, and outlawing interracial marriage! SO THEY ALL GET AN “F-” ON KNOWING WHAT THEIR “ONLY TEXT BOOK” SAID!!!!!!! ALL WHILE THEY ACT LIKE THEY ARE SO RIGHTEOUS AND SUPERIOR!! If our Olymics were like our Christians, there would be a bunch of fat and lazy slobs sitting around, while the narrator has to tell everyone “WOW HE’S REALLY GOING FAST NOW!” And make up stories, like we are all so dumb we can’t see he is doing nothing. But for a world who is BLIND AND DEAD IN SIN why not make up your own narrations, WHO WILL KNOW THE DIFFERENCE? Even if they can SEE you are lying, THEY GOT NO “REAL ONE” TO COMPARE IT TO!!!! All they got to do IF ANYONE SAYS THE EMPORER IS NAKED, is treat people like they treat me, and try to make me think it is because I am just an “apostate or heretic,” and burn me on the “Stake” of their “LOVELESS WAYS.” But who wants to be an outsider and not be in on the “the spirit of the times?” The fasion of this world passes away, but that fasion REPRESENTS BEING “ACCEPTED.” Maybe when God looks down from heaven, he says, “I see no man, I feel no one touching me, I hear no one praying, I SEE NO ONE READING THE BIBLE,” just as it was with Jesus when he was being THRONGED with the masses of people, and PRESSED UPON LIKE HE WAS BEING CRUSHED, but he did not feel anything UNTIL A WOMAN WITH FAITH TOUCHED THE HEM OF HIS GARMENT. 

I will end this here, but you will say, “if you think we are all so evil, and God is so dead,” then aren’t you afraid of the consequences of sharing your “insightful thoughts” with those who could care less? I answer with the obvious, I don’t pretend to be perfect, and all knowing, though I speak as if I do, but only because these are the thoughts that get me through my useless life, and give me strength. I judge all things by the effect it has on me to get me through to hope for a better time and circumstances. Unfortunately I am not at the place where I judge things by how true they are in the first place. Like I said, I am making a “cola formula,” not a real health food drink. That is not to say I would not do the best thing if things changed in my life. As to am I not afraid of what the world will do? It is true I do not wish to just throw my life away, because I value it, and believe I need to be saved and fear being lost. And here is the “but:” “but” because things are so dire for me, and I am so depressed and disatisfied with life, it is like I don’t care. I have the philosophy that just tell the truth since there is no other option, even if you got to do it in an embarrassing way or in a way that exposes your ignorance and sin. AND AS THEY SAY, “ANY EXPOSURE CAN DO NOTHING BUT ADVANCE YOU!” JUST LOOK AT THE POLITICIANS WHO GO AROUND ADVERTISING THEMSELVES WHO HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER, AND YET THEY ADVANCE!!! I would be ASHAMED if I were the govenor of a state, and THERE WAS ONE HOMELESS PERSON ANYWHERE EVEN FOR A NIGHT!! To me, that would say, “WHY DID WE ELECT YOU??? YOU CAN’T FIGURE OUT HOW TO HELP THESE PEOPLE AND YOU GOT THE WHOLE STATE GOVERNMENT AT YOUR FINGETIPS???” There is something wrong if there is a CLOSET SPACE anywhere, and someone has to sleep outside, and I know we got giant empty warehouses and everything. WHY ELSE IS GOD SHUTTING DOWN OUR ECONOMY? BECAUSE THE ECONOMY ISN’T WORKING (for God’s purposes) STUPID! Maybe when we remember that nature does not have a slot for coins in every tree, or “armed police animals” standing by every bush, we could stand to be a little more like nature too and let our stomachs have the benefit of NOT HAVING TO VOMIT MONEY before it can eat! Do our stomachs need a lawyer that pays the court for food just to justify it eating and digesting food LIKE OUR BODILY SYSTEMS ARE SOMEHOW “CRIMINAL” IN NATURE? Maybe if we were sinless we would all be disembodied spirits, and flesh was something that happened by satan making us sin. Curse and separate our souls and bodies called “death and dying,” but our bodies were there in a far GREATER WAY before the fall. There is something wrong when the homeless sleep on the door steps of a big empty church, and the people inside all ACT STUPID, saying “what can we do?” Maybe they should go take a college course on what doors are for, and then when they get their degree in “doors” they might figure out the same door they walk through JUST “MIGHT” work for that homless person too! We are so technocally advanced, we are mind numbingly stupid about the most basic stuff aparently. We might as well call an ambulence everytime we need to go to bed at night, forgetting the remedy we learned the night before, “JUST LAY ON THAT BED OVER THERE UNTIL YOU FORGET YOU ARE AWAKE BECAUSE YOU HAVE DRIFTED OFF INTO SLEEPY LAND.” After all, we forget to give a good night’s rest to everyone else, WHY NOT OURSELVES TOO? Yet these politicians, whose policy is to “always lie,” FEEL NO SHAME FOR ENDLESS POVERTY AND HOMELESSNESS!!! Some politicians are easy to laugh at, because their lies ARE SO OBVIOUS, even liberal comedians pick up on it. They are just a ball of snow with other snow stuck to them. The snow ball effect must work for everything. But if you GOT TO go up hill, how do you get there, since snow will not roll up hill? If this does not expose total depravity and utter helplessness, I don’t know what does! I think I have a lot of pent up rage and hate in me for being treated like a plauge all my life, and maybe if I were different I would deal with it by being a criminal or something. But I am intellectual and I actually worked on doing things just with my mind in school, even to create the effects of a poltergist, but it did not work. So I examined by calm contemplation what the remedy for my ordeals should be, and how should “repay” others. To respond “immediately” to me seemed like spending money in a “random” way as soon as it reaches your hand. If I had been like many others, I would think I am so righteous, that I can go to heaven by blowing myself up around other people. But my “Animal type” may be more like a snake or cat or something, which if they want revenge, they do it in a way no one will suspect. I think a lot of what moves me to write is wanting revenge on the world, and in my “thinking and reasoning” I decided the best way is to tell them “the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God.” The pen is mightier than the sword, even the “GREAT SWORD” of the second horse man, red with blood, which “sword” is the atomic and hydrogen bomb. To kill one another is “symultaniously assured destruction” and that only happens with nuclear bombs.  Other wars are “kill or be killed” not kill AND be killed. So Nuclear war is a form of suicide bombing ONLY ON A SUPER MASSIVE SCALE. But in this age of “wimpy God loves you just as you are and you don’t need Jesus” garbage the churches are spewing out everywhere, nations are like cockroaches hiding under the rocks of delusion because they never have been exterminated or “controled” by the poisonous fumes of true conviction. And when the church does not convince the world of it’s sins and sinfulness, YOU ARE CREATING A SUPER “COCKROACH” RACE WHOSE “WORD” SELF IS THE LIES OF SATAN WHO TELLS THEM THE MORE PEOPLE THEY CAN “TAKE OUT WITH THEM,” THE GREATER THEIR REWARD IN PARADISE WILL BE!! The United States with all her Bibles should have been ONE MASSIVE PREACHING MACHENE TO THE WHOLE WIFE WORLD, AND INVADED NATIONS WITH THE WORD before they ever EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT going to war with anyone. To fight an “enemy” who you do not know WOULD BE YOUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST had you just reached out to them with the gospel, is like blowing up a skyscaper for demolition BEFORE YOU TELL ANYONE TO LEAVE!!!! You might say “but everyone is not going to repent,” which is true, but it will cripple their willingness to die for their “cause” and those who do repent will be more willing to aid and cooperate in the effort as long as they see it is for a just cause. Our impersonal attitude toward our neighor is what started our retaliation against the Japanese in an UNJUST WAY, by sending all Americanized Japanese to a concentration camp, and ended it in an UNJUST WAY by incinerating them in the blast of 2 atomic bombs. I am often wondering WHEN “what went around is going to come around,” AND GOD DOES NOT SEEM TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WHO “DID IT” AND WHO THEIR “DESCENDENTS” ARE. We better cleanse ourselves from our “inherited and naturalized” blood line now before it is too late: BEFORE IT BECOMES THE FUSE OF DYNOMITE ATTACHED TO ALL OUR PREVIOUS EVILS “AS A NATION” AND WHAT WE DESERVE FOR THEM ACCORDING TO DIVINE JUSTICE. None of us can say we are individuals, and even the pledge of allegiance says all under that flag are INDIVISABLE whether you think you are under God or not. If you disown the flag, you cannot have it disown you unless you leave the country and debrief yourself as a citizen. This should tell us also how wicked we have been for treating our land and nation as separate, from the way we treated those Indians in our nation and those we kidnapped and enslaved to bring here. Our land was big enough to carry a million times more people, EVEN TODAY, and we could stop growing all food and harvesting the rescourses of the earth, and all live on SPIROLINA, which we can grow in our own rooms of our houses, or on small farms, and feed the world for almost no effort even if we were TRILLIONS OF PEOPLE. Plus one small jar of spirolina has more nutrition in it than a whole truck full of fresh vegetables. If it is a good grade, it has no bad taste whatsoever, and can be even drunk all day like juice or pop. Also, I read the sun shines enough energy to the earth every hour to supply the whole planet with energy for a whole year, and yet we think we have to suck the earth dry of her “black blood” like a bunch of vampires. When all we can see is the life we can steal from others, and refuse to look at the sun of all healing and giving, we are truly like satan the dragon. We could put wind turbines on our cars, and all kinds of things, including solar panels fed with light from powerful magnifying glasses, and yet we just think about how the poor rich people will have to go cold turkey on getting fatter and destroying the earth faster and better. OUR WHOLE MONETARY SYSTEM IS BASED ON “SCRATCHING THE BACK OF THE NEXT FAT CAT” SO HE MAY SCRATCH YOU WITH THE BENEFIT OF MAKING SURE THE MONEY STAYS ON TOP OF THE “GREED CHAIN.” But when money like blood is not properly and evenly “CIRCULATED” it dies, and so loses value, just like our blood does if we do not exersize it. We have GIGANTIC and COAGULATING “blood money pools” LIKE “DEAD ZONES” all over the place, which is doing nothing but BUYING bigger and better “pillows of ease and oblivion” for a few cursed people to have a “softer, kinder and gentler” trip to hell with. And so the less ruckus they hear outside their “vault like world” of THE TRUTH OF GOD’S WRATH, the better they like it, and so try to stamp out any true spreading of the word of God. Good thing the sacrifice of Jesus is the “INFINITE DOLLAR SIGN” whose value knows no end or estimation, or their “satanically anointed” money would buy that “perfect peace” for them, and end our hope of any real and lasting peace. If the government was for the people, it would not be “ONLY” for those the people elect anymore; BUT WHO WILL ELECT THE PEOPLE? The leaders should “IN TURN” ELECT THE PEOPLE BY DOING A JOB WORTHY OF THEIR OFFICES!! Maybe that is what God is for; I think “OMNIPOTENCE” wins out over “POPULATION” in any election, even “eternal elections” of his own people. Why give them the “constant massage” of all that power soothing them into such an easy life style of looking important? They do nothing for us, but consume most of what should go to us. Everytime we hear about the tiniest medical need of an elected leader who got “royal red carpet service,” it is like if a father’s meal is broadcasted to his starving children down to every “SUCCULENT DETAIL!!” Should’nt our leaders be trying to get those same benefits they enjoy for us?? And how do some nations who do not let parents have more than one baby end up being the most POPULOUS of all nations? Maybe the LEADERS are having some sex behind the scenes or something, WHO KNOWS? We also have so many “run a away run amok” departments in our government, that maybe there is an “office of self election.” And I think, if I am not going too crazy, heard something like the president signs some document that lets area 51 do ANYTHING IT WANTS AND NO HOLDS BARRED. Even though ironically the president has to NEED TO KNOW what is going on there before they have or feel any obligation to let him in on it. AND WHO ELECTED AREA 51? THE DEMONIC ALIENS? AND WHO ELECTED THE DEMONS POSING AS ALIENS? The church let them have that position simply by “DEFAULT” of not voting for God in their daily prayers and preaching to the world. I know most nations who do not have enough babies actually start dying out, but I was never too good at math. And usually the babies they kill are the girls, and keep the sons for the family name. So much for feeding the vocanoe of selfishness the virgins of wealth, who cannot have anything until the wealth of the sinner is GIVEN to the just, not just LAID UP FOR THEM!!! 

You do not have symultanious destruction with anything else BUT NUCLEAR AND HYDROGEN AND “LIKE” KINDS OF “SUPER” WEAPONS OF “MASS” AND “MASSIVE” DESTRUCTION. One nation cannot enialate another nation before it knows they are doing it, and even if it could be, no nation can fully cripple another nation before it can respond with AN EQUAL OR GREATER FORM OF RETALIATION. To quote the revelation verses everyday is a guarantee God has a person in whom to fulfill it, and that always means “fulfill what WILL OCCUR ANYWAYS, BUT IN A FAR LESS HARMFUL WAY.” BECAUSE if God has someone to fulfill revelation IN, he can control it and bring the best out of it. The Bible is like ELECTRICITY OR SOLAR ENERGY OR WIND::: SURE, IT IS THERE NO MATTER WHAT, but if it has “channels” to flow into, it can be uttilized for the good of people and not just be wasted or else harm them. There is an end time scenerio in which Jesus asks, “when I return, will I find faith on earth.” Surely he knows faith is EVERYWHERE, since he as the word was in paradise, even as he hung on the cross and descended into hell, BUT HE MEANS “IN HIS PEOPLE.” And is there no difference if the church partakes in the promises and does her job or not? HOW FRIVOLOUS AND TRITE GOD WOULD BE TO MAKE US AND SEND HIS SON TO DIE FOR US THEN!!!?? Is election something which we have no part in? Can we just all try to kill ourselves, since “if we succeed it means God elected it to happen?” How can we then say preaching is useless, since if God elects anyone to be saved, he will do it with or without our preaching, or effort of anykind? Why not say the same thing when it comes to sex? And then when our desire for anything is gone, since after all, “God is all in all,” we are useless, or that is “UNKIND,” since PROVERBS 19; 22 says “the desire of a man is his kindness.” AND TO BE KIND MEANS TO BE “USEFUL” BOTH TO GOD AND MAN. Our desire therefore is the worm which dies not, and is the very definition of “Soul.” We cannot lose our soul since WE ARE SOUL, but we can lose touch with those most healthy desires a soul should have and lose our “belonging” to God. AND WHAT USE DOES ANYONE HAVE TO ANYONE IF OUR DESIRE IS NOT THERE? As soon as the whip is stopped being cracked, and the boss leaves, the tools are put down and the workers quit. AND UNTO WHOM ARE OUR DESIRES MORE DEVELOPED AND STRONGER AND MORE DRIVING? UNTO GOD, AND HIS PEOPLE, OR UNTO SELF AND THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD? He who TRULY loves the world, (not falsely so; 1 JOHN 2; 15,)  LOVES GOD, since if you do not warn the world, the blood of the world is on your head and mind like a stain more potent than any sin could ever be! WARNING THE WICKED SHOULD BE THE MAIN OBJECTIVE OF ANY TRUE CHILD OF GOD!! God cannot bless and save all his elect as he wishes or reward the wicked as he wishes if the sayings of his word are sealed. Preaching them WIDENS THE GAP, THE GREAT GULF FIXED, between the unjust and filthy and righteous and holy. LUKEWARMNESS IS A SIGN THAT THE ANGEL OF THAT CHURCH IS NOT DOING HIS JOB OF STIRRING UP THE FAITH OF THE PEOPLE “WAY OF REMEMBRANCE,” WHICH IS THE JOB OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. The promises of the Bible likewise need the corporate vessel of the church to be fulfilled in, or else they will be wasted and their power will be turned into wrath against us. Elijah, the generic name of the church, and it’s members will turn the heart of the children to their fathers and their father’s to the children, OR ELSE GOD SMITES THE EARTH WITH A CURSE. Jesus exists true, and no matter what, but he who believes not, the wrath of God abides on him, when if the same power was in him, it would be his son Jesus. The curses of revelation will be poured out far worse than the book EVER DEPICTS, if there is only everyone adding or taking from the book, by never preaching it so others might hear it too. And if I can publish this, and I get only rejection and ridicule, God has made his “verdict,” and he will abandon the patience he had on us only because of our ignorance as he did on Ninevah. 

WHY THE TRUTH? WHAT WILL THAT DO? That is the only way to get rewarded by God for being a “terrorist” since what is more “TERRIFYING” than the truth? And if you “WARN THE WICKED” and they do not repent, GOD WILL PUNISH THEM IN HELL INFINITELY TIMES MORE FOR REJECTING JESUS!! IT WILL BE MORE TOLERABLE FOR THOSE PERVERTS OF SODOM AND GOMORRAH THAN FOR THE SELF RIGHTEOUS “DO GOODERS” OF THE PHARASEE CHURCHES! Plus I get rewarded, and ADVANCED in my spirituality. What a deal that is! And living in the truth is the only TRULY FULFILLING LIFE. I maybe a decieved sinner now, but as long as I have sincerity and stay in the word, I will be “HIS DESCIPLE (student) INDEED,” and I have the hope that someday God will lift me up as an example of the kind of person he DESIRES to prosper, AND ACTUALLY DO IT TOO!! Then the world will know “there is no evil in the city unless God does it,” and end their boasting of what they CAN DO! And if I am wrong, oops, am I bad for thinking there was any hope in God! I may trip on the stairs and die tomarrow, IF GOD DECIDES TO END MY LIFE, so why should I worry about what MIGHT happen IF THE WORLD DECIDES IT’S OVER FOR ME? I should at least go out with a “bang,” using the “amunition of the word,” THE ARMOR OF GOD! 

If you believe in the pledge of allegiance, there is no greater biurden than imagining you are “indivisible.” But I do not think anyone truly means it when they say that pledge, even though they place their right hand over their heart. The heart being incorporated into the pledge is like saying “we are not just economically indivisable but in heart and soul also.” That should make us think of loving our neighbor even as we love ourselves. And if we do not love ourselves in a saving way, I am sure we love ourselves in a way which pampers and pleases our flesh, unless we are sadistically into self punishment. But few are like that if any, and so it would be a nice place to start loving our neighbor as ourselves to just consider the flesh of our neighbor as being our own since we are indivisable. And as for those who care about their souls and not landing in hell, they should love their neighbor and express their indivisablity by going “OUT OF THEIR WAY” every way they can to preach to their neighbor as they preach to themselves. If it is good enough for them, then to do the same to their neighbor is not breaking the golden rule. But the real “GOLD” of the “GOLDEN RULE” is the gold of the new Jerusalem, and that is the REAL “GOLD STANDARD” we should all aim for, and love ourselves with, so we in our being inseparable from our fellow Americans can spread that ULTIMATE WEALTH: with all the might and soul and mind and heart and love with which we seek God for the love of our own selves. 

But which God calls us to for his own sake, saying, “be ashamed for your own ways.” So there is a love greater than the golden rule, and so transends the very wealth of heaven, which is the place Lucifer could not reach since he did not wish it out of love for God. And that place is to love God and your neighbor for their sake and in a way greater than you love your self, even to the degree of risking your life for them, and if necessary even wishing yourself accursed and blotted out of the book of life so they may realize the truth. If you wish a person well, the one question you should ask is “how much?” Are you willing to die for it? Are you willing to suffer in any way or degree or duration for it? Are you willing to lay down all you consider your life for it? Are you willing to sell all your goods to feed the poor as “payment” to be admitted as a follower of Jesus? It would seem we want a free God, but only his grace to intend our repentance is free. After that it costs all we can give and even beyond. But how will you love anyone more than yourself and pray for them as a truly selfless savior if you do not think they are even a fraction as worthy as you are, and as valuable? Paul says we should count our neighbor as BETTER than ourselves, but how can you do that if all you have is your observation of how little if any they serve you and God? Is there a vision of the truth that transcends all possible “calculations and suppositions” we might havc that could make us see a value in people that just cannot possibily be seen with our intelect and senses? 

And what did Moses see in those MOST SINFUL AND REBELLIOUS JEWS, that made him beg God to blot his name out of the book of life if God did not forgive them? Did he not also complain often to God of being stuck with them AS IF HE HAD BIRTHED AND NURSED THEM FROM INFANTS? But we need children as the “MOTHER CHURCH” for “the woman is saved in child bearing,” and so I would rather have people hanging on my coat tails no matter how much pain it gives me, and no matter how insincere they are. I need it for my own most selfish and “jealous for my soul’s sake,” and maybe that would make me grow faster in God than anything. But I think that is why everyone abandons me, because they think I perish and go to hell if they leave me alone. They know I am a scavenger for souls, and would be pretty much happy just to have a demon to preach to. From the time I entered the cult I was in, I really think they had the attitude of “when will he be obviously demon possessed and without hope?” They would not lift a finger to save me, or it would have skyrocketed me into the “heavenly orbit.” Why did I stay? Maybe it would be the same reason why I would stay with a harlot if she could show enough “outwould appearances” of “forms of Godliness,” because I needed to see some hope that she could become a real wife. If any woman wrote to me, no matter how fake I knew she was, I would gladly keep her as a potential wife, just because I believe in conversion, and that “function” is greater than beauty or compatibility. If anyone chose a broken and limited computer over a high tech and fully functional computer JUST BECAUSE IT WAS BEAUTIFUL ON THE OUTSIDE, they are really walking after the flesh and living with their head in the sand. I don’t even need to see a picture of a woman anymore if I like the description she gives of herself, and in some cases I could promise marriage on the spot so long as she is not lying about anything. Truth is the foundation, so if that is destroyed by the “tares” of lies, WHAT CAN THE RIGHTEOUS DO? If a woman can discover real CHRISTIAN VIRTUE, even if we do not like eachother, we can start or build a real church together that can span and cover the globe like shock waves from the end time holy spirit explosion. But I think the miracle of actually liking eachother would be included in the blessing of “leaving all” to preach the gospel. 

People must think the pledge says “one nation invisible or invinsable,” because of the abuse they put on America by lack of prayer and general support! Just think if that pledge is NOT written by some insane fool, or even less than grade A student, what does “indivisible” mean? IT MEANS EACH PERSON IS ON A “PRESIDENTIAL LEVEL!” It means everyone has equal say, (which is where the idea of “equal rights” come from,) and therefore equal importance. And we all have our own secret service of holy angels “upholding this most basic law” if anyone violates it in ANY WAY, even if it is lack of showing honor, respect, or supporting and carrying out the privaleges and rights we all should have! If everytime our president gets an illness of somekind, we announce the service he gets at the hospital in equisite detail and all the “sumptious glare” the spotlights of media put on it, then all that does is show how we ought to treat every American. And some say, “God bless the world no exceptions,” like so many one liner “democratic” sayings act like they just showed up everybody with a statement of brilliance that could have made the Bible obsolete. But why do we say “God bless America,” as if to exclude the world? It is like saying, to the statue of liberty, “God bless you,” which represents the “one person” who is every American. So what difference does that make, it is the same thing! No it isn’t, if we uphold freedom for us, we uphold it for the world, and we are getting empowered to pass the blessing onto the world. But we cannot act like the world is the same as the principles which founded America, even if America does not care and is in a “free fall” to losing her heritage and becoming no different than any other nation. If America truly acted “indivisible,” even like they were all not just connected but interlocked and flowing as one organism, like how the cells of a body must communicate with eachother in order to be healthy, even on an olympic level, we would carry that “olympic torch of liberty” to the world, and light the torch of their faith it as well. Every person in America is elected president by shear birthright, and also if they are “naturalized, and that is only so we can “deputize” the world to have that same “authority” as well. America is a nation of pure “Royal blood line,” and that is because it is founded on the very truth of God’s word which says, “where the spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.” It is a Republic and not a democrasy, which means a president has power not by “majority” of consenting population, but by the very divine inforcement of God’s own soverignty. The flag does not stand for democracy, but “for the Republic.” There may seem to be a very fuzzy line between the two, democracy and republic, but one is people centered, and the other is God centered. If America were a democracy, then when the people all become corrupt and self worshipping, God would forsake it. Then if we all voted for a corrupt value and law, God would have to honor it, SINCE IT ISN’T HIS NATION! But because God founded America, he is the one who will cleanse, uphold and protect it. And the people who thought the majority rule, who thought they could therefore destroy America, will be very astonished when they see they have no effect on it whatsoever! One TRUE AMERICAN PRESIDENT has more power in his little finger, than the whole world a trillion times over! Our great sin has been putting so little price and prestige upon our great founding documents and it’s flag! Just because we all forsake our duty of office to be president, and make who we elect president, (Who should be but a spokeman of the people,) to have all power, does not mean he is that, UNLESS HE ALREADY WAS THAT! How dare our elected officials say, “now that I am elected I will get things done and work for the people?” What? They haven’t ALREADY BEEN DOING THAT BEFORE WE GAVE THEM THE GOLDEN KEY TO THE CITY? We all have to work with what we got, and make do. Then why do we elect people who think they are helpless until they are officially elected? No wonder we have so many lazy worthless “bums” in office! If we hired people for work the way we elect them to office, we would have nothing but incompetant and lazy slobs making every business in America become dumps! Why can’t every “little guy” be TOUCHED PERSONALLY by EACH AND EVERY person in government office, so he can say “senator or congressman, etc” so and so “REALLY MADE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE! THANK GOD FOR HIM OR HER!!!” And why can’t presidents who start wars, AT THE VERY LEAST have the decency to starve themselves almost to death praying and agonizing for those soldiers and families effected, INSTEAD OF “GLOATING IN PRIDE” about what a “BIG MAN” it makes him! BUT “INSTEAD” WHEN THEY GET INTO OFFICE, THEY THINK THEY PUT THEMSELVES THERE AND THUMB THEIR NOSE AT THE LITTLE GUY WHO VOTED FOR THEM! No wonder politicians can so easilly accept votes from the ignorant and deranged, who may not even know why they are voting, or WHO THEY ARE VOTING FOR? If votes were gotten any old way, as long as they would be “called” ACCEPTABLE by some “official decision,” that is ALL THEY CARE ABOUT! They could care less what the people think, and would be as happy to get elected by gambling, or stealing if it were deemed legal. It’s time God stepped in and shows everyone that America is FREE! SHE DOES NOT BELONG TO THE PEOPLE LIKE SHE IS THEIR SLAVE!!! And by people I ALSO (not just the common civilians) mean those who we see as the “GOVERNMENT” also! America is an entity all in it’s own right, and that is why if you read the protocol of the U.S. flag, it says, “the flag IS a living being!” America is alive and well, with or without it’s people, and she will prove it by purging herself of those in it who think it belongs to them, and is not a “GIFT FROM GOD!” And will God add the sorrow of these ignorant devils to the “GIFT,” since “when God makes us rich he adds no sorrow with it?” The soverignity of America HINGES ON THE VERY SOVERIGNTY OF THE KINGDOM OF GOD! America is not a land of people, but of principles which are the only true formula for prosperity in God. We worship the bone too much like we are dogs, when the founding documents were not meant to be placed upon a shrine to be worshipped, and then in our bone worship, lose sight of why we have a bone, and instead drop the bone in our mouth to go after the bone we see in our own attention to ourselves, as reflected in the water. If we think the bones of the world, the government documents which established all the other nations are so great, then why are we PRETENDING TO HAVE ANYTHING WITH THIS NATION OF AMERICA AT ALL? Some think our history of hypocrasy and atrocities and pure greed, and destruction, etc. HAVE A REFLEXION on what America is all about!! We might as well think the commandments of God are all “bunk” and “tripe” because the children of Israel so often rebelled against them! We might as well think Moses was a golden Calf worshipper because when he went to the mountain again but for a few days, the children of Israel built a golden Calf to worship instead of God! 

Sometimes people’s idea of righteousness is just unbelievable. They think because someone did not live up to their standards, they will perish. But if Jesus did not think anyone made him a judge over them but God, WHY DO WE THINK WE HAVE ANY RIGHT TO THINK WE ARE GREATER THAN JESUS? They judge you as “dead in sin,” but they think it is YOUR JOB TO COME TO THEM AND TELL THEM LIKE THEY ARE YOUR “CARING NEIGHBORHOOD PRIEST” OR SOMETHING! And why does “judge not” always mean “judge NEGATIVELY” to people, since they think they fulfill it by not judging you badly, but to JUDGE YOU “OKAY AND BEAUTIFUL” IS JUST FINE! So why would Jesus say “judge not” to sinners? Because their judgment is flawed, they must rather turn to God acknowledge him in all their ways GET LIVE BY GOD’S OWN JUDGMENT OF US. Jesus is trying to save us from perishing in our own judgment, since EVEN if we judge our neighbor as GOOD, we build a false sense of OUR OWN VALUE, since “by what judgment you judge, you ARE JUDGED! Such flattery we call “loving our neighbor as ourselves” is really called whoredom and fornication IN THE EYES OF GOD. And when whole churches are based on “taking our fill” (usually in very tiny hearts and souls which fill VERY EASILLY,) of spiritual lesbian love, (since it is among the BRIDE of Christ,) it is called GREAT WHOREDOM! If we have a HUSBAND, THE ONLY TRUE MAN CHILD OF GOD, JESUS CHRIST, should we not pray for him to “come quickly” (presently and fully and substantially,) instead of saying “the master of the house, (the church) is gone on a long journey?” If a wife loves her husband, and he is really gone on a long journey, (though he says he is with us always even to the end of the world,) HOW CAN SHE SO EASILY TAKE HER “FILL” OF LOVE FROM MERE “OUTWARD APPEARANCES” AND “CRASS IMPERFECTIONS?” Why did God open his heart, which is his kingdom unto us anyways? So we could so OBVIOUSLY NOT BE AFTER THAT HEART? Does it mean we are judged RIGHTEOUSLY IN RETURN if we are judged as we judge others? NOT UNLESS WE JUDGED RIGHTEOUS JUDGMENTS! God will think it is righteousness for him to “give unto every man according to his works.” Our works are also our thoughts, and God will think if he had decided to perform those thoughts, we would have gladly done them, and so God counts it “adultery” against him, though we “but lusted for it in our own hearts!” And God searches our thoughts and most inner desires, and so he “knows our manifold transgressions and mighty sins.” 

But they are so “slimy and shady and shisty” that to come right out and say, “I think you are lost because you did so and so,” is just TOO TRUTHFUL FOR THEM TO HANDLE! It is not a judgment if they are confessing IT IS WHAT THEY ARE REALLY THINKING! It is only a judgment if they live it AS THOUGH IT IS TRUE, and so to confess our judgments, whether right or wrong (since it is a confession of honesty,) INVOKES GOD TO BE FAITHFUL AND JUST AND TO CLEANSE US FROM ALL UNRIGHTEOUSNESS. Why would God be “faithful and just” to cleanse us, and not ONLY MERCIFUL AND COMPASSIONATE? Because HE SHAPED US IN SIN, AND THERE IS NO EVIL UNLESS GOD DOES IT! We who fear God are SUPPOSED TO TALK OFTEN ONE TO ANOTHER, AND WITH SUCH SACRIFICES GOD IS WELL PLEASED! We shoot our souls in the foot when we do not open up to God with our mouths of HONEST PRAYER TO HIM AND MANKIND, because we are keeping a most horrible condition of wickedness unto the end, when we cannot take credit for making ourselves this way! Why should we finally get stuck with the bill for a debt we are not responsible for? Yet when people do not come unto God to be saved, THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE DOING! When I can go to a judge to be forgiven for a debt I cannot truthfully take credit for, I am insane for not doing so!! And SO THEREFORE when the judge FINALLY says I NOW AM CONSIDERED AS THE REAL AND LEGITAMATE DEBTOR, BECAUSE I DID NOT COME TO BE PARDONED OF IT WHEN I WAS CALLED, THEN I WILL DESERVE TO HAVE THAT ETERNAL DEBT FOR WHICH I WILL THEN BE THROWN FINALLY INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE FOR!

AND YET THEY DO NOT SEE THEIR OWN HATRED TO TRUTH AND LACK OF LOVE FOR WHOM THEY “CONSIDER ENOUGH” TO JUDGE UNTO DEATH, AND TO LEAVE THEM PERISHING, (so they think!!) How can righteousness not “give what they can unto their neighbor when it is IN THE POWER OF THEIR HAND OF FAITH TO DO IT?” These “denomincations” not of real heavenly money but of broken promises to God, are so wicked, THAT THEY FLEE WHEN NO MAN PURSUETH! They act like there is a “lion in the street who will eat me” if I try to mouth off what I really think! And who is that Lion IF THEY EXIST AT ALL? THE RIGHTEOUS WHO ARE “BOLD AS A LION!” And what makes a righteous person righteous in God’s eyes? HIS OWN WORKS? God counted Lot righteous, and he offered his daughters to the perverts in Sodom and Gomorrah. Not that it was NOT A SIN, SINCE IT WAS INDEED A GREAT SIN, but God had a greater design upon him, even his “best construction,” which FAR OVER SHADOWED ANYTHING LOT COULD BE, AND LOT RECIEVED IT, NOT THINKING HIMSELF “SUFFICIENT” OF HIMSELF. Many will come to Jesus saying, “I DID! I DID! I DID!” But will Jesus be impressed? No he will count it all WICKEDNESS, though they gave all their goods to feed the poor and their body to be burned! IF YOU HAVE TRUE LOVE, THE “FIRST LOVE” YOU WILL LOVE IS JESUS! And how can you love Jesus with a love which will not let Jesus fulfill his office as intercessor and savior? Truly righteous people think Jesus is right when he said, “WITHOUT ME YOU CAN DO NOTHING,” AND WITH JESUS WE ARE “KNOWN” BY HIM! Some say “trying is dying,” but how can we but not die when we see God and all he demands of us? How cannot we not therefore live a life of TRYING though it makes us die to our OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS, SO WE SEE IT ALL AS “MENSTRUOUS RAGS” IN THE EYES OF GOD? How can we not be “Scientists” who “TRY NEW THINGS CONSTANTLY” to see what is the best “FORMULA” for drawing nearer to God? And if we cannot live without God, where are rules and laws then? Love fulfills all of that if we cannot live without God, but have one goal only” which is to have the fulness of his son living and ministering out of us as one who INDWELLS us. Jesus wants US as his NEW HUMANITY: SINCE HE SHED HIS OWN HUMANITY ON THE CROSS SO WE COULD BE HIS “NEW HUMANITY!” AND DOES HE NOT HAVE A RIGHT TO TAKE WHAT IS HIS OWN? He says even if he did not sow, (but he did,) he would have a right to reap that which he did not sow! How much more when all we have has been BOUGHT WITH A PRICE, AND GIVEN ALL WHAT IS “SPECIALLY FIT” TO MAKE US ACCEPTABLE BRIDES? 

And often what sinners think will save them is working like a dog all day and then using religion as “formally and mechanically as possible,” and maybe not wearing rings, or defining “indecency” to a “fine art and presice science.” Satan’s children all think the human body is vile and nasty, when God made it in his image! Will you tell God his image is so vile, heaven cannot be pure until he at least “hides it” so no one ever sees it? But then won’t we be “sensing” his image in some other way too, even if it is by mere faith alone? And why is the face “pure and clean,” but the breasts or crotch are not? If one part violates the law of decency and morality, does not James say “all the law is broken?” God tells us “cover the upper lip, crying, UNCLEAN! UNCLEAN!” Surely the body is vile and nasty when contaminated in sin, seeing sin is the most polluting and disfiguring of all diseases and plauges that EVEN GOD knows of!! BUT WHY SHOULD WE WORSHIP AND AGREE WITH THE SIN IN OUR BODIES, INSTEAD OF GOD’S IMAGE IN US? God paid a heavy price so he may “once again” enjoy us, (the first time being in his mind from the foundation of the world when he made us VERY HIMSELF in Genesis,) so why should we count anything in or of us which is made in his image as “condemned and eternally quarantined?” If we do, we shall be so IN OUR WHOLE BEINGS FOR ALL ETERNITY, and God will count it “Slighting his grace” which is a sin INFINITELY GREATER than slighting his law and harsh judgment! What if we really are made in his image? DO YOU THINK THE GOD WHO TAKES INFINITE PRIDE IN HIS IMAGE WILL TAKE IT LIGHTLY WHEN WE JUDGE HIS IMAGE IN OUR BODIES AS “MADE FOR US,” SEEING WE DON’T APPRECIATE IT BUT FOR A “CHEAP FLING” WHEN OUR URGES RISE TO THE OCCASION ANYWAYS? 

And rather than “restore such an one in the spirit of meekness,” their righteousness is so flawed and full of holes, they don’t even think of reading or studying the Bible, and that all they got to do “to fulfil all righteousness” is to “abandon and ignore” that particular person! “He will perish without me,” they think, and that “love” is all about showing your superioroty by (as they imagine they are doing,) throwing that person in hell “where he belongs!” How many think others will perish without them, and instead of it moving them to minister to them in all love and urgent fervency, it makes them to “let them perish!?” A righteousness which shows it’s superitoyt by being the “man unto itself” and punishing the world with eternal damnation “while they walk on their two feet” is a righteousness concieved in the very wreaking bowels of hell, and whose substance is the “waste material” from wickedness itself! Yet this is the kind of righteousness which all of man’s idea of fulfilling the laws of God are! And it is as easy and common as existing itself once you find yourself already existing! But because it is painted with different colors and pictures and decalled with different “religious companies and brands,” (each to his own liking,) people think it is not THE SAME THING! Must God send a word to “correct you” in every “lower rung” of deception you fall, or will you “with all of your getting get understanding?” 

Sincerely yours,

Joseph Edward Bonnette

Sincerely yours,

Joseph Edward Bonnette